*Warning: Sex in this chapter. It's safe to say that almost every chapter from here on out will have sex in it. So, proceed with caution.
Kylo Ren wasn't sure if he wanted to fuck you or kill you. You were driving him insane.
After your encounter with him at the art gallery, he had been walking around all day hard as rock. You hadn't done anything, you had literally just stood there and yet...he wanted you so fucking bad.
He tried to distract himself but nothing worked.
He went to the gym to work out but every time he lifted a weight, he couldn't help but wonder how it would feel to lift you up, up and down on his cock...
He made a big purchase, a new suit, but as he tried it on he couldn't help but wonder what you'd look like undoing the buttons, pushing the material on the floor...
He watched a movie, did some gambling, started a few arguments with unsuspecting soldiers...nothing worked.
It was always you on his mind.
Finally, in one last ditch effort, Kylo decided maybe he should just get out of his mind. He decided to take a few shots of whiskey and do a line or two of coke. It didn't distract him from you at all, in fact, it just made him crazier for you since his thoughts were unfiltered and heightened.
He couldn't take it anymore, he needed release. He knew just who to call and soon, there was a knock on his door.
Kylo almost stumbled to the door, the blood rushing to his head from standing up too quickly. When he opened the door, he frowned at what he saw but let the two women in. "I asked for one." He said to them in a far from friendly tone.
"He thought he would surprise you and send two of us." One of the prostitutes said in what she assumed was a sultry tone. Kylo wasn't in the right frame of mind to even notice her attempt at being sexy.
He shut and locked the door behind the two then looked them over. When he called their boss he specifically asked for them to look like you. He listed all of your physical attributes, practically begging him to find someone who fit that description. It was clear that there was an attempt made but...Jesus, what was he expecting? Your twin? That's what he had wanted.
The two women were clearly uncomfortable at his disapproval, that wasn't the reaction that they were used to. They glanced at each other as if to say, 'should one of us leave?'. But before they could say much more, Kylo was walking back into the bedroom, wordlessly telling them to follow.
"Get comfortable." He mumbled to them, going over to his table to take an other shot and do an other line.
Several minutes later, Kylo was laying naked on his back while the two women were kissing each other, trying to put on a show, as he put on a condom. This wasn't right. This didn't feel like he was with you at all and that had been all he wanted. "There's too many of you." He said, mostly to himself. He looked them over again, deciding one of them looked more like you than the other did.
"You." He pointed to her, "Come here."
She obeyed, moving so that she was straddling him. The other woman moved so that she was laying next to him, not offended, happy to just be able to lay back and watch. They clearly had been requested to do worse before and besides, Kylo was a lot more attractive than most of their past clients.
"Ride my cock." Kylo told her, nodding as if he were giving her permission.
She didn't waste any time lowering herself onto him.
Kylo groaned at the feeling but winced slightly at her over dramatic moan. It wasn't realistic, not like you. He tried squeezing his eyes shut to keep the fantasy going.
"You like that, princess?" He asked her, gripping her hips that weren't the exact size of yours.
"Fuck, I love it." She moaned, moving up and down on top of him.
Kylo shook his head in frustration, "No, you hate when I call you that." He said through gritted teeth.
She paused her movements, confused. She glanced over at the other woman who offered her a shrug in return. "Um...O-ok." She said, resuming her riding. She let out an other moan as if to fix her mistake.
"Say it. Tell me not to call you that." Kylo demanded. He was grasping at straws, trying to get her to do anything that resembled something you might do.
After a few beats of confusion, she started to understand what was going on here. He was clearly pretending to be with someone else. Not a problem, she thought, happens all the time. "Don't call me princess."
This caused him to moan, tensing up. His eyes squeezed shut even tighter, trying to hold onto the fact that this could be you on top of him.
He was close already because he had been on edge the entire day. "That's right, you aren't a princess, you're a little whore." He was meeting her movements now, thrusting wildly.
Kylo's mood and words were so intense in combination with the way he was moving his hips. She decided to just be silent in fear she would say the wrong thing and shatter his illusion. The two of them moved almost in silence for a few moments. Kylo was clearly in an entirely different world than she was.
"You're my whore...Gonna make you my good little whore...Fuck..." Kylo was repeating things like that under his breath and cussing, his orgasm rising and eventually crashing over him. He threw his head back, imagining that he was spilling all of his seed deep inside of you and not into a condom inside of a stranger.
The woman got off of him and joined the other on the bed next to him. They weren't sure what the next move was. Did he want them to keep going? Was he done?
As if he sensed their tension, Kylo draped an arm across his eyes and said, "Get dressed and you can leave. Your money's on the table by the door."
If the two had been disappointed at all by the lack of interaction from Kylo, when they saw that he was paying them triple what they had asked for, it all went out of the window.
Kylo heard his front door shut, indicating that they were gone.
He laid there for what seemed like a long time but was really just a minute or two. He opened his eyes for the first time since he laid down there and frowned. That had given him release and a more level head but he still had that craving for you...
He growled under his breath as he made his way to his shower. He took the condom off and threw it in the trash and then stood underneath the warm spray of the shower head. He was staying in a hotel for the time being, since he had just gotten back in the area and was still trying to find the perfect place to permanently stay. Although it was a nice hotel, it wasn't exactly made for him. The shower was too short and he had to crouch slightly to get the water to hit him just right.
That ordeal had sobered him up and now he was just alone with his thoughts.
What was it about you that was making him so obsessed? Although you were drop dead gorgeous, he knew it couldn't be only that. He was surrounded by gorgeous women all day who threw themselves at him.
He realized, he barely even knew you. Kylo couldn't say anything about your background, your likes or dislikes, he wasn't sure if he could even describe your personality since you were always so guarded around him... He cussed out loud, upset that you were stuck in his thoughts and he couldn't articulate why. He usually had so much self control.
As he ran his fingers through his hair to wash out the shampoo, it dawned on him.
It was the look in your eyes...that twinkle that you sometimes allowed him to see.
You made a point to be loyal to Hux and to distance yourself from the corruption of this life to the best of your ability. There was no reason for you to go to school, you could have everything paid for as long as you made your boyfriend happy. You could fuck Kylo all that you wanted, even if Hux found out there was nothing he'd be able to do about it in the grand scheme of things. You could abuse your power that you had from your ties to the mob, show off your wealth. But yet, you didn't.
You tried so hard to be good.
But you weren't good. Not entirely.
If you were truly good, you wouldn't be involved with the mafia at all. You would've never gone to lunch with Kylo or allowed him to seduce you in the way that he did.
You reminded him of himself. Not Kylo but you reminded him of Ben.
He knew you were so close to the edge of being bad, you just needed someone to show you the way. You did try so hard to be good, but Kylo knew he could break that. He shuddered in pleasure at the thought of you giving in to your desires, all because he was the one who assisted you to see it.
It was too much for him. He had a new surge of determination enter his blood stream as he pictured you going from his princess to his queen. Fuck, Kylo wanted to absolutely break you.
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You had never met the president of your college before. You had seen him at various school events and photos on their website but you were far from a first name basis. So, when Dr.Williams sent you an email, requesting for you to come into his office at 2 pm the next day, it was safe to say that you were confused. You weren't nervous, you knew you hadn't done anything wrong but you hadn't done anything...right either? You wondered if he met with all of the students that were graduating soon, the school was small enough. Either way, you knew it was in your best interest to show up the proposed meeting.
You paused in front of his closed office door for a moment, catching your breath from walking up the multiple flights of stairs. It was always harder to do physical activity when you were a little hungover from the night before. Hux had toted you along to an other dinner. This time, with someone as old and sweaty as you had imagined he would be. You spent most of the dinner talking to his date about the best shopping around. Fun wouldn't be the word you'd use to describe it. But oh well, Hux had bought you a new bracelet for putting on a happy face during it so it was worth the small talk.
After knocking on the door, your new bracelet jingling as you did so, you heard a voice tell you to come in.
As you opened the door, you saw Dr.Williams sitting at his desk, which was expected, but what was far from expected was seeing who was sitting across from him; Kylo.
You didn't move from the door, eyes frozen on the dark haired man. What the hell was he doing there?
"Come in, come in!" Dr.Williams cried happily, standing up from his seat. He was a large and inviting man, a Santa Claus type. If it weren't for Kylo being in the room, you would've felt more than comfortable to come in.
"Um-" You were attempting to say something to make sense of this, your hand was still hovering over the door handle.
"I was just giving Dr.Williams that donation that we talked about." Kylo said to her. He had an amused look on his face, noticing how surprised that you were to see him there. He was fully aware that the two of you had never talked about a donation, that you would have no idea what he was talking about. He gave you a discreet wink, as if he were telling you to go along with this. When he came to his realization in the shower, he knew he had to make some big moves to get your attention, to make you question where your loyalty lied. He wanted to show you how good it could feel to get what you want.
You were at a loss. "Oh...Oh, yeah. Right." You stumbled on your words as you stepped inside the office. You shut the door behind you and took a seat at the desk, next to Kylo. You wanted to ask him what he was doing but you didn't want to blow his cover, at least not yet. You at least didn't want to embarrass yourself.
"I'm not sure we've ever formally met," The president started, reaching his hand out for you to shake, "Dr.Williams." He introduced himself, as if you didn't already know.
You gave him a polite smile and told him your name.
You looked from him, to Kylo, then back again, "Um, a donation?" You asked, distracted from the introduction.
"You came in at the perfect time, actually, I was just explaining everything to Dr.Williams." Kylo cut in. You wondered how he always seemed so relaxed, his words were always easy. Inside, that was far from the truth. Kylo's mind was always racing, always analyzing. Although his words seemed natural, the tapping of his foot and clenching of his fist said differently, he was hoping this would go as planned.
"I was explaining to him that me and you recently went to dinner," He started, "And how you mentioned that the art department could use more funding...I decided to go through with putting together that money that we talked about." Kylo lied, not being able to stop the smirk that made its way to his eyes at her reaction. At dinner with him and Hux, after you had come back from the bathroom, you mentioned that the art department was underfunded compared to the other majors at Columbia but he hadn't mentioned making a donation at all or even the idea of doing so. Where the hell was this coming from, you thought.
You hoped that you were putting on a calm face. "Oh that's...that's great." You had no idea what to say. It was happening too fast for you to process the information while also processing the best plan for you. You didn't know if you should call him out on his bullshit or go along with it, but the easier option was to play dumb so that was what you went with.
"But I was also telling him that the only way I'll make the donation is if you allow me to put it in your name." Kylo added, this time overtly smiling in that smug way of his. He was testing you.
You were speechless now. Your eyes flipped between him and Dr.Williams, trying to gauge their reactions to that statement.
"I told Kylo that would be a huge deal for you..." Dr.Williams said, completely unaware of all of the tension and confusion in the air. "25,000 dollars in the name of a current student..." He whistled while your eyes widened at that amount, "That definitely hasn't been done before, not in the last ten years at least. I can't speak on behalf of any of your professors but I personally would find it hard not to get you the best connections possible once you graduate, with that type of generosity."
You felt like you couldn't breathe. Hux would kill you when he found out that you accepted this but you would be an idiot not to take this opportunity for yourself. Dr.Williams was right, this would be a game changer for your future and your paintings. You swallowed hard, looking anywhere but at Kylo. "Wow that's...." You trailed off, you didn't even know what to say.
"Look, I know you might not be comfortable with it..." Kylo said, putting a gentle hand on your knee. The difference between his touch and Hux's almost made you laugh out loud but your shock stopped you. He was bold. "But I really want to do this for you. I want to make the donation anyways but it would make me really happy to be able to put it in your name, to directly help you as much as it's helping the college." His words seemed so sincere...They were fooling Dr.Williams but not you. He had no reason to care about you, you saw right through it.
You practically glared at him, brushing his hand off of your knee. You disregarded him, turning instead to the president across from you. "I'd love to put it in my name." You told him evenly, not even acknowledging Kylo.
Now the shock of the situation was wearing away and your anger was replacing it. How dumb did Kylo think that you were? Did he expect you to kiss his feet after all of this? Maybe he thought that you would break up with Hux on the spot and declare your love for him. Either way, you were offended but that wasn't going to stop you from getting what she could from this situation. If Kylo was willing to pay that much money to get on your good side and upset Hux then you had no problem taking that money from him.
After the three of you went through the process of signing the necessary documents and making small talk, you and Kylo were alone in the hallway. You glanced at him for a moment before silently walking away from him. You knew that if you said one thing to him, it would turn into a million things and you were way too emotional to make the point that you wanted to.
Kylo had been expecting you to be shocked or upset, this wasn't a surprise to him. He followed after you, his legs were practically double the size of yours so he caught up in no time. He said your name, wanting to stop you.
You stopped at the top of the first flight of stairs, turning around to face him once again, making him stop speaking. Your eyes raked over him and his face, overwhelmed by how to respond to him. Then, deciding, you raised your hand and slapped him across the face.
The sound of the smack echoed in the empty corridor.
Your eyes were intense on each other, a red handprint forming on Kylo's cheek.
Chest rising and falling, you broke the tension, "Who the fuck do you think you are?" You hissed.
Kylo's mouth was set in a straight line but his eyes were dancing. He'd never seen you like this before. He loved seeing you so angry.
You interrupted him, pointing your finger at him in frustration, "Actually don't answer that. Don't even fucking speak, it's my turn to talk." It was very rare for you to speak your mind like this. You were so used to biting back your emotions in order not to rock the boat but you were letting loose now.
Kylo wasn't going to argue with that.
"I don't know that much about you...I barely knew you existed before you came back. I go out of my way to stay out of the details of Hux's business. I don't want anything to do with it!" You were trying to control your voice, not wanting anyone wandering the halls to over hear you. "I don't care what you need to do to prove to him that you have a bigger dick and that you're in charge but leave me out of it, okay?" You said this in a mocking tone.
Kylo opened his mouth again to say something but you interrupted him again.
"He's going to hear about this donation that was made in my name and I am going to tell him that you did it behind my back. You won't tell him otherwise." You told him, it was clear that there was no convincing you to hear his side of it.
You took a deep breath, your head was only slightly more level now that you let some of the anger out. You stared at him, inwardly pleased by his clear surprise at your outburst. Your voice was softer now. "I might play the part of the dumb girlfriend to keep him happy but I am far from oblivious. You have no idea what I've done to get to the place that I am now, there is no way in hell I'm going to let you ruin it."
You turned on your heel to walk away from him, descending down the staircase.
Kylo watched after you. His hand rose to his cheek where you had delivered the stinging blow. There was a million things he planned on saying to you after making that donation but you had surprisingly done all of the talking. He couldn't help the slow grin that formed on his lips... You were going to be so much fun to ruin.