Between The Raindrops.

Chapter 16: Searching for Safety

We were all up the next morning.

Basically at dawn.

We were moving after an hour of waking.

I'm feeding Judith now.

After I finish feeding her, Carol puts her in a backpack type thing and we're off.

As were walking I can't help but think about a certain person I totally forgot about.

Bob.

I think Sasha had her last few moments.

I think they were talking and he just, stop breathing. Sasha couldn't do it. So Tyresse did.

Me and Carl were out in the woods.

Sometimes I feel like I should leave the group.

Like they were all their own family before I came. Maybe I should now. Pretend to be peeing or something and just leave.

But I can't. Surely I think about it but I know I can't.

For Carl.

Everyday I tell myself, stay. Stay for Carl.

If I can't do it for myself, do it for Carl.

Sometimes I wonder. Why?

Why should I keep going?

Why should I keep fighting?

Why should I keep trying?

Hell, there's no cure anyways.

I don't understand anymore.

Somtimes I wonder why should we live?

I'm pulled from my thoughts by Carl pulling me to the ground.

"Sarah, why weren't listening, herd of walkers right ahead, I said it twice." He whispers.

"Sorry I kinda tuned out." I whisper.

I pull my gun out and be ready to shoot.

"No there's too many." He says, pushing my gun back down.

I roll my eyes and start getting up.

"Sarah stop being an ass and stay down." He whisper-yells.

I stay down until they pass.

I stand up and move ahead of everyone else.

"Sarah." Carl says,

I roll my eyes and keep moving. I just feel so angry, like my blood is boiling. I just feel so mad.
I think my period is coming soon. Haha. Oh my god. I'm glad I'm the only one who can hear my thoughts.

I keep walking until I trip on a branch.

"Shit." I mumble, holding my knee.

"Sarah you okay?" Carl asks, like emotionless.

He walks past me.

"Fine thanks for the concern." I mumble getting up.

I limp along behind everybody, Carl being in the front, as I'm in the back.

Thanks for caring babe.

"Hey Sarah you alright?" Carol asks referring to my limp.

"Not really." I mumble.

"Here sit down for a second." She says.

"No no I can keep going." I say.

Too bad I'm lying.