Nightmares

Alone

So alone, by myself,

Who could ever love me?

No one could look beyond my scars,

They're disgusted by what they see.

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I try so hard to please them,

But they always ask for more.

I give them everything,

All I get is a slamming door.

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I'm so tired of being alone,

I want someone to understand.

I want someone to see my scars,

And still reach for my hand.

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But that is impossible,

Because I'm an ugly freak.

That is what the voices tell me,

They say that I am weak.

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I don't want to be alone,

The voices are much louder.

I want someone to block them out,

And say they couldn't be prouder.

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I run away again, again,

I know that no one cares.

And if I can run far enough,

I might escape the deadly glares.

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I am so alone,

Except for the voices.

They whisper nonstop,

Judging my choices.

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I would do anything,

I want to be free.

I don't want to be lonely again,

That's the one thing I won't be.

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I decided one cold night,

Staring at the moon.

I would brave the cold, dark night,

I would do it sometime soon.

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I open up my balcony window,

Freezing me to the bone.

It occurs to me that when we die,

We always go alone.