Holding on to His Promises

Chapter 28: Right Way

I saw Hellen sleeping peacefully in her bed. I turned off the switch of the light. Having a heavy heart, I lay down on my bed while controlling my sobs. Pain was still striking me, and that was the reason why I couldn't stop crying. Nagtalakbong ako ng kumot at niyakap ang unan ko. My eyes were already swollen because of too much crying. I couldn't believe that loving Dylan would end up like this. I hated myself for giving my heart to him. He just broke it, and it hurt so bad.

"Demi?" I heard Hellen's voice. She was woken up. "Bakit ka umiiyak? Okay ka lang ba?" she worriedly asked me.

"I'm okay. D-don't mind me," I said without facing her.

"I'm here to listen."

"Thank you," I said between my cries.

She didn't talk again. I guessed she went back to sleep because she knew that I didn't want to open it up.

When morning came, I didn't attend my classes. I stayed in my bed, racking with too much sadness. I knew, I shouldn't be like this. But you wouldn't understand me unless you experienced it too. Hellen wasn't around because she had to work. It was already afternoon when I stood up. I felt a little bit dizzy and cold. I worried that the flu was starting again. That was the effect of my illness and the doctor already gave me a prescription what medicine to take in order to deal with it.

I dialed the number of a restaurant to order a food. I wore a jacket before I went back to my bed again. I felt weak. I leaned my back against the wall and stayed seated on the bed. I clasped my arms around my knees while staring at the window. I heaved a sigh when I felt my chest clench again as I thought of Dylan. With tears trying to escape from my eyes, I bit my lip.

I was interrupted when someone called me through Messenger. It was Mommy. I quickly wiped my tears away and checked my face. Hindi pwedeng makita ni Mommy na namamaga ang mg mata ko.

Sinagot ko ang call, at lumitaw ang mukha niya sa screen ng cellphone ko.

"Hi, sweetie! How are you?"

I smiled at her. "I didn't attend my classes today because I'm not feeling well." No more lies today.

Her brows furrowed. "How's your feeling? Sinong kasama mo riyan ngayon?"

"I'm alone but I'm fine. I just need to take a medicine." I swallowed when I felt a lump in my throat. I hated myself for hiding my health condition from them.

She heaved a sigh. "Okay. Take care of yourself, okay? Baka next week kami dumating ng Daddy mo riyan."

I nodded my head.

"Did you cry?" she asked. Nabigla ako sa tanong niya pero hindi ko pinahalata.

"W-why? Mukha ba akong umiyak, Mommy?" patay-malisyang sabi ko.

"Yes. Is everything okay?"

"Yes. Maybe because I'm not feeling well. Hindi rin kasi ako masyadong nakatulog ng maayos kagabi."

"Okay. Get rest now. Did you eat your breakfast already?"

"Nope. I just ordered kanina. I'm sure parating na 'yun, My."

"Okay."

Binilinan niya muna ako ng ilang mga bagay bago tinapos ang video call namin. Napabuga na lang ako sa hangin at muling humiga sa kama ko.

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Tila nag-iba sa pakiramdam ang pagpasok ko sa eskwelahan. I didn't feel comfortable because I was aware that Dylan might cross my path. I did miss him but I didn't know how to face him again.