Jordans POV
Its been a whole month, one long ass month since i was in Paris. One month since I last saw Laurent. My heart was aching for his love, aching for the feel of his lips, for the touch of his hands. I just sat in my apartment looking at the only peaceful picture I had of him when he was asleep. That man right there was pure beauty, he was way out of my league.
Ever since I came back from Paris I found a new job, working at Subway. I know its not something to be proud of but it'll definitely help me pay off the rent. Also things seemed a lot quieter, I didnt even need a second to think. My neighbours aka bonny and clyde had moved out and an old married couple had taken their spot. I dont think i've ever felt more peaceful, I guess I should thank Lau for that. He opened up my heart, helped me find a new path for me to carry on with my life. I think i was safe to say I was destined to be with him. My thoughts were interrupted by a strong vibration coming from my lap, looking down i saw it was Larry who wanted to facetime me. I bit my lip nervously and let out a deep sigh, i licked my lips, it's time for me to talk to them. They deserve to know the truth. I picked up my phone and held it towards my face, and Larry had a face on exactly how i'd imagined. I could practically read his facial expression: shock, upset, sadness, anger. I honestly dont know but he showed more than one emotion,
"Jordan", he whispered, "you're bald". There was so much I wanted to say, but only one thing came out of my mouth,
"Yes Larry, I have cancer", I replied.
*a month earlier*
I was having a shower when i felt a lump in my left breast, just at that moment i knew what it was, my heart started racing. The same day I called the doctors to arrange an appoinment and they had confirmed I was diagnosed with breast cancer. I obviously understood how and why, my mom had so it was obvious I was too. I was more scared of what the outcome would be, whether i wlould die or not. Honestly I didnt want to end up like my mom. I was then transferred to the hospital where the nurses had explained to me thoroughly about all the treatments i would be recieving. Since I was going to start off with chemotherapy, the drugs that I would be getting were pretty strong and as a result I would lose all my hair. So i decided upon shaving my head.
*present moment*
"Belle, im-im sorr-", i saw larry's eyes fill with water and his face was flooded with tears, his voice broke and he started sobbing. I let out a couple of tears too,
"Larry calm down, please I dont want Laurent to hear".
Laurents POV
I woke up from a little nap, i had a really bad headache. I rubbed my eyes in search for my phone. Ugh Larry had taken in because he wanted to send some songs from my phone to his. I walked out my room towards Larry's. As i got closer I could hear someone talking, suddenly a familiar voice that I hadnt heard in a while hit my ears, Jordan! I rushed to larrys room, taking huge strides and swung open the door, only to see something i never would see in my life,
"Belle? Wha-", Jordan was shocked, i could tell how her eyes popped out. She put her head down and shook it,
"Oh my god", i heard her mumble.
"Larry what is this?", I asked while thousands of other questions were running around my head, "why she bald? Why you talk to her? What the fuck is going on?', i was so fucking angry, im pretty sure I was living on a different planet because right now nothing made sense. I combed my afro back with my fingers and sighed so loudly trying to keep my calm. But that wasnt working,
"Lau sit down please", Larry said. I looked at him not saying anything and sat down. Something about his facial expression made me think twice about everything I was going to say. I completely forgot Jordan was on facetime,
"Lau, baby, please listen to me carefuly", she said, "I have cancer...breast cancer to be precise".
Suddenly my surroundings became faint, i could hear my heart beat pounding in my ears, i started to sweat quickly, my palms becoming moist. I noticed i was breathing heavily and quickly my chest moving in and out,
"Can-cancer?", several tears rolled down my cheek and at this point I was crying. I felt weak like my body was going to give up on me, "why you no say anything before? Huh? A whole fucking month I no see you, but when I do see you , i dont even know you are facetiming my brother and you different, I cant believe this", i grabbed the phone out of Larry's hands and sat on the bed,
"how long? How long you know you have cancer?",
"Well as soon as I got back really, please Laurent I dont want to be a burden, why do you think I didnt contact you?",
"You could have at least facetime me once in a while to see how I was? But no you did not, I have every right to be angry, because you no tell me nothing". I threw the phone on the bed and ran out the room. I locked myself in the bathroom and burst into tears. The woman who I wished would give birth to my children has cancer, the most sickening disease you can think of. I loved her so much it hurt me so bad to know she will be going through this. As much as I was angry with her I was hungry for her, thirsty for her, I wanted to touch her, hold her, smell her, kiss her. Do everything to her that she would never think of. I wiped my tears from my face and got up looking at myself in the mirror. I needed to be strong for her, i needed to be strong for my baby. I walked towards the bathroom door and unlocked it. Larry was sitting on the bed, silent, looking at me, I was the first to speak,
"We go tomorrow, im going to see her mon frere", from then on I made a promise to myself that no matter what happens I will make sure that Jordan was safe and happy because thats all that mattered to me. To make sure she wakes up everyday feeling like a queen, to make sure she gets everything she wants, she may think she's on her own but Im coming for Mrs Bourgeois.