Ethan's POV:
I woke up to the sound of the door opening. I looked around, pretty confused when a doctor came into view.
"Oh, sorry to wake you," He said, looking down at his worksheet. "Oops, sorry. This seems to be the wrong room. My apologies," He added, walking back out the door. I tried sitting upright but my back was killing me. Guess I slept wrong. I reached over to massage my neck, my eyes still closed. The slow, even beeping of the monitor being the only noise present in the room. Once my back was a little better, I was able to sit up and look around the room. Grayson still fast asleep. Thank God it was just a dream. I resumed grabbing his hand and went on my phone, still holding onto him as if my life depended on him. I need him to know I'll always be here with him.
About 35 minutes later, I felt a squeeze on my hand and I looked at it, seeing no movement. I assumed it was my mind playing tricks on me and I went back on my phone when I felt a squeeze once again. I turned off my phone and grabbed the same hand with my other hand. I felt it again and then saw his fingers move. I looked up at his face and saw him slowly open his eyes. He's alive!
"Grayson!" I yelled, throwing myself on top of him.
"Ow, ow, ow, my arm," He spoke and I threw myself off of him, feeling horrible.
"Oh my god, I am SO sorry I forgot. I was just excited that you're ok and not dead," I said, smiling and caressing his face with my thumb. He smiled into the touch, before slowly moving his face away, looking at the window.
"Please go away...." He let out, not facing me.
"Grayson, I-" I started, but he interrupted me.
"Look, I know you didn't mean to. And I know you would never hurt me this way. I'm not mad at you. I completely forgive you for doing what you did. I love you way too much for me to be mad at you or hate you. You're the most important person in my life Ethan. You've always been. I've been in love with you for as long as I can remember and you don't know how happy I am to know that you're in love with me too, but..." He trailed off. I grabbed his hand, but he quickly removed it.
"But what?" I asked, scared to know what he was going to say next.
"But I'm scared of you.." He let out, closing his eyes and letting out a whimper. "I thought I couldn't feel anymore horrible, but here I am, wishing for everything to go back to the way it was. And I mean before all of this happened. A year should be fine.
"Gray..." I let out, getting closer to him.
"Ethan, please understand. I'm terrified of what you're capable of doing to me when things go wrong or when you lose your temper. Today, for instance. I never thought you'd be capable of physically hurting me, yet you sent me flying down the stairs. What would happen if we're dating and we have a disagreement? Are you gonna run me over? What would happen if we get married and we have a fight or an argument? Are you gonna stab me? I shouldn't be asking myself these questions Ethan," he told me, looking over at me with a sad expression.
"Grayson, I would never run you over or stab you for any reasons. You know I love you with all my heart and that my main goal in life is to protect you and not let anybody put you in harm's way. But I-"
"Ethan, you've told me this before. Truth is that we both don't know what could happen if we-"
"No Grayson. I am not giving up on you. I know what I did was bad and that I should be more careful, but c'mon Gray. We've been living together for 19 years, and how many of those have I actually purposefully hurt you? Whether it was physically or emotionally?" I asked, taking a seat next to Grayson.
"Never," He muttered.
"See, it was just one mistake, Gray. A mistake I'll regret for the rest of my life. But you have to understand. I was hurt. I had just found my boyfriend having sex with a girl. Do you think that's easy to deal with? It's hard enough to know that your man is cheating on you, now imagine what it's like finding out for yourself, seeing them right there, in front of you with your own two eyes. It's not the best feeling in the world. And then you come along and tell me that you knew all along? Of course, I had the right to be angry. I wouldn't blame you for it if you were in my place and I was in yours. We all do things we don't mean to when our judgment is clouded by emotions. So again, Gray, I apologize for putting you through so much pain today. I'm sorry for shutting you out these past couple weeks. I'm sorry for not being the best twin brother there is. I'm sorry for pushing you down the stairs. And I'm mostly sorry for not being a better human being that you can trust and love," I told him as I got up and left the room.
Grayson's POV:
"... And I'm mostly sorry for not being a better human being that you can trust and love," He told me as he got up and ran out of the room. I was speechless. He was right though. I shouldn't have kept anything from him. And now because of that, here I am. With a broken leg and a broken arm or whatever happened to it. I laid in bed, thinking over and over what Ethan told me. I knew, deep down how sorry he was for doing this to me, but I was terrified of him now. The uncertainty of what he is possible of doing to me when he gets too angry or too upset. I sighed and looked out the window to the dark and gloomy day. Matched my mood today. I decided to sleep it out and wait and see what happened later.
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I woke up, expecting to be alone when I saw Ethan laying down next to me on the hospital bed, asleep. I smiled and grabbed his phone to check the time. It was midnight. No wonder he was asleep. He was a heavy sleeper so I decided to let go of his grasp and wrap my arm around him, slowly moving him so that he was more comfortable. I gently placed him on my chest and then used my hand to play with his hair. I had a nice dream. A very nice dream of him and me. A dream that requires that rated r sign in the movie theater. It was a dream that felt so real, so good, that I really wish and hope it becomes real.
I thought about everything he said. And I need to live without any grudges. After all, we were born together. Grew up together. We do everything together. It's pretty sad to think that we could drift apart over something tiny that happened. Well, not tiny but you get what I mean. Besides, I don't think I could live without Ethan. He's my everything. He's the most important person in my life. The person I love the most. The person I desire the most. He's... I'm not sure how to explain it, but he's my world. My universe. And I'm not about to throw all that away over something that can be fixed. Sure, I'm still upset about being cheated on. But I know that with time, and with Ethan's help, I can forget this and move on to bigger and better things. And hopefully, those plans include Ethan all the way till the end.
"I forgive you, Ethan," I whispered, before going back to sleep again.
Ethan's POV:
I woke up early the next morning on Grayson's chest. I felt the way his chest slowly moved up and down with every breath he took. I smiled as I realized his arm was around me too. I missed this. I missed feeling Grayson's protection. His love. I love Grayson with all my heart and I hoped he still did too. I need Grayson to live in peace. He's become like my drug. I can't imagine living without him. We've spent 19 years together, and if all that meant nothing and we each go our separate ways, I will be completely shattered. I felt him move a little underneath me and I decided to move a little, to make sure I wasn't hurting him. When I tried to get off his chest, I felt his strong arm wrap around me and hold me in place.
"Please don't leave.." He moaned, his voice deep and hot. I looked up to see him staring at the ceiling. "Please don't leave me, Ethan... I need you. I want you.." He said again. I moved up so that I was eye level from him. He looked at me and we just laid there, staring at each other. I saw how his eyes went from dull, back to becoming those beautiful bright hazel eyes I fell in love with. I smiled as I reached up and placed my hand on his cheek.
"I love you, Grayson," I whispered ever so quietly, fearing that if I spoke too loud, everything would end.
"I love you too Ethan," He replied. I slowly started to lean in, scared to move too fast and ruin the moment. When I was centimeters away from his lips, I opened my eyes and saw his. They were pleading for me to connect our lips together. I felt his breath hit my lips ever so lightly, and I continued leaning in until our lips finally met. His lips fit perfectly well against mine as if they were made for each other. The kiss was slow, but not sloppy. To the whole world, this might seem wrong. But to us, this seemed perfect. This was perfectly wrong for us. But we didn't care. All we cared about was each other. I pulled away to regain my breath and opened my eyes. He opened his eyes as well and rested his forehead against mine. "I forgive you Ethan.." He let out, smiling.
"I forgive you too Gray..." I said, smiling at him as well. We both laughed before we reconnected our lips again.
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"Ok, you're all set. Have a nice day," The doctor said as he walked out with all the papers in his hand. I quickly put my shoes on and then ran over to Grayson's side, helping him walk with his crutches.
"You know, this looks pretty easy. But once you have to do it, it's fucking hard," He said, struggling to make his way around the bed. We laughed the whole way out the hospital and to the car. I opened the passenger door and helped him get in and sit down. I threw the crutches on the back seat and walked over to my side. I got in and sat down, turning on the car and waiting for it to heat up a bit. "Can I ask you something?" He said. I looked over at him and nodded my head, grabbing his hand and intertwining our fingers. "What are we?" He asked.
"Well, we're brothers," I said, smiling. He rolled his eyes and hit me on the chest.
"I know that. I meant like-"
"I know what you mean," I cut him off, smiling. I grabbed his hand and brought it up to my lips, kissing it lightly. "The real question here is... what do you want us to be?"
"How about... boyfriends?" He suggested shyly. I couldn't help but smile at how sweet and innocent he was.
"Alright then. Grayson, would you do me the honor of making me the happiest man alive, for me to call you mine, and for us to share our whole life together and becoming my boyfriend?" I asked, looking him in the eyes. He smiled widely and nodded.
"Of course! There's nothing holding us back, is there?" He asked before leaning over for a kiss. I laughed and leaned over to kiss him. There truly wasn't anything holding us back.
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What's up me amigoes?!
I am finally complete with this novel!! The ending is kinda boring but then again, I think it's the only real book to have an ending where they're both alive and happy so I'll end it there because I have dozens of ways to prevent that from happening lmaooo
Anyways, yeah. Let me know how much you liked it! It took me some time but I'm lowkey kinda proud of it :) Next up: Another Grethan fanfic which I still don't know what the title's gonna be but I have a few chapters written of it
Also, let me know if ya'll want an epilogue or something like that to briefly describe their lives after this :')
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Hope you guys have a fabulous rest of the week and happy holidays!
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