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(Please pardon my language. I was so pissed at her here uwu)

Rant 1: ℍ𝕖𝕣 𝔼𝕩-𝕗𝕣𝕚𝕖𝕟𝕕

Date: 09/19/20

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⇝ I've never wanted to murder someone in different ways so bad.

♤ God, I hate her. Like fr, i've never thought that i'd want to do smth so bad like that. I guess i thought i was too sweet to ever want to murder someone so brutally in my head. Lol, news flash Lily, you aren't a saint, so stfu past me.

♤ So i guess i'll tell you the reason why i hate her in the first place. So um, as you can see, she was my ex-friend(didnt know the word existed until my weird friend told me abt it), so i guess i still care for her?? hmm, maybe its a 80-20 out of a 100, 20 being the fck that i give abt her uwu

♤ We started talking on my second year, with her being an extrovert. Ah yes, what a contrast. But when i told her that, she said opposites attract, with a disgusting wink. Yeah right, attract my ass you slutty btch. So um, after that, i became her one friend who she rants about(mostly about kpop sht), and i remember making her watch this one anime as well. What was it's name? The anime called 'Snow White with Red hair'. its a good anime, for a bad rant huhu. 

♤ She started gushing at how handsome the male lead was, with me going along because she was speaking facts there uwu <3 She told me how hot it would've been if she was the female lead lmao, and i was going along uwu. She told me all these things like anime's great, anime's life, and she even wanted me to send her a few anime recommendations with the same genre. With me influencing a potential weeb, i was happy on doing so and i gave her those ofc ❤

♤ Things were pretty okay with us, until she started hanging out with another friend. Of course, thats not the reason why i hate her, its the fact she completely changed. I mean, she already had her flaws(including her signature lice? god it took me months to remove those when i got affected) but i j forgot them, thinking that people weren't perfect. But damn, she took those way for granted. 

♤ She started getting on my nerves, and for the fact that she was an annoying spoiled brat, oh, i hated her more. Anyway, im not that rich, (but im not poor either), and she was, well you guessed it, a rich btch. I remember one project, our group needed to contribute money so that we could get the materials needed for the project to work. mE, being a someone that mom really doesnt give money to, a poor lil sht, became troubled at this, because i really dont like asking mom for money if she did start to give me some. At the time dad was suffering from job shenanigan, another reason why i was also hesitant.

 ♤ Heehee~ aren't i sweet? shut up lily this isnt about you.

♤ Anyway, after that, i asked mom, and she gave me her coin purse, which was full of pennies. Imagine my face when i had to count those. Nah, i dont really mind. After that, she, along with her new friend sent an excuse that they werent attending afternoon classes to buy materials, and was permitted. Once i handed the pennies over(which missed like 6 or 7 more), she had this look on her face, which made me more annoyed, but i apologized anyway, saying that i couldnt get enough money, and that i'll just make up for it through the contribution on the making of the actual project.

♤ Her other friend(she's my friend now uwu) was fine to this, but she, she, however, still had that effin look, before secretly rolling her eyes and smiling half-heartedly to me while saying 'okay'. So she didn't think i'd see that? Ha, aren't you a rich btch who flexes me her new lighting stick of BTS or smth? And a few pennies makes you mad? Oh, how much were my palms itching to slap her uwu

♤ Anyway, they skedaddled to wherever they were going, prolly to the nearest shop that sold school supplies. After that, we didnt really talk after the day, with me purposely ignoring her because i didnt want to deal w/ her sht. Oh, there are many more that she did to me, but i dont wanna let you all know that since some of them were personal,,,,,,,,which makes me hate her more uwu.

♤ Btchiness and sass aside, im a pretty short-tempered person. But when it comes to my friends, my temper's more longer, of course. Why, they're my friends! They mean a lot to me since, well, forever. Anyway, when i finally snapped, is when i completely ignored her. When i say completely, i mean it, like totally. 

♤ I can hear you warfreaks going like 'Why didnt you show her a piece of your mind?!' or anything similar to why all i did was ignore her. First off, i didnt have it in me to do that, since she was my friend. Fck, im too soft, i know, but i just couldnt do it huhu. Second, i prolly cant do that whether they're a friend or not, since i just lack the confidence doing so uwu

♤ Why am i posting this in the first place? Aren't i over it? 

♤ As y'all know, im a certified weeb (uwu), who gushes over to her crushes and had these imaginations coming in my mind which makes me lowkey embarrassed. Crap, im exposing myself here,,,,and also a fujoshi who drools when two boys that i like has a canon anything.

♤ Kay, so remember when she was gushing over to how beautiful anime was? Later on, i hear her trashtalking about it, saying that anime s u c k e d , saying how it was disgusting looking at the people gushing over to a fictional character. Oh, i was so fcking enraged, i suddenly wanted to punch her and slap her and-

♤ *ahem*. Ah yes, she sucks. 

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