"Another bad dream?"
Geoff asks sitting on the other side of the couch he seems concerned.
He doesn't need to be concerned for me.
Ever.
"Another bad dream."
I awnser his concern staying on his beautiful face.
"What was the dream about?"
I stare at his nose ring should I tell him? should he know that I was dreaming about that day.
That I'm having nightmares about that day.
"You"
His slightly enthusiastic face becomes sad. He souldn't be sad.
I never want him to be sad.
Lost in my thoughts I didn't notice that Geoff had moved.
Right next to me on the couch he stares in awe at my blue hair.
"Can I lay with you?"
This comes as a shock because Geoff usually doesn't want anyone to see him not to mention touching him.
Why me?
What makes me allowed to touch him?
I can't say no this may be one of the only times I'll be able to touch his fading body.
Why me?
"Yes you can lay with me why would you not?"
His face brightens up as he leans on my chest sprawling his legs out on the couch.
"Have I ever told you how much I love you"
He whispers.
At this I have no idea what to say.
I don't know what he means.
Love can be very different things.
I wonder if I'll ever know the awnser.
I pet his soft hair as if he were a puppy as he drifts into sleep and I'm left awake all by myself.
He's so precious I can't handle it
I can't handle the fact that he might just be gone.
Neither Otto or I could deal with that. With him not being here.
I need to stop repeating that thought.
My brain hasn't let me.
One last time.
We can't make it without Geoff.
The world seems calmer while his head is on me. His weight is a signal that he is still him.
That he isn't simply a computer code yet.
The world seems less like a broken bone when he is close to me. His fluffy hair like a blanket for my chest.
I don't care that you have a glitch I don't care. The only reason I care is because it's hurting him that if we don't do anything about it will kill him.
The fact he hates himself for it. He still looks beautiful to me.
No matter what he thinks.
What am I thinking I don't love Geoff not like that. We're family.
Well family with no blood relation and that's okay that's just how I like it.
Them as people is my small home.
We're family.
Are we just family?
Do I want us to be just family?
I continue to pet his brown hair deep into the night.
I'll lay here with him as he fades. I hope he sleeps through it. Maybe sleep will ease the pain.
I hope sleep will ease the pain for him.
He can't hear me anymore he is too far into his dreams.
I hope he is dreaming of the times he was not glitched but knowing him it's probably a nightmare of how hideous he is because of it, how 'ugly' his hologram looks, how he's deteriorating.
How he's not real.
Whatever the cost is to get did of the glitch we will pay the price, pay the price for this precious boy.
"I think I love you too"