Esme
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Should I give up
Or should I just keep chasing pavements?
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When I got back to the dinner table I sat down next to Patrick again anticipating what he would do next, I was very worried but I know he would never make a scene in front of everyone, he would wait until we got home
I knew I couldn't go home with him so I had to come up with another plan, when the food was served I saw Harry come out of the bathroom and he sat down in his seat, he brought his eyes up to mine and I couldn't tell the emotion I was looking at
while I ate I thought of plan, I would just spend the night at Embers again and tell him that I needed to be in the studio early and I don't wanna wake him, about an hour later it was time to head out and Patrick stood from his chair with me
"let's go home Esme" he snarls in his angry tone and I look down, Harry noticing our interaction, "I actually am going to sleep at Ember's I need to be up early to get to the studio and I don't want to wake you up accidentally" I stutter out and he looks at me with his fierce eyes, "your going home with me" he growls out and I step back slightly, I see Harry look at the space between us and he tries to be noticeable
"I'm not going home tonight Patrick I'll see you tomorrow" I say out of energy and I turn around knowing he won't do anything since everyone is still here, I say goodbye to Matthew and he doesn't answer so I shake my head and I walk out of the house
I dial Ember but as my phone rings I feel a tap on my shoulder and I scream turning around to the tall man with green eyes in front of me, Harry
"shush" he tells me covering my mouth, my eyes widen when he looks down at me, Jesus he looks pretty right here
"Harry you scared the shit out of me" I whisper and he smiles, "you sound cute when you swear" he smiles and I laugh a little still in shock
"come with me" he whispers and I walk down the steps of the house with him by my side, "where?" I ask him and he shrugs, "it's a surprise" he smiles and I shake my head, "Harry its late I should be getting to Embers" I shrug and I try to open my car door but he shuts it, "live a little Goldie" he smiles and I hear the nickname he's given me, "I'm gonna regret this" I smile and he shoots his hand up in a yes motion, I laugh and I start my car, "tell me the directions to Patrick doesn't suspect a thing when my cars still in the driveway" I say to him and he types them in my phone, when I get it back it's a thirty minute drive, I put my phone on the dashboard and I close my door
"I'll meet you there then" I say and he nods shutting his door closed driving away and I follow behind him
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about thirty minutes later I pull up to a concrete parking lot in the middle of nowhere, I park my car next to Harrys and I see a a river and field below us, I step out of my car turning it off and I look to Harry, "what are we doing here?" I ask him but he doesn't answer he taps the hood of his car motioning for me to lean against it next to him
I obey and I lean on the hood, he stands a comfortable distance next to me and I look up at the sky, the stars are beautiful there as bright as the sun in the crisp daytime, I smell s'mores and a firing burning and suddenly I see a cabin a ways away before us, there's family running around the fire place, the two little kids running with s'mores in their hands melted marshmallow and chocolate dripping down their arms, the parents laugh at them while they chase them with wipes trying to clean them
"why Goldie?" I ask him and he turns his head towards me instead of looking at the stars, "your bright, like the stars right now, or a ray of sun, you see the best in things even if they hurt you" he says simply and I see him lean back on the car, I do the same thing and I look up at the sky, "I like it" I smile and he laughs, "you need one now, a cheesy one like Goldie" I smile and he tilts his head and sighs, "what are ya thinkin?" he asks and I sigh trying to come up with something
"hmmm... smiley" I look at him and he laughs at the name, "why smiley?" he asks and I look at the night sky again, "you brighten up a room with just your smile, makes me happy when you smile at me too" I shrug letting out what I'm thinking and he smiles making my stomach warm, "I like it" he says and I nod, "knew you would" I scoff and I lay my hand flat next to him, I feel his fingers play on mine and I let it happen
the mood changes, it's more intimate, not like sexy or anything just more deep. "are you going to leave him?" I hear come out of Harry's mouth and I'm not shocked by the answer, it's a valid question especially after what he saw, "I don't know truthfully" I say trying to be open
"why would you stay with him?" he asks confused and I sigh, "I love him Harry it doesn't just go away" I try to reason and he leans forward again running his hand through his hair in frustration, "how can you love a person like that?" he asks and I stand up, "I can't tell you that Harry I just do" I say slightly frustrated I know he can't understand but I want him to
"I don't believe that Esme tell me" he says standing up from the car as well, " because he's done worse Harry, just some fucking scratches and bruises is nothing" I raise my voice to him and he looks down at my jeans that are still bloody, "I don't understand why you can't understand that" I let out and he lets me
"it doesn't make sense to me goldie no one should hurt you at all, I don't know why your justifying his actions just because you love him" he says and I rub my face as the tears burn into my eyes, I can't tell him about everything, it's too much and I only met him a few days ago
"I don't know guess I'm just stupid then" I say trying to keep the subject off the topic of my mother
he doesn't say anything and I stand up, "I should probably head to embers" I say and I pull out my phone, I text her that I'm coming to her house and she answers with "kk movie night?" she asks and I smile typing a yes
"goodnight smiley" I shrug and he takes my hand and pulls me to him, I stop right before his lips touch mine, "Harry, I will not be kissing you until I cut it off with Patrick" I say before he kisses me and he stops
"your too pure" he smiles and I laugh, "I'm just a decent human being" I say back and he smiles touching my waist softly
"I believe that Goldie" he says softly and I feel my eyes drift to his soft pink lips, waiting for mine to touch them, I look back up to his eyes and he smirks since he caught me, I feel my cheeks get hot and I feel his grip tighten against me
"goodnight Goldie" he mumbles and I nod but I don't find myself moving, "if you don't move in three seconds I'll end up kissing you" he smiles and I back away walking to my car, "bye smiley" I say from my drivers seat and he smiles, "will I see you in the studio tomorrow?" he asks me but I shake my head, "it was just an excuse, I'll go back to his place tomorrow afternoon, but he's got a club to go to tomorrow night with his father" I tell him and he nods, "so do I" he groans and I shake my head, "no funny business with him" I pout my lips and he nods slowly, "I won't I pinky promise" he smiles and I nod driving away
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