Just Like you (L.T. love story)

chapter 17

Jessica's POV

i woke with Louis arms around, i picked up my phone to see it's two in the morning. i felt like i was about to be sick so i ripped louis arms off of me not caring if he wakes up and run to the bathroom throwing up my dinner i had last night. when i was done i cleaned my tear stained face up and walked out the bathroom seeing louis sitting up in the bed sleepily looking worriedly

"are you alright love" i sigh i dont want to do this but i have to louis leaves in four days

"babe we need to talk" i say sadly, he sits up tall and alarm immediately spread across his face. he pats the sport next to him but i cant be that close to him right now i wouldn't be able to say what i want to so i shake my head no and remain standing by the bathroom hurt flashes across his face

"what's wrong?" he says standing up, slowly tears begin rolling off my face hitting my black fluffy socks

"louis" i choke out "we can't be together while your on tour... i don't want to worry about what's happening over there.. i can..can't" i stutter finding the right words 

"but we can skype or your can come with us" he begs tears in his eyes. seeing him about to cry is ripping my heart in half.

"i will not leave me dream louis im sorry i want to stay to be a photographer and i never stopped you so don't try to stop mine" i said weakly looking at my feet. i heard him walk over ot me and lift my chin i couldn't even look him in the eyes 

"look at me" i glanced at him and looked back down he looked hurt and it was all my fault but later on her will have an amazing future because i let him go. he sighs and lets me go 

"what did i do?" he said giving up the fight sighing in defeat

"nothing, i just don't want to hold you back" i whisper i get up about to walk away and stay with Avery  tonight but he grabs my wrist and pulls me back to him. i land on his chest and look up at him 

"stay, lets be together till we leave im not ready for you to leave, if next week you wont be mine give everything you have" he said, or well pleads and i didn't disagree because that was way better than leaving on bad terms so i just nod. he sighs in relief and pulls me into him kissing me forcefully i kiss back with just as much hunger that he was letting off, and before i knew it we were naked under the covers. 

"are you sure this is what you want" louis ask staring right at me with so much powerful emotion there is no way i can say no

"yes. yes this is what i want" i say. louis kisses me our hearts pounding as we make love to eahc other.

*next day* 

i wake up and notice louis isn't in the bed i turn over to grab my phone to see a note taped to it

hey love, 

i had to clear my head, so i went for a jog. don't worry i brought i disguise so fans won't see me i should be home soon.. 

love, lou x

i sign instant guilt over powering me, i wish i didn't have to do this is feel so bad. i get up and pick me clothes from the closet and go do my business in the bathroom when im done i walk downstairs and walk tot the kitchen starving. i walk over to the fridge trying to find something 

"are you ok Jessica?" Niall asked worriedly, i jump out of my skin, literally and have to run to the bathroom to throw up. niall follows after me and hold's my hair back. when im done i look up to see Niall giving me a knowing look 

"tell me, or do i need to say it out loud" he says harshly i see hurt feel his features and i felt terrible so i told him everything 

"don't tell him or anyone else im leaving when you guys leave" i say finishing with tears

"okay i won't tell him, but i dont agree with it" he says i look up and giggle he looks confused and i giggle again

"Avery said the exact same thing to me" i say sniffling and smiling, he puts the million dollar smile on again and picks me up running me to the kitchen. he runs to the shelfs of food and puts a strawberry poptart in front of me. i smile graciously and began to eat i looked up to see Niall watching me with a smile 

"what?" i said mouth full of food

"i gave that you like five seconds ago and you already ate the first one, im just happy you are eating right again" i blush and look down

"thanks for caring for me" i say honestly and give him a smile of appreciation. he just looks at me and sighs

"i care for you more than you think" he mutters

"huh?" i ask but i heard him i just wanted to hear it for myself

"nothing, want to help me wash these dishes?" he asked i groan and nod. i walk over to the radio i put in the kitchen and start playing a CD of their music and 'little white lies' started playing i squealed and began twirling around the room forgetting about the dishes. i grabbed Niall hand ignoring the sparks and began to dance with him laughing every time he does his Irish jig. when the song was over we heard clapping i looked over to see harry and louis smiling.. when i look at louis i began to have a pain streak through my body. louis noticed i was down and looked at me with a smile to assure me he is fine 

"Harry want to dance with me on the next song?" louis asked harry in a girly voice... harry looked at him with fake lust and fangirled

"oh my gahhhhh, louis tomlinson wants me to dance with him" he screams and takes louis hand as 'Stockholm Syndrome' came on i giggled and grabbed Nialls hand 

for the rest of the night it was like regular times and we had no drama. i forgot me and louis broke up and we just acted like bestfriends.