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idk anymore

Having anxiety and depression is like being scared and tired at the same time. It's the fear of failure, but no urge to be productive. It's wanting friends but hate socializing. It's wanting to be alone but not wanting to be lonely. It's feeling everything at once then feeling paralyzingly numb.
These things suck so bad but at the same time I hate talking about them. I feel so numb all the time yet I try to help people as much as I can. I don't even get what I'm doing.
I want to help people but I don't know how and half the time I have no idea what to say so what's the point. People say you have to help yourself before helping others but I don't know how to do that either.
I don't know anything anymore.