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~*~ k r y o z ~*~

quiet sounds of the fan filled my ears from the silence of the rest of the house. what the hell is wrong with me? why has my life been fully taken over by lucas?! i can't even get away from him when i'm thinking, he always shows up. i have done nothing to get this attention from him. nothing and then all at once he comes into my life. 

i sighed as i knew the feeling of wanting to talk to him set in. i opened snapchat, snapped a picture of the side of my face and added the text hey, wanna talk? i'm bored to it. hopefully he wants to get a little closer, it would suck to have this much happen and for nothing. as fun as it is, i don't just want a friend with benefits. well, we aren't friends i guess, more like fuck buddies that don't actually fuck even though we almost did, but that's too long of a name.

lucas sent back an image of total darkness that only had the simple words of not really plastered along the bottom. of course he doesn't. i sighed again. maybe eric will want to talk. tobi hasn't contacted me or even answered my texts once she found out i went to the party. i don't know why she is so pissed off at me. at least eric answers, but it's so much less frequent. what did i do wrong?

quiet rings rang through the phone, and just as i was about to give up and end the call, eric picked up. "hello?" he whispered.

"hey, e. what's up with you and tobi? she hasn't talked to me at all and you have been super distant. i know tobi is mad, but i thought you were okay with me going to the party."

"i'm sorry, i didn't mean to ignore you, it's been a busy few days for us. we didn't mean to ignore you, and tobi isn't mad." i was left out of plans? why wasn't i invited? maybe they assumed i was busy, but it's not great to not be included.

"oh, uh okay," i mumbled. "can i know? actually, never mind, i don't really care, you guys can do things without me. i'm just super bored and wanted to talk, and also kind of just get advice."

"about lucas, i assume? what happened?"

"okay, well we almost fucked at the party..." a loud spitting sound happened from the other line.

"you WHAT?" eric asked loudly. "i'm sorry, but how do you go from pretty much hating each other to almost having sex?"

"he was drunk. no, i thought he was drunk, and he kissed me, took me upstairs and pushed me on the bed, and i thought he was drunk so i left, but yesterday, he informed me that he wasn't."

"so he started it then? sounds like homie is a little homo if you ask me," eric chuckled.

i let out a laugh at the joke and rolled over onto my stomach. "i'm thinking the same thing. we went to the park today and at first, he basically just yelled at me and told me we weren't friends and that we didn't have a thing, which i informed him that we did, but it basically ended in us making out in the backseat of my car and then he ran off. i have no idea what we are, what we do from here, or what the fuck is even going on, e."

"holy shit dude, i really have no idea what to tell you. that's literally a crazy r rated rom-com dude. i wish i had more to offer you. i hope you can figure it out, bb."

god, i hope so.

~*~

i sat down in the cafeteria alone. tobi and eric were both "out sick" but i know it's a lie. what the hell are they doing that could possibly be so important?

my eyes wandered around the room and i noticed a ton of posters and decorations that i hadn't bothered to before. motivational posters are quite the opposite of motivational. about two seconds later, a tray was slamming down across from me. i looked up to put a face to it and was surprised to find that it was lucas. he was quite literally the last person i expected to see.

"i think you sat at the wrong table," i mumbled, looking away. "your friends are over there," i said, pointing to the other side of the room.

"shut up," he almost whispered, sitting down. "do not tell anyone what happened at the party."

"yeah, i know, you've pretty much told me that," i groaned, looking up to him. his brown eyes were a deep color and his hair framed his face beautifully. he is extraordinarily beautiful, and i hate it.

"i know, but i need you to fucking remember it. also, why the fuck are you trying to be buddy-buddy with me? i told you we weren't friends."

"i was just bored. but we have basically fucked so-"

"not so loud!" he whisper yelled.

i rolled my eyes. "we have almost, you know, and i figured i should get to know you so if it happens, i'm not fucking a wall with a face," i grinned sarcastically.

"you think that's actually going to happen? wow, you're hopeful," he laughed in my face.

"you started the whole fucking thing, ever single time. you messaged me first, you kissed me first, we almost fucked on your accord, this is all on you, bub. where else is this gonna go? there isn't many other options. so if you're done with it, let me know so i can move the fuck on and not be led on by you." lucas was dumbfounded. he sat with wide eyes and his jaw dropped. i just waited for him to answer, but he just furrowed his brows and left.

he didn't say it, but i guess it's over then. who cares? he was the most annoying person i've ever done things like this with anyway. the most beautiful, but god, he's such a dick.