"Maybe it's destiny"

I feel like I'm drowning

Regina's diary:

-Monday
Here I am, writing down my own thoughts again... It's been ages since I wrote down my feelings for the last time, but today I feel like I'm drowning. I desperately need to get this out of my chest. As I'm writing I find it extremely hard to stop my tears. I'm in the bathroom... I'm technically hiding from him. We had a fight again and this time it got even worse... he didn't just yell at me... this time he laid a hand on me. I never thought he was capable of such thing... don't blame me but I kinda believe that this is my fault! I haven't stopped mentioning her name today... I miss her more than ever! 6 months ago from today she died. Six months ago from today I walked into her nursery and felt the coldness. Not the actual sensation of cold air inside the room, but that weird feeling that there was something dead in there... I approached her crib and there she was. "Sleeping" peacefully! This time she was asleep forever... I wouldn't get the chance to see her beautiful eyes ever again, to hear her laugh and listen to her cute giggles.I miss the sound of her voice... but most of all I miss my Ophelia. My baby girl... he kept blaming me about her death for ages! He still does... but he doesn't mention it anymore. He despises me... I can feel that! Every time I look at him he looks away or just exits the room. This time he crossed the line. I turned him into that beast.. I took away both of his children. I took away my little boy as well... I'm the reason why everything is falling apart right now! When I first got pregnant I never expected that I would love her that much! I felt guilt... I felt that I was moving on! Oh gosh I didn't want to move on! I didn't want to forget Henry but the pain was too much. I had no choice... I am pretty sure that I will never see him again! He's vanished... and even if I ever saw him he would hate me! I'm a horrible person and now I'm paying for my sins... I accept that! But please... I can't take this anymore! I'm trying to find the strength to leave everything behind and start over for once again! I can't take this any longer... I'm driving crazy... I feel like I'm drowning!

Emma's eyes were flooded with tears. Her lips were shaking, and her hands were holding the page she just read tight. She moved her left hand and scratched the top of her head in shock. Regina had a daughter...

That's who Ophelia was! She shut the diary and placed it underneath Regina's pillow again making sure that she hadn't changed the position of the diary. She couldn't let Regina find out that she had read her thoughts and feelings.

She laid back on the bed and shut her eyes trying to relax. All these years she always focused on the horrible things that happened to her. Of course the one to blame was Regina since she was the one who casted the curse and forced snow and David to come up with a solution to save their daughter but now... she felt guilty. Her life was messy, but Regina's life was messed up as well.

They had multiple things in common. They had never experienced love and protection. They both forced themselves to build walls around them in order to protect their heart and soul from any possible heartbreak, and last but not least they were in need for a proper family!

She placed her hands on her chest and huffed in despair...
In the minute Regina was pacing up and down the halls in front of doctor Heart's office. The hotel had made sure that all residents of the hotel had the opportunity to visit a doctor in case something was wrong.

She sighted and took a look at her watch. He was late... he had another client in there for the past 40 minutes and Regina's impatience was growing bigger and bigger. There was no important reason for her visit at the doc but back then when she gave birth to ophelia, the labor caused a couple of fallouts on her body. She kept having migraines and stomach aches so the doctors subscribed her a couple of pills and doctor appointments in order to have a check up on a regular basis.

During Ophelia's labor she almost died... she lost way too much blood since she experienced an abdominal detachment. The baby came three weeks early and Regina had to stay in the hospital for a whole month.