Elora pov
hi, I'm 19, when I was 16 I got kidnapped by mattia
it all started with my dad doing illegal stuff and mattia I guess was a person looking for my dad
I was very sweet and a out going little girl, i had good grades and always had money
now im shy, insecure and stay to myself as much as I can
mattia does bad things to me. he hits me, stabs me when I dont listen, rapes me, and he just hurts me in general
I have a son name holden. mattia raped me and didnt use protection so now I have holden
he doesnt really talk a lot and is very scared around mattia or when mattia yells
the only thing I really hate is when mattia drinks is because he doesnt know how to control his self
and it scares me
he gets to close to holden i have to try and keep him away from him with out mattia hurting me
the only good thing I like about living with mattia is that I get paid
but I have to give him lap dances and shit
I get paid 1k every week but I dont get to spend it
Mattia tells me to save it just in case i need it for something
holden is 3 and is a very smart boy
he loves mattia obviously its his dad but he doesn't like everything about him
I dont like anything about him. I just hate him
when I got pregnant by mattia with holden Mattia made me feel like shit and told me I wasnt worth it
he would do it for hours and I would have to listen to him and say nothing
then after he would get drunk high and say he was sorry and he loved me
thats the only time he did say "I love you" was when he was drunk
all I'm saying is I want my old life back
yk the one where i was nice and out going and had meaning to my life
where I wasnt being forced to do things I not okay with
being tooken away from life is horrible and i learn from experience
this book is prolly gonna turn out basic because im just like that
but yeah
you like balls?