Bystander

God, hear me out!

I'm Chitose Okada. 15..or...maybe not...My age...I don't know anymore but I still remember the day that it all started. Well, it's vague but...

I remember my mother giving me money to buy something. I don't remember what I was supposed to buy though. Then, I went out and walked.

I bumped into some muscular men. They were...Mad? well, they were upset that I bumped into them and tried to chase me so I ran.

I ran as quick as I could and luckily for me, I was athletic.

However, while I was running, I dropped the money and tried to pick it up when I heard a loud beep.

It was the honk of a truck. It was going to hit me. I was so scared that I couldn't move.

After that, all I remember is lying on the ground. There were blood.

Then, a person asked if I was alright.

I thought, "I don't want to die...Not like this...Is..Is this the end?"

I cried back then.

Then I prayed with all my might.

"God, if you exist, hear me out...I still have a lot of things I haven't experienced...Please...Don't end it here...I beg you!"

Then I blacked out.

When I woke up, I was in a hospital...Wait...Was it a hospital?...I think it was.

My family were there. My mother, my father, my grandma, and my cousin.

They held my hands and they were warm.

I closed my eyes and prayed again

"God..I beg you! let me live longer! I'm ready to pay the price!"

The next thing I know was that my mother was hugging me and crying.

I sat up and checked my body. There was no wound.

All of us were surprised back then

Despite being confused, we were glad that I survived.

I was happy too.

I didn't even know that the price that I had to pay was the life I begged for.

I lived normally back then.

Then, I graduated and was looking for a job.

I was undoubtedly short. However, I thought it was normal until 10 years later.

My father died however I was still the 15 year old girl I once was. I never looked older despite being...Um..30? 35? I don't clearly know anymore but around that age, I still looked very young.

Because of my looks, a boy asked me out and we eventually got married. However, a few years later, he left me because he was bored. He was bored of me...

I was heart broken back then. And I thought it couldn't be worse...Well...Life is a fucking bitch...So...I found out that my mother died.

I lost it. I didn't have anything else in mind than go to where mom was.

I rushed there and of course, I never learn, I was hit yet again.

However, even though I was bleeding, I still stood up and walked.

Half way there, I lost all of my blood and fainted.

I was in a hospital when I woke up and I was covered in a white blanket.

I sat up and walked out. I had to hurry to mom.

I didn't care about what happened aside from going to my mother.

Then the guard blocked my way and asked me if I was Chitose Okada and I nodded.

He was shocked and fell on the ground. He was obviously scared.

I tried to pull him back up but then he held his radio and...I think he said...

"Patient 806739, Okada Chitose is at the entrance..Yes..The one who died yesterday."

I was shocked. I took the radio from him and asked whoever was on the other side and he told me that I was hit by a car and I died of blood loss.

However, I told him that I checked my body and there was no wounds and he was confused as well.

He told me to go the surgery room to check but I didn't want to confirm wether I was alive or dead. I wanted to see my mother.

I ran to out house and asked the people what happened to her. They said she was already in the cemetery so I rushed there.

When I found her grave, I knelt down and cried.

I complained why I wasn't with her...I apologized for everything and thanked her for everything...I wept non stop.

That was when my cousin saw me and hugged me and asked if I really was me and I said yes.

She was crying because she thought I died and went with mom while I cries because I wish I really went with my mother.

That was when I saw how miserable my cousin was. She said she wouldn't be able to bear it if I left her as well.

I thought that maybe, the reason I was still alive was to help my cousin.