Sehun has a twin, and I may know who it is.
"Honey? open the door please." My mom's voice brought me back and I probably looked as pale as ever as I put the picture and all the other stuff back in the box to open the door for her. I don't recall when was the last time I felt this numb.
"There's my beautiful daughter!" she grabbed me into a bear hug and I couldn't lift my arms to hug her back. I was still shocked from what I had just found out. Mom shouldn't know about this. No one should know about this!
But the question that triggered me the most was, does Luhan know?
I managed to fight the tears away and faked a no-teeth smile infront of my mom, then slightly turned around to ask her who dropped the box off and when I did, I found her already making her way to it. "Sehun is a great guy, he bought you this?! what is it?" She said as she scanned the box and was about to open it. It took all the energy that remained in me to run to her and grab the box away from her hands.
"So it's your first time seeing it?" I asked coolly. Someone broke into my house? into my room?!
My mom's confirmation came as she shook her head. She had her lips pursed which meant that she felt something was indeed wrong.
"Are you going to tell me what happened, dear?" She asked and tapped the spot next to her on the bed. I put the box on my desk and went to sit next to her.
"Nothing happened mom, we went to an old theatre which was a steak resturant and I had a wonderful time." If only that was the entire truth.
Atleast she seemed to be buying my lie as a small smile drew on her lips, I wasn't sure what my mom was thinking, but I was hoping that she'd let me be for now.
So she did.
"I'm glad you enjoyed your time, it's been a while since I saw you as happy as you looked today." She said. That was it. Tears threatened to roll down my face, and I suddenly remembered my older brother, I was always the happiest around him, but he was gone and I was left alone.
"Thanks mom." I said and kissed her cheek, she pulled me into another hug then searched my face for a moment before walking out of the bedroom door and leaving me in my own misery with the black box. The black box that may reveal a lie or start one.
"You do know that you can stop watching me like a hawk, right? I said I was fine." I said to Tao whose eyes never left me for a fraction of a second. I was sitting on my bed with my knees spread apart and my head between my hands. What have I done?
"I can't seem to trust you." Tao said. He was sitting in a chair across from me with his arms crossed over his chest.
I lifted my head up to look at him. "No one asked you to. But speaking about -I make air quotes- trust, where are my parents? the ones I'm supposed to trust, huh?" I asked Tao who suddenly went speechless.
"That's what I thought." I said and lied in bed, burrying my face in the crook of my elbow. No one cared about me, therefore, I cared for no one.
Except for a girl whose name could break my hell loose, I get fired up just by seeing her walk in front of me, but when I get closer to her, all my demons stop fighting and for once in my lifetime they remain silent, they allow me to be with her, to touch her, to kiss her even. I don't know which one is the real me, am I the insane boy who was released from rehab on probation, or the nice guy who can't seem to go a day without the girl? or is this all just in my head and my reality is wavering because of my fucked up mentality? what have I done to myself?