Yvam.
I woke up because of the alarm. I quickly managed to lighten my insights at my work as all my music sheets got piled up in my desk
"Fuck!" I cursed out. Having a head ache over breakfast is the most hurtful thing for such morning.
"Yvam? Yvam?! It's almost 9 and your interview is about to start in a f*cking minute!" My manager shouted from my door
I know that! I know all this shits that they're giving me just to make more money in the entertainment company
"yeah yeah. I'm almost done" i replied nonetheless as I grab my flash drive and copied the new composed song that I've been working on in almost a week now
Habang pumapasok ako sa banyo ay nagring ang cellphone ko
"yes? What is it?"I ask in an irritated tone
I mean who the f*ck would call you in this hour?! Where probably most people are getting ready to go to their damn work?!
"Yvam! Hindi mo ako sinipot" Nicka stated with her weird tone
I really hate girls like her. Tss. Maarte.
"Then let's have a break up" I suggested while taking my clothes off
"What the f*ck?!" She shouted so I ended the call
Who the hell is she to cursed me out? Nicka is a singer and an actress also we were working on the same company but we never dated through out the world to see. We were just dating in the falling curtains infront of us.
My number one rule is to never get myself link in some girls who just wanted attention from my crown and career
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I got myself in the company itself and now were having a meeting for the group comeback of my friends and I'll be producing they're songs
"Maganda yung kanta" Terrence stated at pinalakpakan ako
I didn't answered him. Damn him and his lies.
"But the releasing of album will be delayed Sir! " Kian shouted the main vocalist
I snorted at his comment
"It's okay to have the album delayed. Beside's the song will be a massive hit anyway" I replied
"Nilagay na namin ang effort sa mga unang kanta--"
"You did? Yung sayo dun almost 13 minutes lang ang kakantahin mo and now your talking about some efforts? Really?" I said as he walk towards me and grab my collar
"F*ck you Yvam. If you can't undeal with the past then don't drag me into it" madiin nyang sabi
He'll f*cking regret that he bought up that topic
"It is you who can't deal with it Kian. Alamin mo muna kung sino ang binabangga mo." I answered back with a glare as I push him away
I didn't listen to their calls anymore. Dumaretso ako sa parking lot at pumasok sa kotse ko
My grip tightened on my phone as it rang and my brother's name were showing off the screen
"Yvam... Mom is dead" he said on the other line
I don't know what to feel nor to do. Nabitawan ko nalang ang cp ko at agad na nag-drive patungong hospital
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I drove the road like a flash who's like trying to save someone nung biglang may tumakbong babae sa gitna ng kalsada kaya dali dali akong nagpreno
Mas kinabahan ako nung nahimatay yung babae sa harap ng kotse ko at pinapaligiran na kami ng mga tao
"F*ck! " I cursed out and hurriedly went out of the car and check her pulse
Her skin had gone so red and her breathing is not normal. I quickly lift her up and put her inside of my car. Is she hurt? Nabangga ko ba talaga sya?
"Couldn't this day go worse?!" Inis kong sigaw at nagdrive na patungo sa hospital
I glance at the girl beside me as she's sleeping peacefully and her skin was red as a tomato... Damn! Is this my fault?!
Hindi naman ako tanga para hindi malaman kung anong matatamo mo pag nabangga ka
"What happened to you?" I suddenly ask to the air
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"Doc! We found her!" Rinig kong sigaw nung nurse habang buhat buhat ko yung babae at nilagay sa stretcher
The doctor ran into my side at agad na chineck yung condition ng babae
" Ready the emergency room" utos nya sa nurse kaya naguguluhan akong tinitignan sila
"What the f*ck is happening?!" I shouted causing all their gazes to put into me
"Sir kamag anak po ba kayo ng pasyente? O kakilala?" biglang sabi nung nurse sakin
"Kailangan po kasi namin ng confirmation para sa isang medicine nya sir. At kailangan na itong ma-i-inject sakanya or mas magiging worse ang kalagayan ng pasyente. Wala pa po kasi yung Tatay nya dito" She added
My mind is a mess that time and all I could think is to save that girl.
"I uh.... I'm his boyfriend" sagot ko
I was taken aback and I do not know what to do
Mom was dead and here I was taking care of something that is chaotic
Agad kong kinuha ang ballpen at nagsign nalang saka ako umalis doon as the sleeping figure of the girl pass me and by looking at her... It gives me such feelings that I want to know
Why the f*ck did I say that? Nahihibang na ba ako?!
"Prince Yvam. Pinapahanap na po kayo ni King Yves" biglaang sulpot na naman ng isang doctor sa gilid ko
"Lead the way" sabi ko nalang at sumunod sakanya pero nakatingin padin doon sa glass door ng kwartong pinasukan nung babae kanina
"Would she be okay?" Nag-aalala kong tanong kay Dr. Ramirez
He sighed at pinindot ang 7th floor sa elavator button
"Sino pong tinutukoy nyo kamahalan?" Tanong nya
"The girl! The girl over the emergency room!!" I shouted
"Don't worry sir I'll check her later and report it to you" he said as he walked out in the elevator at sumunod sakanyang naguguluhan padin
"Yvam..." I heard kuya Trace called my name as they got out in a room
Mama... Patay na si mama...
I quickly took my pace and walked inside the room at natagpuan ko doon si Mama na nakatalukbong na ng puting kumot
My tears falled out in my eyes immediately as I held her hand. Ang lamig na nito... Sobrang lamig...
"Ma... Bat ka namang sumuko kaagad? Hmm? Y-you p-promise me to watch my concert one day... N-nagpromise kang magiging fan ko everyday ma... Pero bakit ka umalis? " I cried so hard as my mother didn't gave me an answer
"Yvam.." i heard my brother behind me as he tap my shoulders
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Wala ako sa sariling nakaupo sa sahig dito sa rooftop ng hospital
I'm tempting to kill my own father. I want him dead and why the f*cking hell did Kuya Yves didn't kill him!
I sighed and closed my eyes... Sariwang hangin.
Time's like this, when I'm so broken or happy. Music engulf me then my mind will do a rhythm and I'll mentally speak the lyrics.
The breeze suddenly gave me a tune... A beautiful harmony for a song to sing... And before I knew it. I started to hum it's music
Peaceful... Kinapa ko ang cellphone ko para mai-record na kaagad yung tono at yung lyrics dahil baka makalimutan ko na naman dahil sa pagiging short term memory ko
But I left it on my damn car kaya naiinis akong tumayo at ginulo ang buhok ko
F*ck! I need to record it now!
Pero agad akong napatingin sa pintuan ng rooftop na nakabukas na at lumabas ang isang pamilyar na babae at may hawak hawak syang cellphone
Looks like tumatakbo sya papunta dito dahil sa nahihingal syang umatras sa silong at napasandal sa dingding
Tss. I'll borrow a damn phone for the meantime then, kasi hindi matatahimik ang kaluluwa ko pag hindi ko ito nai-save
"Ms. Pahiram muna yung phone mo" saad ko at lumapit sakanya
Napatingin sya sakin at nagulat... Wait! I know her! But I'll deal with her later hindi pwedeng mawala sa isipan ko yung tono
She didn't gave me her phone at umatras kaya naman inagaw ko ito sakanya na syang ikinagulat nya
🐻
Ayla.
"Hindi mo ako naiintindihan Romel! Pagod na ako!" Rinig kong sigaw ni Mommy sa sala ng hospital room ko
"Anong klase ka bang ina Kayla?! Napapagod ka sa sarili mong anak?!" Sigaw din ni Daddy
I sighed as I wipe my tears away and got my slippers. Napapagod na din ako sa away nila. Bakit ba kasi sakin napunta ang sakit na to?!
Pumasok ako sa banyo and got the blade in the table at unti unti ko itong binaon sa kamay ko
Dumanak ang dugo pero wala akong naramdaman na kahit ano. Am I really this numb? Can't I really feel things anymore?
Yet my tears kept on falling...
So I turn on the faucet and let the water flow in my wrist as the sun rises on the window
Immediately, I felt the pain in my eye as I turned to gaze at it kaya napatalikod agad ako
"Then let's have an annulment!" Rinig kong sigaw ni Mommy habang lumalabas na ako sa banyo
"Kailangan ka ng anak mo! "Rinig ko pang sabi ni Dad sakanya
See? Their relationship was so wreck because of me. Mahihirapan si Daddy pag nawala si Mommy at baka ganun din si Mommy
They both deserve to be happy at mukhang ako ang hadlang... I smiled bitterly at hindi na ako nag-abala na kumuha ng sweater
Lumabas ako ng hospital na parang wala sa sariling umiiyak. Hindi ako dumaan sa mga silong. I let myself skin burned by the sun.
I lift up my insights to the road at nakitang naka green ang traffic light. Hindi na ako nag-agtubiling huminto sa paglalakad
My breath was hitch... My skin went dry at the same time its swollen. I need to die. Wala akong kwenta. Kaya nararapat lang sakin ang mamatay.
I heard a loud beep kaya napatingin ako sa sasasakyang magdadala na siguro sakin sa langit.
I welcomed it to kill me yet I felt weak all of a sudden at natumba na... I winced in pain the moment someone touched my skin. Sobrang sakit. Parang pinapatay ako ng sakit.
Wala na akong makita. But I can hear other's whispering... Puro na blur ang nakikita ko... And then darkness engulf me at last.
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I woke up and I'm feeling better. Napatingin ako sa paligid. Puti. Puro puti and the interior design was really familiar
"Good gracious Ayla! You had make us so worried! " Rinig kong sigaw ni Ate Van sakin
She's my personal nurse here. Tumahimik ako. Ba't hindi pa ako namatay?
"Also deary ang gwapo pala ng boyfriend mo ha" biglang nyang sabi kaya napa-upo ako
Boyfriend? Ako may boyfriend?!
"Ano?!" Patanong kong sigaw kaya nahulog yung chart nya
"Bat ka ba nanggugulat?!" Pabalik nyang sigaw sakin
"Sino? I mean... Nasaan sya? Yung taong nagpakilalang boyfriend ko?!" Tanong ko pa din
"Nakasabay ko sya kanina sa elevator eh.. patungong rooftop yung floor nya" sagot nya sakin
Agad kong tinanggal yung IV kaya naman nagulat si Ate Van
"Ayla! Malalagot na naman ako nito sa Papa mo!" Sigaw pa nya pero dere-deretso akong lumabas sa kwarto tsaka binalikan ang cellphone ko
While I'm on the elevator. I can't help but think kung bakit pa ako dinala sa hospital nung gago but I really want to meet him. Ewan ko kung magpapathank you ba ako o bubulyawan sya dahil ako'y sinagip nya
Nakarating ako sa rooftop as my gaze fell to a man running his hands on his hair...
Napatingin sya sakin at walang anu anong linapitan ako
My mouth fell open because of his handsomeness... Grabe.. nakakalaglag panty. It was like... I'm meeting my prince charming in no time..
I was intently looking at him nung bigla nyang hinablot ang cellphone ko
Sino ba tong lalaking to at biglang nang-aagaw ng cellphone? Isa ba sya mga magnanakaw?! Kinutuban na ako at napa-atras saka pinagmasdan pa sya
Ang gwapo naman nya para maging magnanakaw... Matangkad at sobrang ganda ng aura nya...
At napatigil ang paghinga ko saka parang nagslow motion lahat nung bigla syang kumanta at rinecord ito sa phone ko
"Baby, you're all that I want
When you're lyin' here in my arms
I'm findin' it hard to believe
We're in heaven"
He sang... My world's fast rotation has turned into a slow motion... Ang hangin na humahampas sa buhok nya... Ang boses nyang parang anghel, ang ganda...
Para sakin ba yon? Para sakin ba?!!!!! Para na akong naiihi dahil dun sa baby nya!
Ang pagtingin nya sakin habang kinakanta ang mga lyrics... Ang ganda ng moment... Para kaming kinukunan ng camera at unti unti itong tumataas para makunan pa kami ng magandang anggulo kasabay ng backround music....
His eye's sparkled at the sun's light and then I found myself trying to be with him in the sun when he suddenly step forward kaya naman agad akong napa-atras
Kinuha nya ang kamay ko at biglang nagputukan ang mga fireworks sa sistema ko... Linapag nya doon ang cellphone ko at tinignan ako sa mata
"I had save my number there already... Just send me later the record okay?" He stated saka ako nginitian at tumakbo na pababa sa hagdan
Napahawak ako sa puso ko na kung makatambol ay grabe grabe!!! Mahal na ata kita!!!! Kaya Grabe grabeee!! (Insert Mau's tone)