We pulled onto the parking lot of the massive hotel. I stared up and the sky, mind wandering to many filthy places. While lost in thought, I felt a hand slide into mine. I snapped back to reality and looked over to see Josh smiling at me. "Were here." he spoke softly, biting his lip as soon as the final word escaped. I couldn't compose myself around this man. He made that impossible. I was like putty in his calloused hands. The car pulled to a stop and Josh reached for the door handle. He jumped out and ran around the car, opening my door before I had the chance. I smiled up at him. I could feel my cheeks getting hot as I thanked him, stepping out of the car and into the brisk night air. Josh wrapped his arm around my waist as we made our way through the parking lot and into the lobby towards the elevators. The rest of the band trailed behind. Just as Josh pressed the elevator call button, a voice spoke out from behind us. I turned to see Joey waving. "Hey man, were gonna hang out in the hotel lounge and have some drinks." he shouted across the lobby. "Perfect." I heard Josh mutter under his breath before shouting back, "Okay, have fun guys. I'll just be in my room with Ana." the guys chuckled, obviously knowing we wanted this alone time.
It seemed like the elevator took forever to reach us. Once it opened, a man stepped out and we stepped in. "Empty.....I wonder if josh will take advantage of this situation..." I thought to myself. As soon as the doors slid shut, josh grabbed me by the waist and pulled my body to his. He tangled his hands into my hair softly before slowly pulling my face to his. I expected to feel his lips crash against mine, but instead, he met them with the tip of my nose and then pressed them to my forehead. My heart fluttered at the sweetness of the situation. It made my need for him grow stronger. "Josh?" I spoke, breathless from the hunger for him. "Shhhhh....." then he planted his lips against mine with a ravenous force. Just as soon as it began, it stopped. We had hit our floor and the elevator doors began sliding open. I pushed myself away from him as I smoothed out my messy hair, trying to regain some composure. He grabbed me by the hand and led me down the long hallway towards his room.
We strode into his room, both obviously flustered. He walked to the bed and tossed his shoes off. I walked up next to him and sat on the bed while removing my own shoes. He grabbed the remote off the nightstand and turned the TV on. He flipped through the guide until he found a music channel before tossing the remote back on the table. He turned towards me and bit his lip again....I couldn't handle it anymore....I needed him so desperately. My body was quivering at the thought of having his against mine.... of having him inside of me.... of feeling his hands trace the contours of my body. I could feel my panties getting soaked as I stared up at this entrancingly beautiful man. We stared at each other for what seemed like forever before he slowly stepped towards me, pulling his shirt over his head. I lifted my hand to his chest and gently traced along his skin down towards his belt before grabbing onto it and pulling him on top of me. He reached for the hem of my shirt and lifted it off of me. Then he placed his hand against my shoulder and gently pushed me down on to the bed. He leaned over me and stared directly into my eyes. His stare was intense and erotic. I slid my hand around the back of his neck and tugged at him, he obliged and slammed his lips into mine. The kiss was deep and full of the severe need for connection. Our tongues danced... an erotic tango. After a few moments, he severed the connection between our faces and spoke, severely out of breath, "I cannot get enough of you, Ana Grimes." Then he slid his hand down the front of my pants and shoved his fingers inside of me. I let out a loud moan as pleasure erupted inside of me. He smiled and spoke, "You like that, don't you?" I couldn't even respond. The feelings ransacking my body were too intense, all I could do was nod my head and bite my lip. Too soon, he removed his fingers and slid his hand back out of my jeans. I looked up at him confused as he slowly moved off of me. I sat up giving him a quizzical look before he walked away and into the bathroom.
I sat on the bed, confused and topless, trying to figure out what had just happened. I heard the bathroom door click open and Josh walked out. I looked up at him and opened my lips to speak, but he beat me to it..." Ana, I need to talk to you before we keep doing this..." Fear bubbled inside of my gut and I felt like I was going to vomit. He sat down next to me and looked at my horrified face. He burst out laughing before he spoke the words that eased me..." Oh my god, Ana, don't worry! You look terrified! I just want to figure out what we both want out of this before we let it continue getting too far. I wanna be open and honest and lay everything out on the table."
The tension in my body dissipated and I relaxed my jaw that didn't even know I had clenched. I waited for him to speak for what felt like a century. "Look, Ana....I like you...a lot. I don't want either of us to get hurt so I want to know what you want and I want you to know what I want. Id like for us to be on the same page. I respect you and this is what I need to do to show you that." I smiled at him but the fear rose inside me again as I thought about what I wanted from this man. I knew what I wanted, but I wasn't sure if it was what he wanted too... it couldn't be. Before I could speak, he began again. "I can tell you're deep in thought. Talk to me. Don't be afraid to say exactly how you feel." "I don't know, Josh....I don't know if we both feel the same way...I'm afraid to tell you what want because I know its not what you want." "How? How do you know unless you say it? Trust me, Ana.... just tell me what you're thinking." he responded, voice as sweet as honey. I took a deep breath before finally responding, "I've been in love with you since before I met you. I fell in love with your voice, your lyrics, your world views, your compassion. This has been a dream come true for me...I feel like I'm living in a film. I know you don't feel the same way, I'm sure this is just a fling, but I want you to know that I will cherish these moments for the rest of my life." I looked up at him, face ablaze with embarrassment. I expected to see a look of horror on his face, but instead I was met with the most genuine smile. "I may have only just met you, but I feel like I've known you my whole life. I feel a connection like I've never felt before. I'm in love with you too..."
"What? No seriously... can you say that again?" I MUST have heard him wrong. There was no way he just told me he was in love with me.... no way. I looked into his eyes, filled with sincerity as his lips parted... "I love you, Ana."
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Ana Grimes was a city girl who struggled with anxiety. Music helped, especially one of her favorite bands. She was mildly obsessed not only with the band, but the lead singer, Josh Katz, as well. She dreamed of one day getting to meet him and have a...