1.) Sexual orientation?
Idk bi ? Gay ? Who knows
2.) What I'm really bad at?
Everything ????
3.) Celebrity I'd fuck?
Um tbh I'm not really into like,,, imagining fucking celebrities. I honest to god don't even think about celebrities like that. HOWEVER if I had to choose I'd fuck anyone from Palaye Royale they're all within 10 years of my age so
4.) Best first date?
I'm really bad at remembering first vs second dates but once this guy and I went out and saw Star Trek and it was just a really good time ??? I don't even like Star Trek that much but I had a blast fam
5.) Description of my self esteem?
No shit I fucking hate myself
6.) Best friend's name?
Greg + Kian I love them equally
7.) Favorite book?
Harry Potter, either Half Blood Prince or Deathly Hallows (they both make me emo)
8.) Biggest turn off?
I don't care how cute a dude is if he's an egotistical fuck I'm out
9.) Description of my best friend?
V v nice and bad jokes and hella supportive of all my dumb shit, super smart, bless up
10.) Favorite animal?
HOLY FUCK DO I LOVE DOGS
11.) Someone I miss?
I don't really miss anyone rn?
12.) Reason behind my last break up?
He was into someone else ig
13.) What I did yesterday?
Man I hardly remember what I did 2 hours ago I don't know
14.) Greatest achievement?
I've done nothing noteworthy with my life so there's that
15.) Description of what I like the most?
Oblivious to everything, ass hat, self centered, dumb hair, everything happens to him, extremely bisexual, rad lightning scar ('tis harry potter)
16.) Favorite songs?
Somebody Else- The 1975
Mr. Doctor Man- Palaye Royale
Miserable At Best- Mayday Parade
Seventy Times 7- Brand New
Blame It- Of Mice & Men cover
Closer- Nine Inch Nails
17.) How my last kiss went down
It was,,,, a fun time but I'm not gonna get into that
18.) What I find attractive in the preferred sex?
Honestly appearance has very little weight with me. I find intelligence, humor, and kindheartedness more attractive than anything,
19.) Initials?
RJM
20.) Favorite ice cream flavor?
Cookie dough. Very different from cookies and cream @ dairy queen.
21.) Where I want to be right now?
I'm pretty content where I am I think
22.) Worst thing someone's said to me?
So last year I had plans so kill myself on May first. I didn't obviously, but I still have an extremely vivid memory of my best friend at the time telling me the next day that since it was still May, I could still kill myself.
23.) Places I've lived?
3 different cities in the hellhole that is Indiana. I lived in Indianapolis when I was little and then moved south.
24.) I'll love you if...
Ur nice to me ? My standards are not high I have enough love for everyone
25.) Future plans?
Okay right now I'm planning on going to Florida for college, to go to Full Sail University to major in music production. I'd love more than anything to become a musician but I know my chances of really going anywhere with that are pretty low so my backup plan is a tattoo artist.
26.) An internal conflict I have?
Fam I'm always arguing with myself over everything lmao. A frequent conflict is just like,,, should I actually fucking try to get my shit together or just continue watching my life fall apart and hoping it fixes itself?
27.) What I'm doing tomorrow?
Nothing??? But day after tomorrow I'm having the band I'm in come over it'll be lit
28.) What I want to do when I grow up?
Like I said, musician or tattoo artist. I fucking love tattoos
29.) Most embarrassing moment?
The entirety of the sixth grade. If I could go back in time I would go back to the sixth grade and punch myself in the face.
30.) Two insecurities?
Fucking everything ?? But two specific things are like,,,, my music skills and then my art skills
31.) If I won the lottery?
I'd buy the rest of the stuff i need for my recording studio, so much fucking paint/body paint/brushes/ etc. And a drawing tablet. I realize this shit isn't even expensive (except the stuff for the studio) but I'm always broke so
32.) Description of my crush?
V cute, v funny, cute cheeks, hella smart, bless
33.) favorite thing about myself?
Idk I don't hate my hair that much??? But that's bc its dyed lmao
34.) pet peeves?
Slow walkers, people who fucking scream for no reason ??? And people who talk to me when I have headphones in. Like 3 people on my bus tap my shoulder and take out my ear buds like "hey buddy (:" I don't like any of them fkn
35.) Bands I've seen live?
Shit hold on. There's Palaye Royale, Black Veil Brides (ew) Falling In Reverse (also ew), P!nk, The Hive, Set It Off, Drama Club (ew), Pierce The Veil, Sleeping With Sirens, PVRIS, Malloroy Knox (is that even how you spell that?) Issues, Tonight Alive, Waterparks, Masked Intruder, KISS, Def Leppard, Styx, Juliet Simms, Attila, We The Kings, We Came As Romans, SayWeCanFly, Mirror Eyes, The Strive, Before The Streetlights, Metro Station, and there's more I just can't remember. I go to a lot of concerts um
36.) Kids in the future?
No fucking thanks. No. Nope. (if I do have one I only want ONE tho)
37.) My idea of a perfect date?
Just watching movies and hanging out seems like a fun time
38.) am I Happy?
no ????? Not at all ????????
39.) most traumatic experience?
OK so once I found a fucking worm INSIDE of a poptart I was about to eat. This was like 2 years ago I still cannot eat pop tarts which sucks bc I actually love pop tarts I'm just scarred
40.) Where I would like to live?
I intend to stay in America, so I'd like to live in Florida for a while and then move to southern California. Outside of America, Madrid, Spain and Livorno, Italy are amazing places I wouldn't mind living in.
41.) nicest thing anyone's ever said to me?
It's not really something someone said but it kinda is. but anyways last year on May first I told my friends I wasn't gonna carry out my suicide plans and so they like,,, declared May second Rian Appreciation Day. They did it this year too and all my close friends who knew about my suicide date were so sweet all day and like telling me how happy they were I was alive and I just ?? bless my friends are actual godsends I love them all so much
42.) Do I like where I am right now?
State of mind? Sure. Physical location? Not in the slightest
43.) What can I hear right now?
My moms TV
44.) Relationship with sibling?
We fight a lot but we're tight
45.) Biggest worry?
I'm terrified of getting murdered (for valid reasons I think)
46.) Something I'm waiting for?
Nothing tbh I'm just hanging
47.) Relationship with my parent?
Um,,, not great??? Not super bad but not great
48.) Something I should've said a long time ago?
"I love you"
49.) Last text received?
"Text me in a bit I'm watching Split"
50.) Last text sent?
Just this image
51.) What I hate most about myself?
Everything yo
52.) Biggest turn on?
Good personality shit
53.) Words that upset me?
Most slurs except the word faggot I've heard it so much I'm just completely desensitized to it lmao
54.) What I hate most about school?
My English teacher, other kids, several things
55.) what I'm wearing?
Jeans and a t shirt with a stormtrooper playing the drums
56.) Last thing I ate?
Idk I haven't eaten like all day. I think it was lemon cake or something