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It was only about ten to twenty minutes later when someone knocked on the door. I rushed, okay more like flew down the stairs and to the front door. I looked through he peephole and saw it was indeed kachan outside. Papa and dad were jmhanging out in the kitchen, I've noticed that's where they usually are most of the time. I open the door and kachan greets me with a hug and kiss, I blush and let him step inside.

I close and lock the door behind him, "okay, my new family is in the kitchen! You will love them!" I said as I bounced up and down as I made my way over to the kitchen with kachan following close behind. I step in and let kachan step besides me, "y-your parents are our Sensei's!?" He kinda yelled.

"Yeah! They are really nice!" I chirp as I hold onto his hand. He is kinda pale at the sight of two of his teachers, I mean they are his boyfriends new dads so why shouldn't he?

"Well, we're going to my room, okay?" "Have fun little listener!" "Not too much fun kiddo!" Dad said in a teasing tone, I blushed but lead kachan up to my room.

I open my door and he instantly goes to flop onto my bed, I leave the door open and lay next to him. "So did you see the news?" I visibly flinch but kachan didnt see it as he had his face in the covers. "U-uh yeah!" I stutter out. "You okay baby?" He says as he sits up and I sit up with him, "o-o course why wouldnt I be?" "Because you stutter when you are nervous or afraid."

I bite the inside of my cheek, curse my nervous habits but I guess it was either me or dad who was going to tell him. Dad did say that if I didnt tell him then he was going to. I shuffle and twitch with my hands as his stare becomes softer.

"I-I did it, I killed that poor woman..." I sob out as he immediately hugs me, whispering nice and sweet things into my ear. "I got scared and ran off, and I was so hungry... my body want in control anymore!" I sob as he runs circles onto my back. "I'm sorry deku, I didnt know"

It feels like forever until i had calmed down, I rub at my eyes as the shadows on the walls form into a creature. Oh no. The voices begin to infect and make their way into my brain, telling me to hurt myself and kachan. I wont listen!

My nails claw into my forearms as warm and calloused hands try to pry mine off. My hands fly to my head, they clutch it in agony of all the sounds and different voices. And once again, I'm back in the inky void. Nothing I can do as fear consumes me whole and my body is handed over to the other beast who controls me at my worst.

The voices scream at me as my body attacks kachan, my hands bashing his head. I can hear his screams of pain and surprise at my hands continue making their way back onto his head. Tears pooling out of my eyes as I watch him writhe, more voices emerge from the dark. They are papas and dads, thank the gods! They can stop this attack.

I'm suddenly pulled back as the creatures and voices come to a halt, it all stops as I look over to see the bleeding body of my boyfriend. I sob and scream as protective arms are placed around me, people are rushing in and out, and even takes kachan away. Who are they and why did this happen? Why to kachan!? I dont think I'll ever get my answer as my vision begins to blacken until I'm met with the all too familiar inky abyss.

I awake to a sleeping papa and dad, I can only see dads hair so this means he is on the other side of me. I can see papa clearly so i am in the middle of them, they probably didnt want me anywhere else.

My mind flashes with what I did, I start sobbing which seems to wake both of them up. Comforting words are heard in my ear as hands are felt on my back and in my hair. My sobs die down to sniffles as they protect me from the creatures and voices.

"I-im sorry.." my dry voice rasps out as I look at papa, "shhhhh, your weren't in control. It wasnt your fault little listener." Papa says as his hand goes back to his side, "mitsuki isn't mad, she understands that you cant control it. We aren't mad, no one is." Dad says as his arm reaches out to hold papas.

"I could only watch as I hurt him..." I whispered, "it's okay kiddo, katsuki will be just fine. But we do have some bad news about his condition." Dad starts but waits for papa to finish, I'm guessing because dad isn't mainstream so he doesnt deal with emotions.

"Little listener, katsuki is in a small coma. The doctors dont know when he'll be out of it but he is safe, do you want to visit him with Mitsuki?" I nod and pry myself away from their arms. I hurry to my room and change into something nice then what I had on. It was only some Jean's and a shirt but at least it wasn't covered with my boyfriends blood.

Dad had called auntie over quickly and she was willing to take me over to the hospital. Apparently I had been asleep for a day and a half, they knew I would wake up so they just kept me with them at all times. Not that I mind, sleep is good even if it was for a day and a half.

I open the door and see auntie standing there in her usual clothes, I grab her hand and she leads me to the car. I get in and watch as the people on the sidewalk fly past until they come to a halt.

I unbuckle myself and grab aunties hand once more as she leads me inside and to kachans room. Its bare and all white, the only color being kachans baby blue hospital gown. Kachan never has liked baby blue so they should change it to orange instead.

I let my thoughts run wild as I push a chair next to his bed, I take his hand in mine. Auntie nor me say anything but it's a comfortable silence between the two of us. I can only cry and hold kachans hand, knowing that i did this and kachan is in pain because of me.

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Edited: April 29, 2020