Ateez Little Space

14-Sanhwa : Hyung is here

Little : San

Caregiver :Seonghwa

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San's POV : 

today is our fifth concert , i am happy but tired , we are finally performing our new songs and it's so beautiful when i think that we have made it now , i am sitting next to wooyoung my head on his shoulder while he is reading some tweets , i kept looking at seonghwa who is getting his hair done by the stylist , he is looking straight into the mirror and talking to .the stylist about i don't know what  .

Hyung is so trustworthy , he loves all of us , he is fun to be around and also supportive of everything which makes him my favorite hyung , he felt my gaze on him and turned to look at me , he smiles at me and i smiled back before looking at the ceiling . 

i really want to tell him the truth ,  the truth that i am a little who really wants his hyung to take care of him 

" what are you doing sannie ? " i felt a smack landing on my thigh which made me look at the cause and noticed seonghwa sitting next to me 

" hyung " i whined and he chuckled , i laid down my hand on his lap 

" you are already sleepy ? " he asked playing with my hair which made me nuzzle my head in his tummy 

" sleep i will wake you up when it's time to go " 

and in no time i drifted to sleep . 

it felt like a second , till i felt a hand shaking me awake 

" san wake up , it's time " seonghwa hyung said , i kept looking at him not really understanding we he meant , he helped to sit up and rubbed my back gently before leaving to apparently get his mic . 

i kept looking around feeling lost , not knowing what i should , and suddenly it clicked , i slipped to my headspace and that's scary , i don't know how to slip out or what to do , i kept looking at the other members and just did like them . 

we were on stage ready to perform 'win' and i felt so anxious and hesitated before going down with others , i took a deep breath and focused on the song , i did my first part without any mistake but when i went to jump i fell to the ground , tears filled my eyes but i stood up and once we went back stage , hongjoong hyung approached me and i froze 

" san, what happened there ? are you okay ? does it h-" he stopped talking looking at my teary eyes 

" sannie " he said in a gentle voice and pulled me for a hug " what' wrong buddy ? " i just kep crying silently 

" baby " i heard the familiar voice from behind which made me froze and my throat tightened 

" look at hyungie sannie please " seonghwa hyung said and i did so hesitantly , he was standing behind me with a smiling face 

" does it hurt somewhere sannie ? " he asked me and i just kept looking at his shining eyes 

" hyungie ... " i mumbled feeling overwhelmed with everything 

" oww baby , come here " he opened his arms for me and i ran to him hiding my face in his chest 

" we will talk later baby , i know everything alright ? on stage stay close to me and if you can't take it anymore , you tell me okay ? " he said cupping my face and ssmiling at me , i nodded and he kissed my forehead . 

we went back to the stage , i can feel my hyung looking at me from time to time , i didn't talk lots during the performance which was fine , when we were performing ' than you' , seonghwa hyung held my hand and uncontrollably i kept swinging our arms . 

once it was over , i ran backstage but was stopped by someone lifting me up , i screamed 

" you little boy , we have a necessary conversation to go through " i whined but kept still , once inside the changing room , he sat me down on his lap , i looked at him and he held an upset expression 

" hyungie " i said feeling the tears in my eyes 

" why are you going to cry ?" he asked me, i hugged him and he held me close " shhh baby i am not mad at you i promise " he said running a hand through my hair 

" really ? " i said looking at his face 

" baby boy , listen to me sweetie , it's really okay , no one is against that , you can be  little all you want but you had to tell me or one of your hyungs " he scolded gently which made me pout and nod 

" it's okay now angel " he pulled me toward him so i am laying against his chest , it feels safe and comfortable 

" sannie always wanted tell you " i said playing with his shirt 

" really baby ? " he chuckled and i nodded 

" hyungie is lovely and hwa is always warm and sannie wuvs him " i said happily slowly letting my little side take over 

" baby , hyungie loves sannie more and also will be happy to take care of you " he said caressing my arm and i giggled bouncing on his lap which made him wrap his arms around my waist 

" sweet precious baby "