If Only I Can Live With You

Chapter 2:

CHAPTER 2:

"Argh!!!" I stretched my arms as I growl because I feel like my arms are both numb, pano ba naman kasi ay maghapon akong nakadapa dito sa aking kama habang nagbabasa ng isa sa mga librong bigay nila mom and dad.

Puro novels lang naman ang mga ito eh. Kahit anong books naman gutso kong basahin, I love to read everything, any genres. Folklores, mystery, sc-fi, tragic, romance, comedy, drama and of course my favourite genre, fantasy.

Aaminin ko, because of fictions and because of my imagination, nararamdaman ko kung paano maging masaya, nararamdaman ko kung paano mabuhay bilang mga bidang fictional character sa kuwentong binabasa ko. In other words, I'm comfortable when I'm reading every word from the story. Dito ko lang nararanasang makaramdam ng sobrang saya. Kahit kalian, di ako nakakaramdam ng kapaguran sa paggawa ng kung ano ang nakakapagpasaya sa akin.

For me, letters are my air. Words are my water. Sentences are my light. The paragraph is my food, and FICTION is my WORLD.

"Pam, maghahapunan na tayo." Dinig kong pagtawag sa akin ni ate Giselle.

"Oo nga, sister Pam. Kanina ka pa jan, di ka na nga naglunch eh, ano bang balak mo sa buhay mo? Ang mamatay sa gutom?!" OA na naman si ate Ginny, "Char lang, sis. Line ko yun sa school play namin next month."

"Labas ka na jan, Pam" huli kong narinig bago muling matahimik muli ang paligid.

Kanina pa pala ako dito sa kwarto. Nagkulong kasi ako matapos naming makabalik, parang naubos ang lakas ko sa unang pagsasalita ko tungkol sa mga nararamdaman ko kila mom and dad. Ano kayang iniisip at nararamdaman nila ngayon? Hyst...

Dahil nagugutom na rin ako ay di na ako nag inarte at agad na bumaba upang maghapunan. Naabutan ko na inihahanda na nila ate, mama at ng ilang katulong ang hapag. Casual scene for me every lunch and dinner.

"You know, sissy Giselle, minsan kailangan mo ding ngumiti at bumili ng senses of humors masyado kang serious sa lifes mo!" pabirong usal ni ate Ginny kay ate Giselle na tila naiirita na sa pagsasalita ng kakambal.

"Puro ka "s". Kapag magaling ka na mag English saka ako ngingiti araw araw." Walang ganang tugon ni ate Giselle.

"Whatevers, sis, napaka KJ mo talaga."

"Maupo na nga kayong dalawa, para na naman kayong aso't pusa." Sabat ni mama na nakapagpanguso kay ate Ginny,

"Si Giselle yung aso, tita, ako yung pusa kasi kasing ganda ko yung pusa ni Taylor Swiftines."

"Walang nagtatanong, mamatay na magtanong." Huling sinabi ni ate Giselle bago maupo sa tabi ko,

Nagdasal muna kami saka kumain. Tahimik lang ako buong dinner at tila kumakain lang para tumigil na sa pag iingay ang tiyan ko, wala akong kagana gana ngayon.

"Aakyat na po ako, mama, tatay, mga ate." Ani ko saka tumayo, "Manang, kumain na din po kayo, goodnight."

After taking bath, I lay on my bed and stare at my ceiling where glow-in-the-dark stuff are glowing. I let my phone play a song as I've reminiscing my childhood memories where I used to stare at stars every night, wishing for my parents to come back home and give me love and attention.

Wish that I could say these words tonight

Wish I have the courage, wish I might

Have the chance to show you, speak what's on my mind

While you're right next to me

I've loved you from the start

"Agnes, bakit di ka pa natutulog"

"I'm waiting for the falling star to showed up, mama Loly, nabasa ko po kasi dun sa libro na kapag nag wish ka daw sa falling star magkakatotoo yung wishes mo, so I'm waiting for it po" I answered without removing my eyes on the sky.

"Ano bang iwiwish mo sa falling star? Do you want a new toy? A book?"

"I want mom and dad to come home before my birthday, mama."

Wish that I could walk you down the road

Share each moment, have my hand to hold

My imagination's beginning to unfold

Every wish is granted, every dream and hope

"Mama! Look! A falling star!!" bulalas ko, "I wish my parents come home for my birthday" taimtim kong hiling.

"I heard what the falling star said," I turned my eyes at mama Loly,

"Did you? What did falling star say?" I'm too excited to know if the star would make my wish come true.

"The star said she will try,"

"It must be, your wish is my command, mama, why did she said that she will only try?" I'm already starting to cry, "Mama, tell the star to make my wish come true, please"

Mama just stares at me and smile, "Okay, I will, for now, the star said, you must sleep."

Wish I may, wish I might

Find a way to your heart

Wish that I'll be the sun to warm you all through your life

Wish you may feel my love that is hidden in the stars

Wish I may, wish I might

Be the one

My birthday has come and my parents don't show up, "Mama..."

"Yes?"

"Kaya po pala the star said that she will only try because she can't make it come true, mama, I just wanted to sleep for the whole day. Thank you for your efforts."

Then I walked away.

"Mom... dad..." a tear fell down through my cheeks and my vision all went black.

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Time and attention are more important than luxury and anything. Let's appreciate every small or big thing we have because we don't know that there are people who dream of what we have.