Little deaths (ryden fanfic)

Chapter 17

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Ryan's PoV
"We need to talk." We did. I had spent all night crying on Brendon. We need to talk. Brendon looked terrified.

Fuck I was terrified. This isn't an everyday thing. This could change my life, will change my life. Brendon nodded,
"Al-alright." He stuttered. God I was so nervous. What if he didn't want to stay with me through this. What if I lost him.

"Okay." I began "let's start at the start." I took a deep breath,

"Brendon, the last time I was in hospital was when my eye went. During surgery they used a certain type of metal scalpel. The metal used happens to be the only type they use. When I was under I took a severe allergic reaction. Brendon I-I was comatose for so fucking long." I started to cry, but when he tried to comfort me I pushed him away. I have to finish this,

"There's mainly only one thing wrong with my brain, and it's to do with my optic nerve. It isn't fixable for me but, I could, well. I most likely am getting a transplant." I said, silent tears falling,

"If I get the transplant I'll be able to see. See the world, see my dad, see you, Brendon." I sob,

"So that would be amazing. And there's a donor. But the issue is I am going to react to the operation. I am going to get sick. And I may- I may, fuck!" I can barely speak,

"I may never wake up Bren. But I can't decide that. Because I couldn't say goodbye to you. I could never say goodbye to you. And I don't know what to-to do." This is so fucking hard! I haven't even looked at Bren the whole time.

"So what I'm staying is, I don't want to say goodbye Bren. So I'm asking instead? Will you come with me? To the hospital?" I stop them. All emotion falling away.

Brendon pulls me in for a hug, holding me closer than anyone ever has before. I have wanted nothing more than to see him since I have met him, maybe now I can,

"You'll never have to say goodbye to me." He whispers