(This is a vent..
Yes. I suffer from paranoia.
It fucking sucks.)
.○:°Evan's P.O.V.°:○.
I'm so sick of this.
I've never been more sick of anything in my life besides this paranoia..
I lie awake, becoming an insomniac each time I hear the slightest sound when it's late.
I always feel like.. something or someone is there.
Like something is going to happen.
I can't help this fear. But I want it to end.
I know I have no reason to constantly be scared.
I tell myself this.
But when something triggers it, I can't calm down.
I'm too scared to even leave my room at night.
And it's worse then ever right now.
I have been trying to sleep, yet I can't.
My mom is out of town.
And someone is walking around in my house.
I'm shaking. I'm crying.
I can't stay calm..
What did that noise come from?
What if the moment I leave my room whatever it was will tackle me to the ground and claw my eyes out?
I need to calm down..
But I can't. I need to. But I can't.
Something is going to happen, I don't know what, but something.
I'm not ready to die....
My sobs are so loud, my neighbors might be able to hear them.
But I don't care about that.
I just...
I want this to be over..