• Bts Angst •

「 hoseok － 2 」

"Namjoon i have to find her"

Namjoon looks at him in the eye, locking eye contact with the younger "do you even know her name?what if she doesn't really exist"hoseok shakes his head

"She is real namjoon, i feel it..if she wasn't then she wouldn't have been telling me something about her lucid dreaming. If she doesn't exist then she shouldn't had said that."hoseok looks down trying to recall everything that the girl had said.

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" All of you doesn't exist in reality..in the real world. I'm sorry baby, you're just part of my d-dream."

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The thing that was confusing hoseok is that the girl told him that he himself doesn't exist. Then maybe she thought that he was just her imagination not knowing that they were just sharing the same dream together.

Hoseok thought that everything that had happen was real, i mean he thought that it was going on for 1 and a half year and he was wrong. It was only for four months. But now he knows why the girl loves to sleep.

Just like what she said, whenever she's awake in the real world she's sleeping in the fake world and when she's awake in the fake world she's sleeping in the real world and the reason why hoseok thought that everything was real is because whenever he sleeps in the fake world he's still there when he wakes up.

Although everything was fake in the real world, the only things that were real is the both of them and their feelings for each other. Right now he can't help but worry and ask himself, why did they have to meet in a dream?

is it really destiny?

is she really his soulmate?

why didn't she told him earlier before that she was lucid dreaming?

Hoseok only found out that everything was a dream when namjoon told him so after he woke up crying. Hoseok kept mentioning about the girl so that's why namjoon told him that maybe it was just a bad dream.

Hoseok regretted hoping that everything was just a bad dream; before he woke up he remembered hoping that it was just a bad dream since he thought everything was real. Now that he knows what's real and what's not, he wants to go back in that dream and never wake up again.

He knows how selfish that is, but this is the only time he felt happiness and true love. Although his fans love him and so does his bandmates, he is still a fragile person..he still gets hurt from the bashers and anti. He wanted an escape and he got one, but sadly he had to go back again in the real world.

For a moment he felt selfish, for a moment he wanted more. But how can he go back, he can't risk his life now. Many people are worried and he himself is worried too because if he tries to lucid dream again, he's body cannot might take it anymore and give up since he's still in a critical situation.

What can he do?there are so many people around the world, how can he find her?does she even know him in the real world?maybe she does but who knows. The only thing that he can remember is her face and everything that had happen. But why can't he remember her name?

"hoseok-ah"he looked up to see his band mates "we brought food, the doctor said you can eat later. Rest for a bit first"hoseok gave them a small smile, as all of them entered his room. "i've been resting for four months, i wanna eat"he whines earning chuckles from the other.

"Have you been crying hoseok-ah?did something happen?"jin the oldest asked with a hint of worry in his voice, noticing that hoseok's eyes were puffy and a bit red. "yeah.."he says nodding his head, he doesn't feel like arguing or something about it since it's a bit obvious that he did cried.

"wanna share hyungie?"taehyung asks as he places down the food on the table beside the bed and sitting down beside namjoon. Hoseok nodded, he wanted to let it out..maybe his bandmates--his friends could help him.

He explained everything from the beginning until the end while he watches the expressions of his friends "weren't you atleast curious that we weren't there?"hoseok nodded "i were but i got a big feeling that i was back in my home town for a vacation that's why you guys weren't there.."

"vacation for a year and a half?"jungkook the youngest asked his hyung while his hyung shrugged "i don't know, i only thought it was a year and a half because i didn't know everything was just a dream"hoseok lets out a sigh feeling hopeless again.

Although he's an idol, he's a human too. A human who has feelings and wants to be free, though he loves all of his fans there is still a part of him that wants to escape from the real world and just feel loved and you know..just like what happened in his dream with the girl.

"are you sure she's real?"hoseok nodded trying to resist the annoyance that was building up inside of him. "Yes, i'm a hundred percent sure she's real"

"Then we will help you find her"they felt happy when they see hoseok's eyes lit up. "But how?"he asks furrowing his eyebrows "well you said everything happened back at your hometown right?maybe she's there"

Hoseok suddenly felt his heart racing so fast at the sudden information that he hadn't thought about earlier. "You're right!"hoseok smiled widely then felt tears building up again "Thank you so much"

"Don't worry hyung were always here to help you"jimin smiles at him gently patting his shoulder while he sits down beside his hyung then yoongi walked in front of him and gave him a small smile before ruffling his hair and saying;

"anything just to make you happy hoseok"

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a/n: any thoughts and any suggestions about the ending?alsoo do ya'll want part 3?