~ Chapter 38 ~
At this very moment I felt a whole new feeling one that I would have never wanted to come across. It felt like my stomach was going to explode from anger, guilt and sadness. My face twisted up as I let the anger run through me blocking out any other emotion. I could feel my eyes shifting as my wolf threatened to take over.
"Why?!" I demanded as I stood up from my space and took slow threatening steps towards them. My wolf wanted nothing more than to rip the two of them to shreds again and again until there was nothing left of them. The look of pure agony and anger I had seen pass through my father's eyes before they were left expressionless was enough for me to know he blamed me.
"W-we're sorry princess-" I cut his shaky voice off with a low growl.
"Don't you dare! Don't ever call me that. I am not and will never be your princess." I said through clenched teeth.
"Your father had a right to know and you can't run away from what you are prin-, I mean Chloe." He said bravely. I looked at him and snarled.
"I would've told him... no I WANTED TO TELL HIM! You had no right to come here and say things that should've come from my mouth!" I shouted at him.
I was just waiting for the right time to tell him. I had just talked to Ashton earlier about telling Mom and Dad about the whole guarding situation. Just as I had mustered up the courage to tell them this goes and happens. I know because of this it'll be harder for my parents to understand the situation as it was told to them by someone else... also the fact that I just mentioned I knew about it. I winced and prayed he didn't hear that.
"You knew? You knew this whole time and didn't think it was right to tell me and your mother?!" My father's angry voice made me snap my head in his direction. I knew by his face that he was trying his hardest to keep himself together, I looked at him helplessly. What could I say to make everything better?
"I... I wanted to tell you believe me I really did it's just whenever I wanted to I remember the conversation we had on the day Ashton came back and I was s-scared..." I trailed off and looked down not being able to handle his torn but angry gaze.
"That's no excuse Chloe! Do you know how much me and your mother went through because of you?!" He shouted. I flinched and looked up at him hurt ran through me like never before. I looked behind me at the two men that had just ruined my life.
"Get out!" I told them.
"But Chloe we need to tal-"
"I SAID GET OUT!" I snarled. They hesitated but turned and left not before looking at us one more time. When I heard the door shut behind them I looked back at my dad.
"Was I really not worth it... going through all that I mean?" I asked him quietly once I calmed down. He on the other hand was still the total opposite.
"Me and your mother went through hell! You don't know what it feels like to have your child taken away from you. You don't understand how we never even got to hold him! Once he was born we had to wait two weeks until we could visit our little boy! You don't understand the amount of tears your mother cried! But most of all you don't understand how much it killed us when we were told we couldn't see him again!" He yelled tears spilling out his eyes. My bottom lip trembled as my own tears ran down my face. I nodded and wiped them away but there was no use as they kept flowing.
"I'm sorry." I told him honestly. He stared at me for a few seconds before walking out the room straight passed me.
"Dad..." I called after him, shocking myself at the sound of my voice. I stared at the door he just walked through for a few seconds. The longer I stared the more emotions bubbled up inside me and until I finally snapped. I turned back towards the couch they were sitting on and exploded into my wolf. Howling in agony I slashed straight through the middle of the couch leaving it in two pieces. I lifted my head up into the air and let out a pain filled howl. I took one last look at the couch before turning and running out my house.
I could hear the sound of paws running after me but I didn't stop. The only person I wanted right now was my dad but I knew that would never be able to happen. He probably... oh wait scratch that, he never wants to talk to me again after what I did. It was all my fault after all. Once the sound of paws faded away I slowed down. Shifting back I stared down at the floor and let the tears fall. Where was I meant to go now? My dad was probably telling my mother what had just happened, I can't stand seeing her face with the same emotions as his.
The wind blew around me making me shiver as the cold breeze touched my skin and dried my tears. I blew out a breath as my mind ran through scenarios. What am I supposed to do, to make everything better? Running my hand down my face I jumped in shock as two warm arms wrapped around my waist from behind. I stiffened and tried to move away... I didn't deserve him but this only made him tighten his hold and pull me closer to him.
"Don't," he whispered softly. I stood still in his arms and shook my head.
"He hates me, I don't deserve... I- I don't deserve this... you." I stumbled over my words as I felt the pressure rush to the back of my eyes.
"Shhh..." he trailed off as he kissed the top of my head and inhaled deeply.
"I was so scared Chloe... I thought something happened to you when I felt your emotions." He mumbled into my hair the sound of his voice made my heart shatter. I never wanted to feel that pain and fear in his voice ever again.
"I'm sorry... I didn't know what else to do." I told him quietly. He sighed and turned me in his arms so I was facing him. Taking my face in his hands he brushed his thumbs along my cheek bones.
"Babe, it's ok but please next time come to me? I can help you, I don't like it when you're sad but I hate it when you don't come to me. It makes me feel like... like you don't think I could make you happy again." He told me seriously. I nodded and wrapped my arms around his neck, hugging him.
"I'm sorry," I told him again.
"It's ok; do you want to go back?" He asked. I pulled away and kissed him, I needed him right now. Why didn't I think to go to him? But instead run into the woods where all of this mess started. If I hadn't of ran into the woods last time none of this would be happening, but on the other hand I wouldn't of reunited with Ashton either.
"Yeah let's... let's go." I mumbled against his lips. He smiled slightly and took my hand in his as we made our way back.
"He doesn't hate you; he's just shocked any person would be after hearing that." Trey told me to fill in the silence that had surrounded us as we started talking. I looked down in guilt and for the first time I didn't believe the words of my mate. How could my father not hate me after everything I have done? It was so simple anyone could say he hates me just by that blank stare, no acknowledgment what-so-ever in his eyes when he walked away. Instead of telling him that, I nodded letting him know I understand.
"You don't believe me do you?" He asked hurt lacing his tone. I kept my eyes downcast and shrugged my shoulders.
"I can't... you didn't see the look on his face." I said and blinked back the tears which once again threatened to come out.
"I know, but I have seen the amount of love he has looked at you with and that's something which can't be replaced that quick. Just give him time he'll come round, I promise." He told me honestly. I closed my eyes and exhaled deeply as his words reassured me. Time, that's all he needs I told myself.
"Time... I can do that." I said hesitantly.
Just how much though?
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