Confession #48

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Confession #48: Sometimes I just want to let go.

I'm so stupid. I'm a nobody. Nobody here's my little voice. If someone heard me, I can get my confidence.

I

JUST

CANT

TELL

YOU

HOW

FEEL.

My school counselor said, "my door is always open." I don't wanna talk to them. They are gonna tell my parents, and my teachers.

Sometimes I,

wish

someone 

could

read this,

someone

I know,

someone,

who can

take my hand,

hug me tight

and give me that spark/

I am just asking for that spark.

Just

one

little

spark

to

light 

up 

fire.

I don't know, Everything is killing me. I wanna let go, but I don't. I hate this life. I wish someone could read my mind and hold my hand.

I am tired of trying. I am tired of falling, getting yelled, knowing that some people know how shitty I am.

Man I screwed up so much. I swear to god if I told you guys everything, I would have to kill myself.

Not that that thought never crosses my mind.

Because it does. Every single day.

I always try to find why I survived.

And I honestly don't know.

Each day, gets better, but then it gets worse.

Honestly I don't know.

Sometimes I wished connor somehow found this. I don't want him to be back together with me I just want that friendship that I had with him before.

I wish he read this and found out how pathetically needed I am since I have nobody.

oh well.

It is time for me to stop thinking about self harm.

It is time for me to do homework.

Love to everyone who is hurting, mentally, forcefully, or physically.

- Taz

A/N I might just start signing my name off after each confession.

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