Eli

Nursery

Nick POV

After getting home with all the baby stuff, Darren, Carl and Brandon helped me take it all up to a spare room. Hannah said it could be the babies nursery for when I feel ready to have him or her in their own room.

We got a cot, an arm chair for when I feed the baby and all the essentials. Darren had started on building on the cot, Carl on the chair and Brandon was helping me fold clothes. The room was already a perfect grey colour so I decided to keep it the same. It's a neutral colour and I won't know the gender until the babies here.

Hannah and Lexi also helped me pick out neutral baby clothes, pretty much only whites, greys and yellows. Also a couple baby blues because both genders look so cute in baby blue coloured clothes. Especially as babies. Eli is still keeping his distance and barely touching my bump or feeling the baby kick.

He's done it three times since people were able to feel him or her kick. The first time he has walked out somewhere, the second I had begged him to feel, and the third was when I was asleep but just waking up. I felt Eli's hand go on my bump and the baby kick where his hand was. Other than that he hasn't touched me, well what I know of anyway.

Now being close to the due date I chose to get all of the things ready. There's a shit ton of nappies, wipes, milk formula, bottles, Muslin cloths and bibs. Literally, anything a baby needs we've got it all and more. For the first two months I'm only doing to dress the baby in the vests and baby grows. It's only so the kid will be comfortable and it's not too difficult to change them while I'm still in a bit of pain.

"You alright nick?" Brandon asked me, bringing me from my thoughts.

"Yeah, just a little headache." I replied and smiled reassuringly.

"Is that normal?" Hannah asked Carl.

"During the first trimester, yes, and sometimes the second depending on the reason. But now being in the third it's not a common. Then again it could be just a regular headache because you haven't been drinking enough water." He sent me a little glare.

"Sorry." I laughed a little.

Everyone else laughed a little as well then carried on with what they were doing. Hannah was to the side incase any of us wanted or needed anything.

"Nick." I heard Eli call me. I got up and waddled out of the room.

"What's up." I smiled at him.

"Nothing I just got home and no one is to be seen." He chuckled a little.

"Everyone's helping me with the nursery for when I feel the baby is ready to sleep in their own room." I told him.

Eli closed his eyes and sighed. "Baby-," he started.

"Eli please. We've been through this way too much and I'm starting to get sick of it. Stop distancing yourself and thinking about the bad outcomes. We'll both be ok why can't you see that?"

"Because that's just who I am, Nick. Everything in my life fucks up as soon as it gets good. Literally, when I was alive my village was good then I died, I've had friends and they've left because I'm too moody for them. Lucifer taking your memories and now. We got married less than a year ago and this thing can kill you. I'm not ok with losing you why can't you see that?" He snapped.

"Eli-."

"I can't do this anymore nick. This thing is killing you from the inside out. Have you seen yourself? You're so pale and skinny that I can see your cheekbones. I'm so done seeing you like this, yet you didn't think what it'd be like for me to see you like this." Eli raised his voice.

"We can do it, I know we can." I cried and put a hand on my bump.

"No you can't, Nick. Get it in your head that you won't see it grow up, if not it'll die with you."

"Why can't you accept that I'm having the baby and I'll be ok?" I sobbed.

"Because you've given me no choice." Eli yelled. "You decided this on your own and I'm not going to accept that. I know how this will turn out and that something you can't accept. Nick were supposed to be partners yet you've done this on your own. You've chosen to leave me and I can't bare the thought of you leaving me this soon."

"Please Eli." I begged him.

"You chose this on your own, you chose to have it and it'll kill you and possibly itself. And there is no way in hell I'm ok with that." He snapped and walked away from me.

As soon as Eli was out of sight I broke down even more. Arms wrapped themselves around me, I turned and cried into Darrens chest.

"I thought if I'd left the baby behind he'll be able to go on without me." I sobbed.

"Eli has been through a lot of people leaving and dying in his life. You are the only person that he has ever let on other than Lexi and he sees her as a sister. Don't forget you're his husband and he has barely had any time with you and now he could lose you." Darren sighed.

"Have I made a mistake going on with the pregnancy?" I looked up at him.

"I don't know nick, I really don't know. But I do know it will change both of you no matter the outcome." He replied.