Papalabas palang ako ng Restaurant nang makasalubong ko ang babaeng kasasabi ko lang na itago niya. Looking shock with my presence, I saw her take a step back. I know that my face can murder someone right at this moment. Mabuti at nakikita niya dahil mukhang siya ang una kong mapapatay.
"Tage." she softly called my husband's name. Looking like an afraid kitten, she takes her step to reach for my husband. Kung abutin niya ang asawa ko parang wala lang ako sa harapan niya.
Naging malinaw naman ako sa sinabi ko sa asawa ko kanina diba?
I saw how she hide on my husband's chest like she's afraid that I might hurt her. That's not a news, Dear! Makakatikim ka talaga sakin ngayon. Ikaw ang gumawa nito sa sarili mo. Showing your damn face in this restaurant like you two already talk about it, huh?
Kayo ba dapat ang may date ngayon?
With the madness I have stored in my heart, I grabbed her hair, enough to fucking dragged her at the center. Nabitawan siya ni Tage dahil hindi inaasahan ang mga galaw ko. Halos kaladkarin ko na siya sa gitna where everyone in the restaurant can see her.
"Ynessa!" his voice thundered making the people stop on what they are doing. Mas hinigpitan ko ang hawak ko sa buhok ni Ardelle dahilan para makita ng mga tao ang mukha niya. I will be the reason of your downfall, Arjente!
"Nakikilala niyo ba ang babaeng 'to? This is the great Ardelle Arjente. The woman whom people look up. Why not, right? Maganda, sexy, mabait! Pero malandi!" my throat hurts because of my rage.
"See that man? The one glaring at me." I pointed Tage.
"He's my husband. At itong babaeng hawak ko? Kabit niya!" sa galit ko ay mas hinila ko pa ang buhok niya. I know that she's losing strands already but I will bland her! Gusto ko pagkatapos ng gabing ito ay wala na siyang mukhang maihaharap sa mga tao. Wala na ring career na babalikan.
"This bitch is a home wrecker! Malanding pumapatol sa may asawa! Was it thrilling, Ardelle? Ang akala nating sa pelikula mo lang gagampanan ay ginampanan mo sa tunay na buhay at sa asawa ko pa talaga!"
Marami na ang nagvivideo samin. Every step of Tage, I will step back. Mas sinasabunutan ko rin ang babae niya.
"She's crazy! She should be taken to the mental hospital. Baliw ang babaeng 'to!" Ardelle managed to defend herself. I chuckled without humor.
"Ikaw saan ka? Prostitute! How cheap! You're a public figure but you didn't manage to keep your dirty affair private! Loud and proud, huh? Really, Tage? Itong babaeng 'to talaga? Was it her boobs? Nakakalunod sa laki? Or it's her bed performance? Is she unbeatable? Mas magaling gumiling sa ibabaw mo? Tell me!" I shouted.
He didn't say a word. Nakakahiya ba?
"Let's go home, Ynessa! You're making a scene here. Let's talk about this at home." mariing sabi niya. Umiling ako at mapait na ngumisi. Bakit sa bahay? Andito na naman kami, bakit hindi pa namin pag-usapan ang pangangaliwa niya dito?
"Bakit sa bahay? Bakit hindi dito? Was it embarrassing? Proud ka nga sa kabit mo kaya harapin mo 'to." galit na tinawid niya ang pagitan namin. He angrily grabbed my wrist. Nagmatigas ako. I pushed his girl out of my grasp and face him. Matapang akong nakipagtitigan sakanya. Halos masunog na ko sa mga tingin niya pero sa galit ko ay hindi man lang ako nakaramdam ng kaba at takot sakanya.
"Let's go home." he said in gritted teeth. Buong lakas niya akong hinila palabas at pasalampak na ipinasok sa sasakyan niya.
"You've lost your class! Aren't you fucking embarrassed, huh? A cat fight? Dammit, Ynessa! Nakakahiya ka!" he spat angrily.
"Ako pa talaga? Wow, ah. How about you publicly meeting your mistress? Wasn't embarrassing? Napakaproud mo naman sa kabit mo. Really, Del Prado?!" he painfully closed his eyes and angrily punched the steering wheel.
"Stop being difficult. Just grant it and we're done."
"Para ano? Magsaya kayo ng babae mo? Hindi! Kahit pa magmakaawa ka sa akin, kahit pa mag-agaw buhay ka, hindi! Hanggang sa mamatay ako, Tage."
"You're sick."
We both fell in a sickening silence as he drive us back home. I'm tired physically, emotionally and mentally. I just want to rest and deal with all of these tomorrow. I don't care if my name will be the headline of every newspaper tomorrow. I care less about the issue. I just want people to see how unworthy their damn sweetheart is. Ardelle Arjente isn't worth it. Hindi ang kagaya niya ang dapat na iniidolo. Lason siya! I don't even know why Tage can't get over her!
I walked out of his car with a heavy footsteps when it stopped.
"Ynessa!" impatience was audible in his voice. Kanina nagtitimpi ka, why would you shout at me now? I swallowed the bitterness that slowly filling my system. Hindi ako tumigil, hindi rin humarap sakanya.
I wasn't able to take another step when his massive hand stopped me by holding my wrist tightly. When did he hold me with so much gentleness? Wala akong maalala! Dahil una sa lahat, hindi siya gentle! And I don't think he will ever be.
"I'm tired. Bukas na natin 'to pag-usapan." pagod na sabi ko. Knowing him being as a very patient husband, he made me face him.
"Are you tired from pulling Ardelle's hair? And embarrassing her in front of the people in that restaurant?" the accusation in his voice is palpable.
"Yes. Nakakapagod at nakakawala 'yun ng lakas. Syempre hindi mo ramdam kasi hindi naman ikaw 'yung nanabunot at nagsisisigaw do'n." I sarcastically said. Humigpit ang hawak niya sa palapulsuhan ko. I bravely looked at him. How dare him! Talagang ang babaeng pa 'yon? Hanggang dito sa bahay na 'to ay ang babaeng pa rin na iyon? Nararamdaman ko na ang pag-iinit ng mga mata ko. No, Ynessa, hindi ka iiyak. Hindi mo ipapakita na nagtatagumpay silang saktan at wasakin ka. You're more than a cry baby.
"You've lost your sane! Have you gone mad, Ynessa? Do you know what it will do to you, especially to me? Did you even think of the damn consequences?" paninisi niya.
"Bakit sakin mo isinisisi? Ako ba ang nangaliwa, Tage? When you proudly let that woman hugged you in that damn restaurant, did you think of the consequences? Stop bullshiting me!"
"You should have used your brain if you want to keep your relationship in private! Proud na proud ka pa nga, e. Stand with it. Cheating is a choice." I said and forcefully get my wrist out of his hold.
"Tingnan natin kung saan pupulutin ang babae mo pagkatapos ng mga nangyare." I said and turned my back to him. Tinungo ko ang kwarto ko. We don't share the same bed unless he want us to heat each other.
Nakakatawa pero ganun lang ang relasyon namin. Mukha ngang 'yon nalang ang iniisip niyang compensation sa pagpapakasal sakin. Sex is the only thing we do together but he managed to do it with another woman. I smiled bitterly.
It will take my life before they get the divorce they've been dreaming of. Walang liligaya! Kung miserable ako, dapat ganun din kayo, especially you, Ardelle. Hindi porket ikaw ang mahal at gustong pakasalan ay magiging masaya kana. Sisirain kita kahit anong mangyare. I don't care if I will drag my husband's name. Tutal, kayong dalawa naman ang pumasok sa pinagbabawal na pag-ibig na 'yan, harapin niyo. Loud and proud!
I won't back down. Ako na nga ang niloloko ako pa ang mag-gi-give way para sumaya kayo? Magkamatayan na. You two won't get what you wanted. Hindi ang divorce at ang kalayaang magmahalan. Makontento ka Ardelle sa palihim niyong pagkikita. You don't deserve to be treated in a fancy restaurant, you can't be affectionate with him in public. Ang katulad mo ay itinatago dahil nakakahiya ka!
Those things I did not have a chance to experience with him, I won't give you the privilege to experience it. Hindi ang kagaya mo!
And true enough, I'm still on my bed half awake when I heard the commotion coming from outside. I can't clearly hear what's happening but when what happened last night came into my mind I immediately look at the window, only to see media personnel outside of our house.
"Why don't they bother Ardelle!" I irritatingly uttered. Nakakabwesit. Ang aga-aga. Although I expected this but it irritates me, still. Sunod-sunod na katok ang narinig ko kaya galit na binalingan ko ang pinto.
Tage opened it wide. I glared at him but he wouldn't back down. Lumapit siya sakin.
"Look what you've caused!" umagang-umaga ay naninisi siya. Wala pa akong maayos na pahinga para simulan niya ako nang ganito.
"Do not put the blame on me, Del Prado. Kung hindi mo sana sinabi sakin ang relasiyon mo sa babaeng 'yon at hindi sana siya nagpakita kagabi, hindi ko sana alam! You should have kept it a secret. Look at what's happening right now. Why don't you face them?" hamon ko sakanya.
"Why don't you?" balik hamon na sabi niya. I just glared at him.