secret diary ; yeongyu [writing]

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By now he's probably laughing over me... i'm sure.

┊31st October┊

Thanks Sangie for being with me, support me and comfort me. I'm sorry, I disobeyed you, I've made up with Yeonjun. I'm not as brave as you, Yeosang. It's just that I can't be angry with him, he's still in my mind also if I hate it.

┊1st November┊

I went with Yeonjun at Ji-eun's (aka bitch) friend's party. I met Minjun and we talked that's how I found out he's gay too (yayyyy) and we had fun until I went to the bathrooms to look for Yeonjun just to find him with a girl.

I think that's the time when I really felt what means being jealous over someone. Obviously I couldn't get mad because after all he isn't my real boyfriend...

At this point I can't remember exactly what happened next, the only thing I know is that I nearly kissed him and then got too much drunk.

┊2nd November┊

So, umm... the next morning I wasn't mad at him at all. (How could I be, he even took me to a cafe where he bought me bubble milk)

Here he is while eating

P.S I love when he kisses my cheeks

┊5th November┊

I fucking hate my father. He kicked me out of his house, at least now I'm staying at Yeonjun's home. Today we skipped school and went to ice skating, I had to teach him haha

┊6th November┊

I hate my life. I knew he didn't like me in that way but I confessed to him anyway. I'm not going to say that my heart is broken, because it seems more likely that I'm the one who's broken.

I'm sorry for what I've done Yeonjun.

I'm sorry mom that you have to stress over me when you're the one who should be comforted.

The next two pages were filled with strage drawings of a shilouette in the dark and then, written in small, a word. Yunie.

There, Yeonjun stopped from reading and hugged Beomgyu. "Reading this... I've realized how dumb I had been. What you had to go through. How much I'm an asshole-"

Beomgyu shut his mouth. "Hey, it's the past. It's over, and I'm not the only one who had troubles, I know you had them too..."

"Do you know that you're just making me feel more like an asshole with your kind words?"

Beomgyu chuckled. "So, what should I write this time?" he asked holding the diary in his tiny hands. "Yeonjun is a hot asshole? Or it's better sexy-"

Yeonjun smirked "Write in who's your new boyfriend."

"W-what?"

Yeonjun slapped his hands on his face. "Oh shit that had to be a surprise" he muttered and Beomgyu laughed. "Thank god, I thought you'd never ask me!"

***

They heard a knock on the door and Beomgyu sighed "Looks like nobody has keys in this house" he said opening the door seeing it was his mother, crying.

He immediately hugged her and took her to the living room making her sit on the sofa. "Mother? What happened?" Beomgyu asked. "Your dad... I tried to talk to him. I wanted to know why he left, but he didn't listen to me."

"Mom, it's okay." Beomgyu whispered.

"No, it's not. I accidentally told him you and Yeonjun are... you know what. Please forgive me!" she said and Beomgyu thought it would be better to not say her what happened earlier.

"Of course mom, I'm by your side." Beomgyu said and with hands made Yeonjun, who had entered the living room with a playstation controller and a Pikachu hat on his head, sign to leave them two alone.

The blue haired boy raised an eyebrow, but did as Beomgyu ordered him. It probably was something about the family and he didn't want to disturb them.

After a pair of minutes, Beomgyu's mother calmed down and Beomgyu kissed her cheek. "Now me, Yeonjun and you are going to cook dinner okay? Everything it's fine, because you're the best at it!"

The lady smiled, moved by her son. Beomgyu didn't need a word to understand how much she was grateful to him, that smile said enough.

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