BEST FRIEND _Jenlisa (one shot)

Bestfriend-3

Lisa pov

I woke up as the sun ray hit my face .
I remember about last night and search Jennie beside me but she's no longer here.

"May be she's in the kitchen"

I mumble and convince myself that she didn't leave me
I walk to my kitchen down stairs but it's silent.

'May be she already left.'
I become sad but may be she have something important.
I should understand her.
I try to convince myself again

Then when I was about to go up I saw a stick note on the kitchen table

I went there and read it

Lisa I'm sorry for not waking you up but I have to leave now.
cause someone call me that kai is sick
I'm really sorry but I'll come to your place if he get better. Eat this toast for your breakfast

JK

As soon as I finish the letter,
my tears uncontrollably roll down.

' this is nothing to cry about '

I told myself but

I can't stop.
I notice my mental health is going worse. I cry a lot. I became so emotional.

And the thought of she left me because her boyfriend need her wasn't helping.

Last night, I was thinking that she somehow would love me,

May be I could try to make her understand that she also love me.
I was thinking that maybe she is just confused about her feelings.

Just maybe she is pretending everything.

But I'm just a fool who can't accept the reality.

' Lisa yah why is the meaning of bestfriend so hard for you to understand '

I said to myself

The way all of my stupid hopes and imaginations are destroyed with just a piece of paper is enough for me to wake up.

' this is the time to move on Lisa
seven years is enough.
And you should do this when things are clear.
It's very clear that she doesn't feel the same.

And you know that.
it's not only seven years.
It's longer than that.
Please don't lie to yourself'

I stopped my tears and remind myself
with the most familiar lines

I go up stairs but as soon as I open the door ,my eyes land on an old picture of me and Jennie.

I try to hold my tears but I'm still that stupid Lisa who break down just by seeing that picture.

She is the only one that I've ever loved through out my life since the day we met.

'how will you able to forget her when she is the only one who occupy every space in your memories'

That day I cried and waste my Saturday.
But what hurt me more is Jennie didn't show up.

Yeah..

..I'm pathetic..

... pathetic without her.

Sunday

Lisa pov

Guess what.
I'm at a bar now and trying to wash this pain.
Yeah pathetic.

It didn't work.
It's impossible not to think about her and hurt myself.
I'm the reason why I'm hurting.