Cid POV
Kasalukuyan kaming naglalakad ngayon papunta sa dulo ng island na ito, nagpahanda kasi ako ng isang espesyal na bagay na alam kong magugustuhan ng love ko. Secluded sya so sigurado ako na walang makakagulo samin ni Jamie.
Actually, hanggang ngayon sobra parin yung kagustuhan ko na malaman yung pinagusapan nila Jamie and Andy kanina! Mukha kasi talagang seryoso at parang may hindi sinasabi sakin si Jamie. Akala ko nga...
Ewan ko ba, hindi ko kasi maiwasang pagisipan na may gusto si Andy kay Jamie. Mukha naman kasi meron! Sa totoo lang matagal ko na nahahalata, iba kasi yung turing nya kay Jamie, kumpara sa ibang tao na wala syang pakialam! Oo lagi nyang binubully at pinagtritripan si Jamie pero hindi naman ganun talaga si Andy. Sya yung taong walang magiging pakialam na kahit na sino pwera nalang kung kaibigan at pamilya nya. Wala nga siyang masyadong kaaway kasi ng masyadong importante ang oras ni Andy para sa kanya para lang gamitin or ituon sa ibang bagay.
Pero pagdating kay Jamie parati syang nagpapansin and concern, hindi man nya aminin pero the way he gives attention kay Jamie parang. Aisht! Siguro nga nagiimagine lang ako. Ayoko naman pagisipan ng masama si Andy kasi he's still my friend.
Ewan ko ba hindi naman ako ganito dati, first time ito! I feel so possessive regarding Jamie! I feel kasi na anytime pwedeng pwede syang maagaw sakin and I don't think I can ever let that happen. Baka makapatay ako pagnangyari yun. Gusto ko akin lang si Jamie! Makasarili na kung makasarili pero yung talaga nararamdaman ko! Mahal na mahal ko sya anong magagawa ko. Kaya nga aaminin ko sobra akong nakaramdam ng selos nung makita kong magkasama sila Jamie at si Andy ng ganun katagal magkasama at magusap!
He said he want to be friends with him, okay sige! Friend na kung friends! Okay lang naman siguro ko yun. It's fine with me basta wag na wag lang syang magtatangkang lumagpas dun kasi kung hindi? Makakalimutan kong kaibigan ko sya at baka kung anong magawa ko sa kanya.
Anyways, andito na kami ngayon pero I decided na iblindfold muna yung mga mata nya para sa surprise!
"Cid, malayo pa ba tayo?" Inip na tanung ng love ko. Kahit kelan talaga napakamainipin nya. Ayaw na ayaw kasi nito yung nagiintay sya, apatawa tuloy ako ng konti.
"Nope love, we're here. You're ready?"
Pinaghandaan ko ito kung alam mo lang love, halos makipagaway na ko sa staff ng hotel para lang matapos yung surprise na ito. Gusto ko kasi talagang I surprise sya. Kung pwede nga lang araw araw. This love of mine deserve all the surprise in the world. I will never be tired doing this for him
"Yes!" Masayang sagot nya.
After nya sabihin yun, huminga ako ng malalamim then I remove his blindflold.
Actually, simple dinner for two lang naman yung prinepare ko. Simple but I know it's intimate. Pinalibutan ko ng bulaklak yung buong lugar. Nung una nga akala ko hindi nila magagawa kasi malayo yung pinagkukuhaan ng mga bulaklak dito. Need pa kunin sa city, pero okay lang! Napansin ko kasi there past 3 years na nakilala ko sya, he really like flowers. It's makes him happy and that's all I wanted him to be. Sinamahan pa ng sobrang ganda ng view ng dagat dito. Pinalibutan din yung lugar ng lighted candles, buti nalang hindi ganun ka lakas hangin ngayon. Nagpapadagdag yung bango ng scented candle sa sarap simoy ng hangin ng lugar na ito.
As I looked at him, I can't help but feel happy seeing how he looked so amazed with what he is seeing right now.
"You liked it?" Tanong ko sa kanya.
Tumango naman sya then biglang umiyak na sobrang kinabahala ko!
Fuck! Did I do something wrong? Did I mess up again?
"Love? Why are you crying? I thought you liked it! Did I do something, I'm so sorry! Please don't cry! We can go if..." Nagalala ako nung bigla syang umiyak, aayain ko sana sya na umalis na dito kasi baka ayaw nya palapero hindi nya ko pinatapos sa sasabihin ko. He held me by my face and smiled at me.
"No love, you didn't do anything wrong! Sobrang nagustuhan ko lang talaga, it's looks so beautiful"
Nakahinga naman ako ng maluwang sa sinabi nya.
"Sobrang gusto ko! I didn't expect any of this! You made me feel so special Love! You made me feel so happy seeing all of this! Thank you love! You didn't have to do this, but I still want to thank you for all this effort that you are giving me." then he hugged me. So, I hugged him back. His hug is really the best. Yung bang sobrang higpit at the same time, sobrang comportable for me. I feel so loved and at ease. Kaya kong gawin ang kahit na ano maramdaman lang araw araw ang yakap na ito.
"Thank you so much love! Hinding hindi ako magsasawa na gawin sayo lahat ng ito. I will never be tired of doing things that will show you how much I love you!" I said to him. All of what I said is true! I will never stop showing him how important he is for me. How much I care and love him! Only him!
"Thank you for accepting to stay with me despite of everything. Despite of my past, you choose to love me. Thank you talaga, love! Thank you!"
Umalis kami mula sa aming pagkakayakap at tinitigan ang isat-isa.
"Love, I already told you and I will tell you again. I love you! I love everything about you! May it be good or bad, I love and accept it all because it's a part who you are. Your past will never be reason for me to stop loving you. Only death can stop me from showing you how much I love you or pwera nalang if makakahanap ka ng iba, syempre hindi naman ako makakapayag nun! Mahal na mahal kita, Jamie. Always remember that!"
"I love you too, Cid!' sagot nya sakin.
I really feel so happy hearing him say he loves me. It's very satisfying!
"Do you want to dance?" I asked him
Tumango naman sya. Kaya ayun I played the song using my phone.
(please play the song, as background song)
I held both of his waist, as he puts his arms around my neck and we start dancing.
I love you
i don't know what else to say
"cause I long for you more each day
i need you
i want to feel your embrace
and have a chance to touch your face
I really love this guy so much. I can't see myself loving any other person in the world except him. He's really is the one for me! I can hear my heart beating so loud for him. Even if he is already here beside me, I still feel like I long for him! I yearn for his touch, his voice and everything.
I was lost and alone
but you showed me the way
now I call you my own
things will never be the same
How could I've known
you will hold me close so tenderly
even though I'm alone
i can feel your arms enfold in me
and that love, became mine in just one night
when you held me tight
oooh.
It felt so right
With him, everything seems right. Everything seems so beautiful and happy. We may not a perfect couple. But I know we are perfect for each other.
I feel you
you're always here in my heart
it's where I've kept you since we fell apart
I was lost and alone
but you showed me the way
can't go on on my own
wishing that you would stay
How could I've known
you will hold me close so tenderly
even though I'm alone
i can feel your arms enfold in me
and that love, became mine in just one night
when you held me tight
oooh.
It felt so right
No matter what destiny will throw at us. I will make sure that we are holding still, Love! Humadlang man ang kahit na sino at ano. Ipaglalaban kita kasi alam ko at sigurado na kong hindi ko kayang mabuhay ng hindi ikaw ang kasama ko. No matter what. I promise you. I will always be here to love, take care and support you. Always!
I was lost and alone
but you showed me the way
can't go on my own
wishing that you would stay
tell me that you would stay.
How could I've known
(how could I've known, ooohhh)
you will hold me close so tenderly
even though I'm alone
i can feel your arms enfold in me
(your arms enfold me)
and that love, became mine in just one night
when you held me tight
oooh.
It felt so right
felt so right
hmmm
felt so right
To be honest, I never or never thought I will ever be praying for god's guidance and his will. Na sana wag nyang hayaang mawala ka sakin, Love. Na sana tayo na hanggang sa huli. Hindi ko alam kung anong gagawin ko kung mawawala ka sa akin! Hindi ko alam if kaya kong mabuhay pa, if hindi na ikaw yung kasama ata katabi ko! You are my lifeline and my sanctuary!
A/N As the music stop.
"I love you so much love! So much that I can promise you that I will do my best to be the best boyfriend for you. You have nothing to worry because this is forever, Love! I will make sure of it!" I said to him, we are still holding each other. He is crying so hard, but I know It's not because he was hurt, but because he is happy!
"You don't need to be perfect, love. You are enough! Yung ikaw, hindi mo kailangan magbago or maging the best para sakin. Kasi for me, you are enough. Ako nga yung pakiramdam ko hindi karapatdapat sayo. I love you so much, Love. Thank you for coming into my life! You made everything seems right. You made everything seems so easy! I don't know my life would be without you! Me too, Love! I will do my best to be the right boyfriend for you!"
I smiled at him. I feel so much love for this man in front of me! The man that I never imagine would come and fix everything that is wrong with me. He come into my life so perfectly! Because of so much thankfulness that I am feeling, I just want to make him feel how much I'm grateful that he is here and I love him.
"Love, I'm planning to do something, but I'm afraid I might spook you or baka hindi mo magustuhan!"
I really want to do it with him pero kinakabahan ako!
"What is it?" He looked at me confusedly
"No, it's okay. Saka nalang! Kaya ko pa naman!" sabi ko. Ayoko lang talaga sya mabigla ulit. I promise that I will behave. I will wait for him to be okay with everything.
"Halika ka na, let's eat!"
Tatalikod na sana ako at dadalhin sya sa table namin pero nagulat ako for what he did next.
He held my arm and made me face him. He looked at me seriously at first like he's reading my face or my mind then after a second. He did the thing that I never expected him to do especially on his own.
He started kissjng me! He isfucking kissing me!
At first syempre nagulat ako kaya hindi agad ako nakasagot. Humiwalay sya sakin then lumapit na sya sa table para ata maupo. Medyo na shock talaga pero it made me realize. I really want to do it! I guess this is okay! I guess this is the right time for this! It's now or never!
I pulled him again then I started kissing him, I really can't take it or stop myself anymore.
I really love this man so fucking much! I really do! Medyo nagalala pa ako kasi baka magulat ko sya, pero sobrang saya ko ngayon cause he started responding to my kisses.
We are kissing each other so passionately! It's like we are both drowning ourselves sa sobrang pagkasabik at pagmamahal para sa isat-isa. Mga kamay nyang kusang pumulupot sa aking leeg. Mga kamay kong nagsimulang lumakbay sa kanyang lukiran at hatakin sya papalapit sakin. Sobrang lapit ng mga katawan na mas lalong nagpainit sa aking mga katawan! Yes! Amin because while touching him, I can feel the overwhelming heat radiating all over his body into me.
This is the best feeling! Yung pakiramdam na sa amin ang mundo! Yung pakiramdam na walang sino man o ano man ang makakasira sa kung anong meron kami ngayon! Pakiramdam ko, sa bawat halik at haplos na aming pinapakawala para sa isat-isa ay mas lalo ko syang minamahal!
Mahal na mahal ko sya!
Sobrang tagal bago ako nagdecide na bumitaw kasi halos maubusan na kami ng hangin.
I looked at him, and saw thag e's smiling which made me smile too! You can see in his face na sobra syang masaya sa ginawa namin. Unlike before na takot at kaba ang namumutawi kay Jamie sa tuwing susubok akong ilevel up and kung anong meron kami. He's really smiling at me.
"Thank you, love!" I feel so overwhelmed na yan lang yung mga salitang lumabas sa bibig ko! I really want to say thank you to him because I know it's not easy for him to do this.
He just hugged me tightly, so I hugged him too.
"I love you so much!" I really do. Sya lang ang mamahalin ko ng ganito! Sya lang!
"I love you too, love!"
We shared each other hugs, and after a while then, we started to take our dinner after. We both shared each other company. This night is so perfect that I don't want this to stop.
Ever!
TO BE CONTINUED
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