(Mika) Love You When I’m Drunk // The Origin of Love
I only love you when I’m drunk.
And when I am, it clouds my vision, and I’m left stumbling metaphorically and physically around a room with walls that won’t stop moving. We’re at a Halloween party, and you’re talking to a pretty girl with auburn, waterfall hair and green eyes; I’m sitting on the floor, cross-legged next to a boy dressed like a banana who’s much older than I am. His face is deeply tanned, and I tilt my head to the side to observe the way the cheap strobe lights flicker across the curve of his cheek. He hands me a bottle of wine, or something like it, and it tastes like shit but I swallow it anyway. “You’re gorgeous,” he tells me. I think he means it, but he’s drunk too, and he’s dressed like a fruit. Credibility is questionable. Does he love me like I love you?
A few hours later, the party is winding down. I almost fall asleep on your shoulder. My best friend is sitting on the floor, stuffing bread into her mouth and making a great show out of complaining how disgusting it tastes. I’m glad she’s here with me. You ruffle my hair and tell me to close my eyes. I wish you’d kiss me, but I know you won’t, because I’m seventeen and you’re twenty-something and wearing zombie make-up that would probably taste awful anyways. I want to tell you I love you. In that moment, I really do. You smell like cheap beer and vodka. I can’t see straight anymore.
I only love you when I’m drunk, but I wish I could be drunk forever. Because when I wake up, I won’t be able to hold onto this feeling, and you’ll become nothing more than the zombie from that party, who let me fall asleep on his shoulder at four in the morning.
I reach for the bottle of rum on the ground. Maybe if I drink enough, I won’t remember you at all.
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Short StoryA collection of short stories inspired by songs that speak to me in one way or another. Not meant to be much more than mismatched writing samples for my own enjoyment, but if you do happen to read this, please enjoy.