Luhan glanced at his dongsaeng who was fidgeting about his feet. He was nervous.
Of course, it was their debut stage, who wouldn't be nervous. The duo was about to debut with 10 other equally talented men into a group under SM - a group called EXO.
Sehun sacrificed his job as the assistant manager of a bank and chose to focus on his dream - becoming a world famous artiste. He gave up riches. He sold his car and mansion so that he could settle for a cozy apartment in the suburbs of Seoul. The quaint little neighbourhood he lived in was quiet and the people there were extremely friendly. He had bought a economic class domestic flight from Busan to Seoul.
He wanted to forget.
But he can't.
The memories were too much, too much to handle. He needs someone to comfort him. He vowed never to fall in love ever again.
He didn't want to be heartbroken. He didn't want this pain.
But he deserved it, didn't he?
Only Chanyeol and Luhan knew what actually happened. Sehun doesn't want his members to feel burdened about it. He chose to keep it to himself, he chose to tell it to the only people he trusted. The others will know.
Soon.
~December~
The first snowflake touched down on the bustling city of Seoul. It was a cold winter morning. Christmas was coming and Sehun felt something pressing down on his chest.
He didn't expect this. He didn't expect that time would fly so quickly.
But it just had too, didn't it?
The date was drawing near. He had to face it, he had to.
~Christmas~
It was the day. The day where he would meet her again.
A bouquet of carnations in one hand and his car keys in another, he slowly walked to his car. The rest of EXO M followed behind him, wondering whether they would actually meet this 'girl' that Luhan had told them in a drunken stupor.
He didn't blame Luhan for accidentally spilling the truth out. He needed someone to talk to and Luhan's bandmates - sub group EXO M, had comforted him.
They arrived at the grey marble tombstone, the grass sprouting fresh amongst in, mimosas clustered in bunches at the foot, and some plants had begun to creep its way up the eerily grey gravestone.
Kang Eun Hee (1993 - 2017)
Tenderly I treasure the past,
with memories,
that will surely last.
A loving wife, an adoring friend
It was such a tragedy that one so beloved
shall be taken from us.
We express our grievances to the husband Oh Sehun on his wife's passing.
Sehun kneeled down before the tomb and bowed three times, before placing the flowers on the grass.
"Eun Hee-ah, if you can hear me, I really want to turn back the time. I wished I knew you better. I wish I was a better person. I wish you were still here. Eun Hee ah, I prepared a song for you today. If you were still here, I know you'll love this song," Sehun cried, tears pouring from eyes like faucet.
His nose had turned red from crying and his eyelids start to become puffy. He steadied his voice before starting to sing the first verse.
Heart beats fast
Colors and promises
How to be brave,
How can I love when I'm afraid to fall
But watching you stand alone,
all of my doubts
Suddenly go away somehow.
One step closer
I have died everyday, waiting for you. Darlin' don't be afraid I have loved you for a thousand years, I'll love you for a thousand more.
Time stands still, beauty in all she is.
I will be brave, I will not let anything
Take away what's standing before me
Every breath, every hour has come to this.
One step closer
I have died everyday waiting for you. Darlin' don't be afraid I have loved you for a thousand years, I'll love you for a thousand more.
And all along I believed I would find you. Time has brought your heart to me. I have loved you for a thousand years, I'll love you for a thousand more.
One step closer...
One step closer...
As Sehun sang that part, he took one step closer to the tomb each time.
I have died everyday, waiting for you.
Sehun felt voices singing behind him. He turned and noticed the tear stained EXO M singing along with him.
Darlin' don't be afraid I have loved you for a thousand years
He was thankful. Thankful for such supportive friends. Thankful for the love that was showered on him when Eun Hee was around.
I'll love you for a thousand more
Sehun felt his tears running down. His sobs begin to crack. Singing while crying is really hard
And all along I believed I would find you. Time has brought your heart to me. I have loved you for a thousand years, I'll love you for a thousand more.
Sehun heard even more voices singing behind him. He turned, noticing that the rest of EXO had joined in too. Their faces were down with melancholy, a tear had even made its way down Kai's cheek. Kris and the rest were full-on sobbing.
So this was what Sehun wanted to show them. He wanted to show them his wife, his support, his love.
-A year later-
"Eyyy! Come with me to visit Eun Hee! Its her anniversary today!" Sehun whined at his girlfriend.
"Ara, ara, calm down kay? I know you're anticipating to tell her the good news, but you should really calm yo tits, man..." his girlfriend replied, grinning at Sehun before intertwining their hands together and dragging him out.
That's why Sehun loves his girlfriend so much. Nice personality. Friendly, and knows when to cheer him up whenever he's sad.
The both of them climbed into the car and fastened the seatbelt while their personal chauffeur stepped on the accelerator.
Watching the scenery whizzed by, Sehun pondered on his life so far.
It was no less than perfect. He had awesome group members, a loving girlfriend, an adoring family. He was famous and loved by his fans.
Eun Hee had taught him to love whole heartedly. Eun Hee had gave him a second chance, Eun Hee had changed him, for the better.
In short, Sehun was eternally grateful to Eun Hee. No, he was eternally indebted to her.
Yes, of course Sehun regretted his past. But he can't stay and mourn on that piece of memory forever, can he?
If Eun Hee was around, she would not want him to grieve, right? She wanted him to move on, find someone better, start a new life and leave the bad memories behind.
He left his mind on that thought as he stepped out of the car, hand still tightly intertwined with his girlfriend's.
He walked towards the tomb, the sides of it already heavy with fauna.
He started to sing, each note piercing the clear air. His girlfriend started to sing with him, hitting all the notes together as their voices rang in perfect harmony.
Do you hear me, I'm talking to you
Across the water across the deep blue ocean
Under the open sky, oh my, baby I'm trying
Boy, I hear you in my dreams
I feel your whisper across the sea
I keep you with me in my heart
You make it easier when life gets hard
Lucky I'm in love with my best friend
Lucky to have been where I have been
Lucky to be coming home again
Ooohh ooooh oooh oooh ooh ooh ooh ooh
They don't know how long it takes
Waiting for a love like this
Every time we say goodbye
I wish we had one more kiss
I'll wait for you, I promise you, I will
Lucky I'm in love with my best friend
Lucky to have been where I have been
Lucky to be coming home again
Lucky we're in love in every way
Lucky to have stayed where we have stayed
Lucky to be coming home someday
And so I'm sailing through the sea
To an island where we'll meet
You'll hear the music fill the air
I'll put a flower in your hair
Though the breezes through the trees
Move so pretty you're all I see
As the world keeps spinning round
You hold me right here right now
Lucky I'm in love with my best friend
Lucky to have been where I have been
Lucky to be coming home again
I'm lucky we're in love in every way
Lucky to have stayed where we have stayed
Lucky to be coming home someday
Ooohh ooooh oooh oooh ooh ooh ooh ooh
Ooooh ooooh oooh oooh ooh ooh ooh ooh
The song came to an end, he gave his girlfriend an assuring smile before walking to the front.
"Annyeonghaseyo," Sehun's girlfriend bowed in front of the tomb.
"My name is Luhan and I'm Sehun's girlfriend. I hope you would give us your blessings." Sehun smiled, a smile all bright and cheerful. Sehun beamed an equally wide smile.
No more regrets. The sacrifice was enough for him. More than enough actually.
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That night, the stars in the sky seemed to twinkle brightly, but there was this star that stood out the most. It shone bright, twinkling like there's no tomorrow.
The star twinkled, as if saying,
Luhan and Sehun, I give you my blessings...
A/N
Hellow ^^ imma back with da epilogue <3 coz i can :D because my new year reso was that i'll post the EPILOGUE once this reaches 300 reads. OMG i cannot believe it. Though 300 may seem not much but im so thankful that there's people out there reading this. when it was hanging around 80+ reads i was like, when is it ever gonna go up? and boom it shot up to 200 overnight!!! i can't explain what i feel now. Thank you thank you thank you soooo much! I'll update more on my other fics :') happy chinese new year!!!! have a nice day (:
A/N TWENTY SEVENTEEN
holy shit guys i edited this and made it way clearer for the people who read this AND/or reading this ok so luhan and sehun are dating weee wooooo
anyways i just came here to edit this but you can check me out at @cypherus
okie gotta kris!!