Deep permanent bags embedded under her sleepless red eyes.
Jihu had developed a new habit.....of repeating things
doing the same thing again and again
She would wash her face not once,twice but eight times......eight was the lucky number for her
She would pump the hand wash five times,then continue to wash her hands for fifteen minutes until her hands felt lighter
Everyday she would follow the same routine,her room was a mess,if she'd try to fix it she would have to do every small gesture atleast five times,else her mind would tell her about all the terrible things that could happen to taehyung and jungkook
If she refrained from making five cuts on her wrist taehyung might not return home today
Jihu had started comfort eating,as a result she was gaining weight,She hated her image in the mirror
She hated looking at her chubby cheeks,her protruding belly and her thick arms
Her clothes won't fit,people would look at herself in disgust,
when she met the judging eyes of people she got anxious
She would bite her lips out of anxiety,her lips would bleed leaving scars
She wore full clothes to hide her scars and her body
She would put on a fake happy personality in front of taekook,she couldn't afford to bother them with her problems especially when they are happy after such a long time......
But this wasn't something that could stay hidden
MY MIND HAS ME UNDER CONTROL
I CANNOT STOP MYSELF
MY MIND THREATENS ME
HOW DO I BREAK FREE FROM THE TRAP THAT I CREATED?
CAN YOU SAVE ME?
FROM THIS NEVER ENDING SPIRAL
I WANT TO END ME.