The anxiety that life puts us
through is like being choked
by a poisonous deity that wants
to kill us.
We are already afraid of death.
And it does not help to be scared
or reminded of it through anxiety.
Because we will ultimately never
reach our potential.
So what's the point? Why am I
tested like this?
I know the answer. It is because
He wants me to rely on nothing
but Him.
But didn't I already do that?
Wasn't it You I relied on when it
came to love, business and family?
And now I am being tested with the fear
of death, as though I never thought
of it before?
Yes, I know You are teaching me that
this life is just temporary and that
the afterlife is what matters so I should
not be scared.
But honestly, I did all my worshiping
because of that fact!
I made sure I fulfilled my duties that
You had set for us!
I know this!
Please I am tired!
Please, by the Mercy of Your Love,
test me not with this. Remove from
me this fear. And give me a long
life so that I may do more good, 'cause
now You have made it terribly hard
for me to come close to the One I
always wanted to be close to.
And that was You.