I've been woke every since last night just thinking about the whole thing that happened with deja I don't wanna admit it but I get so insecure sometimes I'm a nigga I can't admit that shit I just felt like she didn't want to have kids and yeah I came in her on purpose I don't want her to leave me I need her in my life
I might've overreacted but I don't know I can't lose her and she says we'll never fuck again which is a lie so ima definitely trap her lil ass while I was in my thoughts she came downstairs and she looked so good in my stuff I just wanted to fuck her right then and there but I have to be mad
"Where are you going?" I asked with an attitude
"To cvs" she said while getting a water out of the fridge
"For what?" I asked
"A plan B I wasn't playing when I said I wasn't having this baby" she said then walked out I got so mad I punched the wall why tf doesn't she want to have a baby with me? Ima ask her when she comes back But until then I'm taking a nap
When I walked back in the house I put my cvs bag on the counter and stared at it wondering if I really want to take it and I decided yes cuz who the fuck pushing a baby out right now there is more money to be made 😜
I took the pill and I got really sleepy so I went back in me and jahs room to see him knocked the fuck out
I straddled him and started kissing all over his face and his neck
" Yo deja get tf off me" he said pushing me off him
"I knew yo ass was mad last night but why the fuck are you still mad" I asked with my eyebrows furrowed
"I'm mad because you don't want kids with me"
I know this nigga did not just say that shit
"Jah I never fucking said that I just said we had to wait a little" I wanna be atleast 20"
"What's the difference in then and now"
"I'll be more financially stable jah wtf"
"Ma your worried about money that's why you don't want a baby you kno-"
"No that's not it jah It's just I don't know if I'll be a good parent I didn't really have anyone to show me what a good parent was" I said genuinely
"Ma you would be the best parent ever remember when i took you to my moms house to meet my brother you literally were the best there's no way you wouldn't be a good mom" he said
"Ok jah but please it's not a no can we just wait till December it's only two months away" I said
"Ok mama" he said pushing my head down on his chest I just listened to his heart beat until i fell asleep
-45 minutes later-
I woke up when I felt this heavy ass pressure on me just to find jahseh big ass
"Dwayne Ricardo get yo big ass off me"
"Nooo ma I'm tiredddd" he whined
"Stop acting like a baby and you know you not tired you just want me to wake up" I said
"You right I'm bored as hell ma" he said then laughed
"How tf is me being woke gonna help you not be bored?" I looked at him with a mug
"I meannnnnn we could get drunk and have slut sexxxx" he said with a funny voice
"Boy get the fuck on you woke me up for sex?" I said keeping the mug on my face
"Yes I am hornyyyyy" he said
"Boy go watch porn I'm tired" I pushed him off me and turned my back towards him and decided to try and sleep until jah got a call and you know I'm nosey as hell so I played sleep to hear what was said
He answered the phone and said "hello" I didn't hear what the other person said but it's definitely a girl and she's crying what the fuck is going on? I'm tired Fr now
"Baeeeee wake up" jah said shaking me
"What jah damn"
"Neva had a miscarriage"
"Damn well what does that have to do with us"
"It doesn't I couldn't give one fuck" he said laughing
"You going to hell" I said while laughing
"I know right I'd be a fine ass demon"
"Jahseh onfroy take yo ass to sleep I love you"
"I love you too but why the fuck am I going to sleep"
"What time is it?"
"10:35 am
"GO TO SLEEP" I yelled while throwing a pillow at him
Then I fell off the bed and he started laughing hard as fuck
"Oh you bitch" I mumbled
"What was that" he said
"Oh nothing dear" I said while rolling my eyes
I'm kinda bored I wanna go smoke and then make some bomb ass food
"You wanna go smoke im bored" jah asked
"Baby I love you so much I was just thinking that exact thing , let's smoke on the hill and watch the sun come up"
"That's some white people shit but I would love to do it with you" he said
"Come on whore" he said
"Wait nigga lemme put my shorts on" I said
"Hurry the fuck up" he said
"Ight I'm read lets g"- I said walking into the living room seeing police lights through the windows
"Jah what are they doing here" I said kinda shaking since I've been scared of police since my first year at Tampa BH
"Idk ma but when they knock don't freak out Deerfield cops are heavily racist"
"Ok" I said then they started knocking and jah answered the door
"Good morning sir are you jahseh onfroy?" The cop asked and jahseh nodded and then the cop grabbed him hard as hell and threw him on the concrete
"Yo what the fuck get the fuck off him" I yelled at the cop that's when another one showed I then saw multiple cop cars pull up
"All these fucking police for one short and skinny ass man who has no idea what the fuck your even arresting him for did y'all even read him his rights?" I know a little about this since I was originally gonna be an attorney
"Ma'am you need to calm the fuck down" a male white cop says
"I don't need to do shit tell me why my boyfriend is getting arrested" I yelled
That's when I was tackled by one of the cops
"Get the fuck off her get off her" I heard jah yell suddenly flash backs of things started to cloud my head
Flashback
I was walking back into Tampa BH because I needed to get better before something happens to another person
"Ah Ms blanco your back with us again I see" a white lady smirked
"Fuck you"
"You are a crazy bitch that's all you'll ever be"
I was about to beat her ass until security tackled me and picked me up they took me to the solitary room and threw punches at me I was dodging some of them but there were 3 big ass white security men I got punched multiple times till I passed out
Flashback over
The man gets off me and I noticed that jahseh was gone all I could do was sob
"I don't even know what he got arrested for" I said while sobbing
Ma'am your boyfriend beat up a girl of the name Geneva brown
(I literally don't know her last name so yeah 😭)
"That's fucking impossible he hasn't seen that crazy bitch since last month"
"Tell that to the judge when he goes on trial" he said then walked out
I just sobbed