Chapter 105

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I opened my eyes and saw that Briana was gone. She wasn't in the bathroom and since her phone is still here, I assumed she was downstairs, but she wasn't. I was gonna go look for her, but I heard music coming from the backyard.

I walked up to the door and she was dancing on the basketball court. She danced to "Suffocate" by J.Holiday and that song basically describes how I feel about her.

"'Cause I can't breathe when you talk to me
I can't breathe when you're touchin' me
I suffocate when you're away from me
So much love you take from me
I'm goin' out of my mind"

I opened the door and walked out onto the court. When she saw me, she smiled and stopped dancing.

"Did I wake you up?"

"Nah. What are you doing up?"

"I couldn't sleep. Dance with me?"

"Bri -"

"Please, Blake? I'll show you what to do; just follow my lead."

She stood behind me and placed her hands on my hips. She instructed me on what to do and how to move and it wasn't so bad. I think it's safe to say I learned how to dance tonight.

"So what were you thinking about?" I asked, sitting in the middle of the court.

"How did you know I was thinking about something?" she asked, sitting next to me.

"I know this is where you come to think when you don't wanna drive to the beach."

"You're very observant," she said with a smile.

"I know," I smiled back, "but what was it?"

"I was thinking about you. Us. The baby. The future."

I simply nodded.

"Do you think I'll be a good mom?" she asked. She lied back and looked up at the sky.

"I think you'll be a fantastic mom. I've seen the way you interact with kids; you'll be great."

She smiled and continued to look up at the sky. We stayed up talking for about an hour and then she fell asleep.

I picked her up and carried her back up to bed. While she slept, I watched her because she looked so peaceful. I looked down at her stomach and placed my hand on it. I couldn't help but smile knowing our child is growing in there.

I lied down beside her, put my arms around her and kissed her temple before falling asleep.



When I finally got to sleep last night, it was 6 a.m. I woke up to the sound of my alarm blaring in my ear. Even though I only got two hours of sleep, it's the most I've gotten in two weeks.

I decided to text Monique to let her know I wasn't coming in the studio today.

me: im not coming today.
niquey 🐻💕: is everything ok?
me: yeah. just feeling a little sick. can you come over when you're done for the day?
niquey 🐻💕: yeah.

"Babe, wake up. You're gonna be late," I said quietly, but loud enough for Blake to hear.

"I have today off," he said, kissing my shoulder, "you need to go back to sleep though. Two hours is not enough."

He kissed my neck, down to my shoulder while pulling me closer to him.

"Well I would if you would let me," I giggled.

"Okay," he chuckled.

He kissed me a few more times before he actually stopped. Within two minutes of closing my eyes, I was knocked out.


I woke up around 1:45, well rested and I had an idea.

"Blake, can you take me to Target?" I asked sweetly.

"Sure." He got his keys and we went to the store.

"So what are we doing here?" he asked.

"I need everything on this list," I said, showing him the note on my phone.

I got a pink & a blue pacifier, two baby bottles, some little boxes, bags, a big bag of candy & a pack of markers. After I got everything I needed, I paid for it and we went back home.

When I got in the house, I went to the island and starting putting this thing together.

I took the pink pacifier and put it in one of the boxes, then put the box & one of the bottles in the pink bag. I put some candy in the bag and wrote "Godmother" on the outside. I did the same with the other things and wrote "Godfather" on the outside of the blue bag.

I've already decided I want Monique & DJ to be the godparents, and this is my way of telling them.

When I finished, I had Blake write "I'm pregnant" on my stomach in case they don't get the hint.

About ten minutes later, DJ & Monique were walking through the door and into the living room.

"Are you feeling better?" Monique asked me.

"Much better," I said.

"Good. You work too hard and don't rest enough."

"So, what's up?" DJ asked.

Blake & I looked at each other and smiled. He got the bags off the kitchen counter and handed the pink one to Monique and the blue one to DJ.

They looked at the writing on the bags, then looked at us before opening them. They pulled out what was inside, then looked at us again.

"Bri, what are you trying to say?" Monique asked, smiling.

I lifted my shirt and revealed my stomach. They both grinned and jumped up to hug us.

"Will y'all be the godparents?" I asked.

"Of course!" they said in unison.

While they all talked about the baby and wedding stuff, I went upstairs to the bathroom to sit in the tub. I know it's weird, but I just needed some alone time with baby Griffin.

"Hey in there. It's your mom. I know it's pretty early, but they say babies can hear you in the womb and I just wanted to talk to you. You've probably heard that I don't want a kid, but that doesn't mean anything; I'm just young & dumb. I have no idea what I'm doing, but I'm sure I'll learn. Just know that your dad & I are gonna love you unconditionally."

The more I talked to my stomach, the more emotional I got.

"You have a big brother. His name is Ford. You're gonna love him and I'm sure he'll love you too. You would've had a big sister but..."

I got a little choked up and had to stop for a minute.

"But she had to leave me. I don't know why, but I try not to question it. Please little one, don't you leave me too. I don't think I could handle that again. I'm gonna do everything I can to make sure you're healthy & comfortable in there so we can meet. I love you my little baby."

I dried my eyes the best I could and got out of the tub. I walked out of the bathroom and Blake was standing at the door with red eyes. I'm assuming he heard everything I said.

He didn't say anything to me; he just engulfed me in a big hug and I hugged back. I think I really needed that.

I never thought I'd say this but, I'm so excited about this baby.

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