I began thinking .
Give him a chance and be happy ? Or ruin our friendship ?
My mind became jumbled with thoughts for what seemed like hours .
Thoughts stampeded into mind .
Unsure of what to say I finally spoke up .
" Martin , I have no doubt that you'd be great ! I just don't know " I whispered
"Sav, I understand what you mean . I do , honestly . I just want you to know I mean what I say ." He replied .
"Oh , I don't doubt that !" I quickly responded
"I just have never thought of the idea of the idea of us being anything more and I wouldn't wanna put a great friendship at risk ." I added .
A few weeks went by . Consisting of me going to martins in the morning and coming home at night . Except a few here and there where I'd spend the night because we'd Fall asleep watching a movie .
Those couple of weeks seemed like months . Each day I thought of these conversations me and Martin had . At this point they had kinda stopped . None the less , the topic still ran through my mind .
The thought never left my mind " am I lovable ?"