It’s been about 6 months since I realised I was in love with my best friend. Do you know what it’s like to have a secret you can tell no one about and it feels like it’s eating you up inside? That’s how I feel. I wish I didn’t love him. But love isn’t a choice right? You can’t choose who you fall in love with, it just happens. I wish I could tell him but I don’t know what I would do if he rejected me. He knows I’m gay but he just doesn’t swing that way. What would happen if I told him? Would he be disgusted? Would he never want to see me again? I don’t know if I would cope if I couldn’t see that beautiful face again.
Let me back up.
I’m Liam Payne, and yes I’m gay and in love with my best friend Niall Horan who is obviously straight.
I wish I could be happy like my two best friends Harry and Louis, they are perfect for each other! It makes me jealous sometimes seeing them so in love. Sometimes I wish I could tell them that I love Niall but I feel like if I tell someone it will become real, I want it to be real but I don’t want to get hurt, so by keeping my love for him to myself I feel safe. I guess? I don’t really know how to explain it.
Anyway enough of me!
The boys (Louis, Harry, Zayn & Niall) are coming over tonight.
I am not looking forward to it. Don't get me wrong, I love the boys but its so hard seeing him.
Authors Note:
Sorry this was so short!! I didn't really know how to start xD Can you please leave me a comment and tell me what you thought? And if I should continue with this? Please! It would mean the world :3