Run, Zhian (EL VICENTE SERIES #2) COMPLETED

Kabanata 37

Hindi ko alam kung anong iisipin ko. My head is ill-at-ease right now. Sarah is just delusional, that's what I want to think. That she's just making me feel upset with those, she's lying. But.. is it?

Dylan asked me to marry him. He didn't ask me the actual question but he wanted to change my name.. after he decided to change my son's surname.

Fuck!

Paano kung totoo nga? That this is all because of Coen. He wants to take responsibility of my son. And maybe.. he doesn't have a choice because I'm the mother of his son. He doesn't a fucking choice. Pain stabbed in my chest realizing the whole part.

Yakap yakap ko ang tulog na si Coen habang nakatulala sa harapan. Dylan kept on looking at me while driving. Hinaplos niya ang hita ko. Malamig ang tingin ko sa kamay niyang nandoon. I gritted my teeth and didn't talk.

I can't live with that. I won't live for a half-baked feelings. If that's what he thinks is right since we have a child, then fuck that. Wala akong pakialam kung may anak kami, the important is, I don't want a fake feelings. Coen will be his son with or without me being his wife. Hindi ko ipagkakait sa kaniya iyon. So why..

Hinayaan ko siyang kunin si Coen sa akin. Sinundan ko siya hanggang sa kwarto ni Coen. Hindi kami nag-uusap.

Ramdam ko ang pag-iingat niya sa galaw ko. He was observing. Panay ang titig niya sa akin habang hinihiga niya ang anak ko. He went to my side and about to hug me but I left. Kumuha ako ng damit ni Coen para mabihisan.

He cleared his throat. "Are you okay?"

I nodded, "Go and shower." malamig na sabi ko.

Nanatili siyang nakaupo sa tabi ni Coen, pinagmamasdan ako. Yumuko ako at nagsimulang inalis ang damit ng anak ko. He watched me change Coen's clothes. Nang mainis ako ay nilingon ko siya.

"Maligo ka na doon, Dylan.." bakas ang iritasyon sa boses ko pero bulong lang iyon dahil tulog si Coen.

He tilted his head, "Are you mad? May problema ba tayo?"

"Wala. Just go and shower. Ako ang susunod sayo."

He took a sigh and stood up. He looked weary as he stare at me. "Okay, I'll wait for you in our room, then?"

Hindi ako nagsalita hanggang sa makaalis siya. Naupo ako sa tabi ni Coen at nanatili doon ng ilang saglit. Maya maya pa'y pumasok na ako sa banyo sa kwarto ni Coen para doon magshower. I don't know, I have a bad feeling whenever I'm around Dylan. I don't want to see him for now.

Lumabas akong nakatapis lang ang tuwalya sa akin dahil wala akong suot. I went to our room. Nadatnan ko siyang nakatapis din ang tuwalya sa baywang at nagtutuyo ng buhok. He stood up when he saw me. Kumunot ng bahagya ang noo niya nang makita ang ayos ko.

"You showered there?"

I walked through the walk-in wardrobe.

"If its not that obvious, Dylan."

I closed the door and start changing. A pink vintage silk spaghetti strap and shorts is what I found. Lumabas ako at nakita ko kaagad si Dylan na boxer na ang suot at nakaupo pa din sa dulo ng kama.

He stood up and walked towards me. Iiwas na sana ako nang hinawakan niya ang baywang ko at pinirmi sa lamesa. I tried to push him away but he just pinned me harder.

The more I tried, the more he pushed himself!

"Ano ba?" I pushed him more. "Matutulog na ako!"

"What's the problem?"

I pushed his chest. "Wala! Now, get off me!"

"Zhian, how can we fix whatever it is if you're not telling me?" namungay ang mga mata niya habang hinahanap ang mata ko. He's slightly crouching just to reach my gaze.