Confession #56: Fuck it all.
Just fuck it. What is the point in fighting when everyone fights over you, and all you hear are yells and shouts both outside and inside my mind. I'm tired. Tired of being the only one. Tired of being pushed around, not praised for. Working so hard for what? I'm not gonna get acknowledged, no one is ever gonna give a shit about me. No one will.
I FUCKING WISH SOMEONE READS THIS. I WISH SOMEONE WHO FUCKING IS IN MY FUCKIN LIFE IN MY FUCKING SCHOOL FUCKIN READS THIS.
I wish that people knew. I wish I had that best friend who when I told them that I am okay, they can tell instantly when I'm lying and say no you're not.
FUCK EVERYONE I HATE THIS.
I don't know how I feel I can't explain it to you. But I kinda feel like a balloon drained out of helium and just lying there. I feel drained. I feel upset and I feel like crying. (Which I am). I don't know why I feel like this. I hate myself. I don't know why I hate myself. I wished I died. But I don't know why I wish that.
I REALLY JUST WANNA DIE. BUT I CAN'T BECAUSE I THINK OF THE PEOPLE WHO COULD BE HURT.
I am just in pain right now.
I might just open up to someone.
But I don't know who.
I just did.
I wished he was closer to me instead of in another state.
I love him. He is such an awesome friend. <3
Well wish me luck xD
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"I'm selfish, impatient and a little insecure. I make mistakes, I am out of control and at times hard to handle. But if you can't handle me at my worst, then you sure as hell don't deserve me at my best." - Marilyn Monroe I'm just Taz. A girl who is...