First Life //Ateez

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"Seonghwa, we're going out. Will you come with us?" Hongjoong knocked gently the door, startling the older.

"Mm, really? Why didn't you tell me?"

"You were sleeping just five minutes ago and it was kind of a last minute decision. So?"

Seonghwa nodded, tiredly rubbing his eyes.

"I'll be ready in two. Wait for me" He said pouting, already starting to get off bed.

"Of course Seongie. Take your time" The younger smiled at him and left, closing the door behind him.

Seonghwa sighed and stood up, stretching a little before making his way to the bathroom. After taking a shower he moved to his wardrobe to search for clothes.

Just as he was looking for what to wear, his mind started wandering. This would happen very frequent. And his thoughts were occupied by one thing specifically.

His friends and fellow bandmates.

There would be no day for Seonghwa that he didn't think of them. He was almost certain that he had developed feelings for them, though he didn't know if they were returned.

One thing he couldn't control was the rapid beating of his heart when he was close to them. Or the fact that he almost desperately craved for their affection, even though he acted like he hated it.

He was jealous of the relationship everyone else shared, not being afraid to show their love and affection towards one another. But Seonghwa always kept back. And he wanted to change that.

What he also couldn't control, was his liking for everyone. He wasn't discriminating between them, he liked them all the same. Which, truth to be told, found it a little weird. And of course the rest would found it weird too, so he mostly kept to himself.

After he changed into his clothes, and made himself look presentable, he walked out the room, meeting the rest to the living room of their dorm.

"Ahh there you are. We were starting to get worried"

"Why? Was I that late?" Seonghwa said awkwardly, scratching the back of his neck, not liking the fact that the rest waited for him.

"I'm just teasing you Seongie. Now, come" Wooyoung replied and stood up from his seat, lacing their hands together.

Seonghwa made a disgusted face but didn't push him away. Because he simply loved it, though he would never admit it.

They went out the building and started walking, Wooyoung skaking their hands back and forth. Seonghwa was looking around him as if he was being outside for the first time.

His eyes would sparkle whenever he saw something that caught his attention, either some small bird or insect or even a flower.

He was, of course, unaware of the loving stares the rest were giving him, completely oblivious to their feelings.

But the rest thought the this would have to change. Today.

Just as they were walking, they passed by a flower shop, and Seonghwa stood a few moments in front of the glass, just admiring the different types of flowers. He was sure that he could smell the sweet and soft fragrance, even through the glass.

He had spent maybe much time staring at them, because he hadn't realise that Yunho had walked inside, ordering a bouquet of a specific flower, and getting out quickly.

"So, shall we get going?" He said, and made a silent gesture to the rest to keep quiet.

It was as if Seonghwa had not paid attention to him and started walking, well, maybe almost dragged by Wooyoung.

The two of them made their way, way further than the rest, giving Yunho the opportunity to talk to them, without Seonghwa hearing.

"What if we confess now?" He asked them rather blunt, and waited for their reaction.

"I mean, that would be good but.. I don't want for this to become awkard between us" San pouted, not liking the thought.

"But why sweetheart?"

"What do you mean why? He is going to be weirded out by us. He may even not like us that way"

"Yeah but we need to tell him. The fact that we are keeping this relationship secret is like lying to him. I want to be honest with him, even if the outcome hurts"

Hongjoong was seeing the skeptical and almost crestfallen look on his lovers, and decided to take matters into his own hands.

"Well, first of, even if Seonghwa doesn't accept us, he will still be understanding and supportive. I know him, he won't judge us. And besides, there might be a chance that he likes us too"

"But Joongie, how can you be so sure? Most of the time he doesn't even want to touch us" Yeosang looked sadly at the older, but still a hopeful look on his face.

"There is always an explanation to everything. We just have to ask him. We can't assume things"

"So, will we do it? Right now?" Jongho asked, mostly excited about the whole ordeal, squeezing Mingis hand on his.

"Yes, we will. And I have a good feeling about this"