Kiss the Wind

Chapter 36

Chapter 36: So Close Yet So Far

Flynn's PoV

I closed my eyes shut at napa-hilamos ng kamay sa mukha nang maalala ko ang ginawa ko kahapon.

Deep inside, I know that what I said was the one I really wanted. Hindi 'yon dahil sa guilt dahil sa maaaring nagawa ni Duke para sa akin.

Oh, how I love to spend those sweet days with him again. But like he said yesterday, kahit na pinakinggan niya ang sinabi ko at sinubukan niyang ayusin ang meron kami, in the end, mas pinili ko pa ring umalis.

I know that somehow it really was selfish. Marami akong nasaktan dahil sa sudden decision ko na umalis. Pero masama bang mahalin ko naman ang sarili ko kahit minsan?

Is it wrong to prioritize myself for the first time ever?

Removing that thought off my mind, I sighed at tumayo sa kama ko at pumunta sa baba para tingnan ang ginagawa nila Mama.

After working my ass off for almost two years sa States, I finally bought my family a house where they can stay here in Manila.

Naisip ko kasing matagal na rin naman nang mag-adjust ang buhay nila dito, so why not buy them a place where they can stay right?

Although madalas pa rin sila sa Nueva Ecija, they thought it was much easier to be with me everytime I go home from States kapag nandito sila, so binilhan ko na sila ng bahay dito.

"Ma, where are you?"

Tanong ko habang lumilinga-linga sa paligid at hinahanap sina Mama. Since free dahil tapos na ang meeting namin kahapon, nakatambay lang kami rito sa bahay.

"Dito anak! Sa kitchen!"

I smiled as soon as I heard Mama's voice answering me from the kitchen. Nag-lakad na ako agad papunta doon only to see Mama doing another great pastry in front of her.

"I'll help, Ma."

Unlike typical families na lumilibot 'pag may umuuwi galing ibang bansa, our family wants to set everything privately and normally. You know, tamang handa lang ng pasta sa isang tabi tapos disperse na ulit kami.

And we've done that thing yesterday. Pagka-uwi ko galing sa meeting, I immediately invited them to have a quick bonding with me. Just like the old times.

Anyway, dahil nga dalawang linggo ang stay ko rito sa Pinas bago ako muling bumalik sa States, I have decided to divide my attention to my family and to Duke.

Yes, even Duke.

I thought about what Clad said at naisip kong I do need to try and work things out. And like I promised Duke before, if we're still single by the time that we meet each other again, then I would never let him out of my grasp again.

Of course, that's easier said than done. I'm still feeling embarrassed about how I reacted to his words yesterday. To be honest, I just didn't expect that I would really say those words to him.

Maybe because I was carried away by my emotions kaya lumabas ang tinatago ko sa loob-loob. Even my hatred towards him when he didn't believe me before came out before I could even stop myself.

"Anak, balita ko ay may bagong lipat sa bahay na malaki diyan sa tapat natin. Kalilipat lang daw kahapon."

"Oh?"

Tumango-tango naman si Mama bago inilipat sa isang plato ang ipang-memeryenda namin ngayon. Her typical go-to snack, cookies and cakes.

"Oo. Sabi pa nga ng Papa mo pamilyar yung mukha ng lalaki, kaso nga lang kahit sobrang pamilyar ay hindi niya maalala kung saan niya nakita."