Dear Carly,
Okay,
Im tired of being bitched about behind my back!
But ya know what, I'm allowing people to hurt me, because I deserve this shit!
The deal I made with myself--I'll continue to smile, no matter how hurt I am.
Kenzie won't talk to me :( she wasn't kidding!
WHAT THE HELL?
Nothing hurts worse than being hurt by the person you love.
IM DONE. Im going silent. Don't get worried about me. Im breaking down.
I'll do nothing but smile. Gray and Rochelle know how to deal with my silence,
They've done it before. Now, the silence begins!
Look at what August showed me::::
I CAn't do this anymoRE
Put the capital letters together...yep.
I CARE.
I don't know why I wanted to show you that. I just love it!
Now, my day.
It sucked! Im still smiling! Still smiling. I almost started crying in tech.
No reason, okay yes there was! But I won't speak of it!
Nobody knows about my past, only Gillian.
By past, I mean fourth grade PAST.
Mrs.Simak mentioned her daughter "Kennedy"
I can't hear that name without crying! And being chopped up on the inside!
I loved hers. Enough with that topic.
Anyways-
I was so desperate today, that I went to the guidance counselor!
THAT NEVER HAPPENS! I'm...Horrible. I'd hate to say it, but it's true.
Nothing is ever right in my life and I never am truly happy...thats something i have begun to accept and something i have become bored with...
But, it's life.
Im a hot mess right now! Im full of tears.
I AM LOST! IM LOST IN MY OWN LITTLE WORLD! A NIGHTMARE!
I am just about done with life.
Love,
My mind.
