I'm sitting on my bathroom floor breaking down I can't believe she's gone and I couldn't even say goodbye
tears flooded my face as I reached for the razor blade I kept in my drawer I hesitated but then lifted my sleeve slicing three fresh marks on my wrist
I cover my wrist with the sleeve of my hoodie and pull pictures of my mom up on my phone to mourn I kept thinking of our positive memories although she was hardly around I miss her so much
Silently tears flooded my face as I stood up and walked towards my room
DARRIAN POV:
I get home from the studio I start walking upstairs halfway up the stairs I hear the shower running I look in the direction of the bathroom and the door is open I pop my head in wanting to let zaila know I'm back from the studio
I don't see her but on the counter I see a razor blade I look at it confused I now her mom just passed away but
would she hurt herself? I grab the blade and walk towards the room seeing her on the bed laying down "zaila? " I say
She looks at me with red and puffy eyes "are you hurting yourself? " I ask and she doesn't meet my eyes "please answer me" I plead with pain in my voice she nods silently I pull her into my arms
As soon as she enters my arms she breaks down as I hug her tightly I speak in a calm voice trying to comfort her
"your missing her I know that but please don't hurt yourself" I say calmly trying my best even though I know I physically don't know her pain "I just want her back I want everything to be okay" she says weakly I lift her chin and look her in her eye and whisper weakly
"Everything will be okay I promise"
I hug her and kiss her forehead she pulls up her sleeve showing me her marks I clean and bandage them up and we both lay down watching a movie cuddling as she falls asleep on my chest I kiss her forehead and I whisper into her ear calmly trying not to wake her
"Everything will be okay I promise" I smile before falling asleep against her
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Based on my life except I have no one to comfort me 🤍