Part 27

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Sid was restless during whole drive .........  Dr Rayan words echoing in his ears........ he was panicking because of Sana ............... he was feeling guilty to leave her all alone .............. how he becomes so irresponsible toward her ...........
He reached his mansion......... and instantly move toward his room........ but Sana was not there.......... he panicked............ he checked other room beside his room .......... he open the door ............ there is dark inside ....... he on the light......... and there she is ........... digging her face in pillow.......... and placing quilt over her......... he moved toward her....... and sit beside her....... he felt sudden peace..
he ruffles her hair............Sana move a little and look at him ........... he also look at her.............
Sid: I am sorry Sana...... I was just......
Sana cut him ........
Sana: busy............ it's ok........she said coldly without any expression on her face .............  but Sid can see her eyes...... which told a different story........ she cruised a lot....., as her eyes are puffy and red ...........
Sid try touch her face ....... when Sana stop him..........
Sana: Sidhart........ it's late already..... and I am sleepy....... plz you also take rest...........
she said moving a little aside ...............
Sid look at her utter shock ........ why she is not letting him touch......... his heart pinched by her little ignorance...... and cold behavior..........
Wait she is going to sleep here ...... no ..... no ....... how can she sleep here ....... I can't stay away from her.........
Sid: lets go to our room....... or we will stay in this room..... as you say........
he don't want to go away from her.....
Sana get up and sit straight...........
It's time to clear things between them.......... it's time to give him reality check ............
Sana look at him ........ and composed herself............ready herself to What she is going to said ..,,.,...she take a deep breath......... and shut her eyes for a while ............ then open her eyes and look at her fingers in her lap ...,,,,,,
Sana: Sidhart.......... now that room is not our room........ y...
she was about to speak further when Sid cut her.......
Sid: it's our Sana ..... my and your room.....,.,,... you are my wife na......
Sana look at him and smile sadly.........
Sana: Sidhart ....... What else I am to you?????????
She want to listen before taking some steps .......... she don't want to regret later........... she know if it ends like according to going condition then it will ends forever...............

Be Wafa waqt tha , tm tha, ya muqadr mera.......
Batt yah ha k anjaam judai nikla..........

Sid look at her ........... he never thought about it .......... he has no answer..,...... he wanted to say something but couldn't give words.........
after 5 min silence........... Sana smile painfully.......... and said .........
Sana: I am just your wife........ nothing else Sidhart......... and I know this....... it's ok ........ I know what type of relationship we hold ......... and i am totally ok........
she paused........
Sid:Sana ..... it's not lik......
Sana cut him..........
Sana: let me complete Sidhart.........
she shut her eyes and said ......
Sana: our relationship is just for name sake Sidhart.......... it didn't hold any feelings........ emotions........ from your side Sidhart ........ it's totally ok as you love someone else.........
Sid heart start beating fast......
Sana paused for while........ and said
Sana: there is no mean of staying together for us......... I don't lie but yes ....... ....... when you left and forgot about me ....... I felt like I am a unnecessary thing in your life ....... to which you put somewhere and forgot its existence..........
She smile sarcastically............
Sid shut his eyes in guilt and pain and nod her head in no.......... but sana didn't look at him ......... as she was in different zone ..........
Sana: you and Sneha look good together.......... she told me today how much you both love each other ...........
Sid: Sana look ....look at me ...... he tried to stop her by further saying something but Sana feel something else.......
Sana: Sidhart you don't need to feel sorry for me....... I know you care for me .......... but it's totally ok...... i understand........ you don't need to be guilty............
Sid: stop na yrrr..... plz .... lets sleep ..... we will talk about it at some other day na baby.......he just don't want to listen theses things further as these talks are piercing his heart and he is unable to breath..............
He first time called her baby....... Sana smile by closing her eyes....... and said.......
Sana: we cant talk about it later........ I don't want to stays as a option for you Sidhart......... as your priority is some one else.......... you have to understand it............ now you are in relationship with her .......... after some time .... you have to marry her......... she hold a special position in your life .......... I am nowhere's............ it's ...better ....to separate..... our path............
She said last sentence with a lot of difficulty.......... Sid look at her with utter shock and stand up ..........
Sid: you are ..... not in your senses Shehnaaz.......... you better take rest ....... he said with a lot of emotions........ anger .... pain.... hurt...... how can she say like this .......
Sana: I am in my senses Sidhart........ You are just over  reacting now........
Sid: I am overreacting?????......he said loudly........
Sana: yes you are overreacting....... you should be happy yrr....... I am willing to leaving off in between you guys.......
Sid: but you said you ...... love me.....
he was loosing this battle....... but he don't want to loose ......... he don't want to loose her......... but he don't have any solid reason......... or  he was but ready for this ........... he never thought about it........... because it always feel complete............ but today she realized him that it's never complete ....... it was incomplete.......
Sana: but you love Sneha ...... she loves you ....... and I am third person here Sidhart........... it's my one sided love ........ I don't want to implement myself on you anymore.........
she hold her head ....... and wipes her tears ............ Sid was not gulping her words ...........
Sana: I just want to say that ...... I
She paused ........ sids know what coming next.......... he didn't want to listen .......... he quickly left the room ............ 
tears are continuously flowing from his eyes.......... the mere thought leaving of her .......... shake his whole world.........
Sid : what's this god......... what's this....... why things are always complicated for me.............
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Sana cried her heart out............

Ma chahuu tujha ,kesi rr ko tu chahaa yara.....
Ab pyar Nahi ho ga tm sa yu dobara............

It's was most difficult thing for her.......  she just wanted to clears some doubt which was created by Dr Rayan .......... she somewhere know that it didn't hold any reality but ......... her heart ..... stubborn heart ........ want to just listen once from him....... she know what will be his answer as he already told her ....... but for the last time .......she wanted to collect reasons which she will recall her whole life to not come again to him........ and she said every thing to him......... and his silence give her all the reasons....... to go from here ........, to stay away from them ......  to move from here for forever..........
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Sid leave early for office as he don't want to face Sana......... also he don't want to listen those things.......... he was just running from that talks...... as he has no answer........... he thought that he has  to find answers of her questions.......... then he will talk to her ........... he just know that he don't want to leave her at any cost............

Sazaa koi b doo mgar nazar k samna raho..........
Tmhara bina jeena ki adat Nahi mujha.............
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Sana woke up late ....... it's already 9 in the morning.......... she pack up her important stuff.......... and put other stuff in store room ......and clean the room.......... she wrote a letter....... and put her on side table ......... she come out from room ....... and look whole mansion.............
Sana: oh this home ......... she smile bitterly........... some things never suited us ............ like this home ......... yah mujha kbi raaas Nahi aya............
This home always become hell for her ...................but I will never forget you dear hell ........ tears start flowing from her eyes ..............
Sana: good bye my hell.........
With this she left.,..,,............

Ishq pass to aya.......
Mgr rass na aya.....
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