I wake up a few hours later. It's 1 am. My pillow is soaked from my tears. I glance over at my phone, sitting on my nightstand, it's lit up. More instagram notifications. I don't even have to look at them before the pain from earlier comes back. I feel the tears well up in eyes once again. I grab my phone, determined to delete all the notifications. I'm about to clear it, when I notice a text from Blake, recieved 10 minutes ago.
B: hey :)
His one, simple text, instantly makes me smile. I don't even question why he's still awake. I had forgotten all about him, in my quest to find someone to talk to. I'm not sure how I did. After he was so nice to me. I think about what Lilian had said earlier, about him liking me. I'm starting to think she was right. Not that it's a bad thing, but I feel so conflicted now. I reply to Blake's text, I hope he won't mind listening to my problems.
K: hey :(
B: what's wrong!? 😧
K: have you been on Instagram recently?
B: no, not since Ashtyn and Lilian started texting Carter and I, telling us to go look on your instagram, (Nice pic by the way 😝) Why do you ask?
K: someone reposted the picture, and now I'm getting a lot of interesting notifications....😢
B: like hate?! 😮
K: yeah, most of it 😖
B: whatever they say, don't listen to them!
B: they're just weirdos hiding behind a screen! 😡
K: thanks. Some are pretty bad, go look at photos of me 😔
B: I don't need to, you're a great person. And anyone who says otherwise doesn't know what they're talking about! ❤️
K: aww thanks Blake! You just cheered me up 😊
It's true. I feel happier, almost like the feeling when a fangirl gets noticed.
B: Anytime! 😉
B: im going to bed now, cu tomorrow!
K: night! Cu :)
I pull down my notifications tab, I don't even bother to look at what's there, I just clear them. I know Blake's right. I shouldn't let what other people say, who know nothing about me, affect how I think and feel. I put my phone back on the night stand, and rest my head on my pillow. It's still a little damp, so I sit back up, and quickly turn it around. I lay back down, finally comfortable. Now I can sleep.