Dreams || Tsukiyama

Ch8 - realization

Yamaguchi's POV

With the ringing of my alarm clock I jump up out of the sleeping bag. I really hope I didn't moan in my sleep.

Oh.

Well, maybe I could have not let any noise escape my sleeping lips but I'm... very hard... even though I'm on the verge of tears...

"I'm going to the bathroom. I'll be right back." I hear Tsukki say as he picks his glasses up off of his nightstand. "Oh umm Tsukki... I was going to..." I start to say, but Tsukki was already out the door.

Well, I might be able to relieve myself before he gets back...

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I finish cleaning up after I... you know... I don't need to think about that right now. It's been a good 10 minutes, why isn't Tsukki back?

I walk out of my room and go to the bathroom door, only to hear the shower running. Ah, I guess he wanted to take a shower. I don't need to use the bathroom anymore so I guess I can go back to my room.

I plop down on my bed and then I remember how Tsukki hates wearing unwashed clothes. Whenever he spent the night at my house before, he would always ask to borrow some of my clothes before he got in the shower if he forgot to bring a spare pair. He just rushed out this morning so I should bring him something. I grab my biggest white hoodie that I haven't worn in a while and some baggy black slacks.

I walk back to the bathroom to hear that the water's off. I knock on the door. "Tsukki, I know you hate wearing dirty clothes after you shower so I brought you some stuff to change into." I say.

I hear the doorknob rattle as Tsukki slowly opens the door, leaving it slightly ajar. His hair is wet and he's not wearing his glasses which I find really cute. I look slightly downwards and he's wrapped in one of my white bath towels, but then I realize he's shaking. Could he have taken a really cold shower or something?

"Thanks." He mutters, grabbing onto the clothes I brought back.

"Hey umm... Tsukki?" I ask. He hums in response.

"You're... umm... shaking.... are you okay?" I ask.

"Yeah. I just took a cold shower." He says.

I don't recall him ever taking cold showers, much less shaking from them.

Without thinking, I reach my hand out and brush my fingertips on his hand that he's holding the door open with.

"Jesus Tsukki you're freezing. A-are you sure you're okay?" I ask.

"Yes." He says. I look back up at his eyes. They seem to be tinted red and a bit puffy. Maybe he got shampoo in his eyes? But my shampoo is the type that doesn't irritate your eyes.

"I don't mean to pry but your eyes... are a bit puffy..." I say.

"Yamaguchi, I said I'm fine." He says.

"Tsukki." I say with a slight hint of irritation in my voice, hoping he'll talk to me.

"Fine. Can we just talk when I'm wearing something other than a towel?" He says.

"Oh umm... sure!" I say.

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(quick AN, for the female or any afab readers out there who didn't get why Tsukishima took a cold showers, it's a way to get the little buddy down there to go away without... yk( ͡° ͜ʖ ͡°) )

I'm sitting on my bed as I hear my door creak open. It's Tsukki. His hair still looks a bit damp and the hoodie looks a bit oversized on him but aside from that, he looks normal.

"Ready to talk?" I ask, propping myself up with my arm. Tsukki doesn't say anything, he just slowly walks over and sits across from me. One of his legs is pulled into his chest with the other sprawled out so his foot in next to my back. I'm sitting with both my knees somewhat close to my chest but not that close.

"It's like... you know when you have a really good dream but you wake up and realize it didn't really happen? Well... it's that. As for why I took a cold shower..." Tsukki says, pausing at the end. "...I just... felt like it." He says. My eyes widen. I know shared dreaming isn't real and even if it were, Tsukki wouldn't have acted how he did in my dreams, I knew he still understood what I was going through in a way.

"Maybe it would help if you talked about that dream? I kind of get it since I have dreams like that a lot too." I say. I quickly wish I could take back my words. In the game of truth or dare last night, it was made pretty obvious Tsukki had a crush, if it was about her then I wouldn't want to hear about it. Of course, I guess I could if it would make Tsukki feel better.

Tsukki shifts around and sits down next to me. "I would rather not talk about it." He says.

"Alright." I say. I'm fine with talking or not talking about it. Whatever Tsukki wanted I was happy with.

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We sit in silence, just enjoying each other's presence for about half an hour. Tsukki lets out a sigh and he lays down. I look down at him and he glances over at me, giving me a kind-hearted grin. I really like spending time with Tsukki when it's just us, he's a lot nicer and happier when we're alone together. I really like when he acts himself.

I do the same as him and lay next to him. We both maintain eye contact, he still smirks and I can tell I have a smile on my face. I suddenly get the same urge I did on Thursday to kiss his cheek. I know I won't but it wouldn't hurt just to touch his face.

I slowly move my hand over and curl my index finger, running it across his cheekbone. His skin really is smooth. "I'm not going to say my whole dream but I will say this." Tsukki starts to say. His voice is gentle and calm. I continue to run my finger across his cheekbone as he speaks. "I had this recurring dream that was really good for a long while. I was always happy with having it just be a dream but last night it... was different for some reason. It was better. For the first time, I really didn't want it to end." Tsukki's eyes start to water as his grin starts to tremble.

My finger stops dead in its tracks and I feel my eyes widen. It couldn't be... Could it? 

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