I Don't Understand~ the short love story of him and I

2:30 am

It's 2:30am and I'm laying in bed. I can't sleep anymore. I know I'm tired and I need to get sleep but it's not looking like that's happening anytime soon. I feel sick, and my head hurts a bit. I don't know what else I feel to be honest. I want to call out of work tomorrow but I won't, I want to stay in bed all day but I won't, life unfortunately still has to go on and I won't let anyone see me hurt over this. Im not mad, i feel like I should be but I'm but I'm not. Maybe going over it in my head to see where it all went wrong won't help but I am not sure what else to do at the moment. I don't understand what just happened and Im not sure that I ever will.